Of Pain and Opportunity

In 1980 I was caught up in racial riots in the UK.  I was afraid for my life in the same way that many people today are afraid.  I lay on that shopping mall floor, on top of my 16 month old baby to protect her, and thought I was going to die.
It took over 20 years for the resulting PTSD to be diagnosed.  For most of those 20 years I thought my life, and that of my child, was destroyed and in many respects it was.
My husband was an avid watcher of BBC World News – news filled with all the hatred and fear that one human, or one group of humans, can point towards another. 
In 1982 my mind had had as much as it could cope with and I had a mental breakdown.

My doctor taught me to not watch news.  Not to read of world events.  He told me that just 150 years before, people didn’t have much idea what was happening in the next town, and certainly the majority were unaware of what was happening in other countries.  He asked me if I planned to work in an active role to stop all these happenings.  Was I prepared to lay down my life to help resolve the situations that caused me such distress?   I was mother of a young child, wife, PTSD sufferer with violent panic attacks almost every day.   I was not in a position to give such aid and so my doctor taught me how to live without the daily news, to live in that same manner as the person 150 years prior would have done.  Unaware of distressing events outside my own personal sphere.  It was this advice that helped me keep my sanity.  I could do nothing about the big picture, so I helped those close to me instead.  Those individuals that I could guide and advise because of my personal experiences. 

A month ago Spirit gave me a message.  I was told it was time to stop messing about with the individuals, most of whom were quite comfortable in their pain and misery, and start to work towards the bigger picture.  To move towards working to aid the entire Collective Consciousness of Humanity in their decision regarding which way forward we will go.

I started to close down my business.  My one-on-one healing and counselling sessions, the meditation groups and within a few days an opportunity opened for me to start to step into that bigger picture.  The International Koalition of Krones was formed.  A Krone is a Wise Woman.  She is the Keeper of Ancient Knowledge and Wisdom.  She has earned her place in society – it is not just a name, or title, that you can simply use.  Krones have survived and taken that pain and fear and terror and turned it around into something good and wise for those who are prepared to listen.

A week ago I started to become more aware of world events.  Mainly in the USA.  I had to do this consciously because I have not watched TV or listened to news or read a newspaper in almost 40 years.  I had wrapped myself in cottonwool to protect myself from the hurt, pain and fear. 

Three days ago I watched in disbelief the murder of George Floyd and the subsequent upheavals.  I understood that George Floyd is a catalyst for change.  I strongly believe that we choose our path in this reality before we come here; that we have a Sacred Contract with every person we meet to assist us in creating that chosen path – and that includes those who hurt us.  I honour George Floyd and the journey he had here.  And in a way that so many people will never understand, I also honour the person who murdered him and triggered this opportunity for change.  It’s an unfortunate fact that without such triggers, without such pain, humans have a tendency to just plod forward through their lives.  Pain doesn’t have to be a trigger for growth, but it so often is the very thing that opens opportunity for change.

And it IS an opportunity.  It is the opportunity to oust the 10-year old in an old man’s body who has way too much power and way too big an Ego.  And yes, I also believe that he chose this path before he came to this life.

Yesterday I watched and read of the horrendous show of disregard of humanity outside St Johns.  I read of the statement of the Bishop of that diocese; and this morning I read of the treatment of the people who were there to provide aid and support – the religious people of St. Johns who were forced away from their place of worship and the aid they were giving in order for that 10-year-old in an old man’s body to have a photo opportunity.  A picture that is horrifyingly reminiscent of a similar photo of Hitler.

Today, after almost 40 years of hiding.  I step out of my cocoon.  I cannot hide any longer. 

And neither can anyone else.

We have an opportunity. BUT WE MUST DO IT WITHOUT RESORTING TO THE SAME TACTICS OF THAT TEMPER TANTRUM CALLED T-RUMP.  Those elements that stir up violence and anger and fear – we need these to stop or we will never succeed.  I know I come from a position of very little knowledge of the driving forces, but it seems to me that they are a part of the picture – deliberately inserted to keep the more peaceful resolution from happening.  It seems to me that these violent ones are placed to cause as much disruption as they can so that the 10-year-old can play at sending in his toy soldiers so that, in his mind, he can appear the beneficial protector.  I’m sorry – that picture went right out the window as you destroyed lives in order to stand, without prayer, humility, love – or permission – in front of that church holding and demeaning that Sacred Book.

For those who say they follow a Spiritual Path – you know you came here for a reason.  Many of you know that you have worked for many lifetimes to be here right now.  It doesn’t matter if you call yourself Awakened, Lightworkers, Indigo etc.  YOU ARE STARSEED and this, this time, is the reason we are here in so many numbers.  Right here.  Right NOW.

So many Starseeds have lost their way.  Forgotten what they came here to remember.  Fallen down the rabbit-hole of mis-information; distracted by superfluous things such as Twin-Flames and  energy-wave symptoms……  these are little things.  In the big picture they are irrelevant at this time.  Maybe they are your Truth, but right now you don’t need to worry about them.  You need to turn towards the bigger picture.  THIS is the time we need to help humans.  We need to show the power of peaceful Energy.  Of Love.  And that isn’t the sloppy heart-and-roses, so-called twin-flames or even the I-love-coffee /trees/the ocean.  This is the deep, strong, abiding Love that surpasses all boundaries.  The Love of one Human for another.  We say the words that “we are all One” but we don’t live with that Truth.

Now it’s time to do that.  To live that Truth.  When you hurt another.  You hurt me.  And You. 

We ARE all One.  How come you can hurt yourself so much.

Gy’ Shé em

Krone Auri’An

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