Posted in 2021

Controlling Empathy

All my life, for as long as I can remember, I have been overwhelmed.  For most of my life I believed it was because of my upbringing which was in a time when children could be seen, but most definitely were not to be heard.  It was confusing.  Adults and other children around me, made me feel befuddled. They made me fearful; they over-powered me with their very presence, with the noise that they made.  They were too active – too strong and I didn’t understand that it wasn’t their physical voice, or activity, or muscular strength that overpowered me – it was far stranger than that.  Some people could over-power me simply by looking at me and make me devolve into  tear-filled mess.

The noise that humans make hurts me.  Even now – in certain situations.  Not physically, it’s more of a mental disturbance.   It’s hard to describe, and as a child I had no means of reference to say that this pain which hurt my body and this pain which hurt my soul were any different.  I had no guidance to know that it wasn’t always physical noise that hurt.  Now I know that it is the chaotic, jumbled Energy noise that so many people put out, that can hurt so much.

Like many others, I had no-one to guide me, so I learnt avoidance.  I already knew how to disappear into the walls so that I couldn’t be seen but I also learned how to disappear into story books, how to travel to different realms.  My own way to describe it was to “go visit the Elephants”.  Basically I would leave my body and go where I felt safe.  On the open savannah with the elephants.  I would walk in their footsteps.    I have a guide, Emily, who is a big, blue, matriachal elephant.  I even have a painting of her on my wall.  She makes me feel safe.

I learned how not to be there even when my physical body was.  It was the only way I had at that time to control my environment.  When I got a bit older, I used food to control my environment.  I was anorexic.

That tentative control was violently ripped from me one day when I was caught up in riots. Now I understand that it wasn’t just the physical noise and violence of those riots, but the Energy of anger, fear, death; of dominance, destruction and hatred.  That Energy whirled around in a maelstrom of violence that I couldn’t handle.  For over 20 years after that event, I lived in fear of everything outside my front door.  I had zero control of everything that happened outside my front door.  It took that long for me to be diagnosed with PTSD.

Time moved on, I learned how to deal with the panic attacks that happened every day and especially whenever I went into a place where there were lots of people.  My need to escape the pain I felt was so great that I would become violent.  I’ve been thrown out of more that one McDonalds for going to thump someone who was simply talking loudly!

Time moved on, I learned coping strategies and life continued – and was even fulfilling at times.  Then, totally out of the blue, in the midst of a time when other dramas were playing out, I was accused of something I hadn’t done, something I hadn’t even been involved with and I was threatened with jail time.  My world was already very delicately poised, but with this threat it totally collapsed.  This was in August 2014.

In October 2014, I had what I call my Initial Spiritual Awakening Experience.  And in June the following year Essence Ka tha’ras came into my life.    There have been many times when I have stated that she saved my sanity and I am deadly serious about that.  Finally someone was able to explain to me what was happening. 

At 60 years of age I found out about Empathy.  Of course I knew about empathy as opposed to sympathy, but I didn’t know that empathy could also be an amalgam of our senses; a deeper sense. A response to the energies swirling about in the world around us.  I didn’t know that people are empathic in this way of sensing the energies around them.  I found out that I am Empathic – and that every other human on this planet has that ability to some degree or other.  If they are open to it – it’s a matter of sensitivity.  Most importantly, I learned that it overwhelms when you are not in control.  And I, most definitely, was not in control.  I finally discovered that all this pain and noise and overwhelm is because I am very sensitive to the energy of what is around me. 

Essence taught me that I can learn to take control.

That has probably been the most important part of my journey through this lifetime.  You really can’t learn to control how you perceive and receive the energy around you, until you learn about how Energy works and how to work with Energy.  You can’t just flick a switch – you have to learn about it.

The very first thing I needed to learn was how to stop seeing all this Energetic swirling as something to be feared.  Essence taught me that if I could learn to take control, instead of it controlling me, that this knowledge of the energy of the world around me could become my greatest gift for helping others.  I am driven to help others; and this could be an amazing tool but I had to change my mindset, my beliefs.  I’d had 60 years of fear and hiding from something that could be my greatest asset – but it wasn’t something that was going to be learned overnight. 

Essence got the ball rolling, but eventually my guides directed me to attend a weekly meditation circle in the town where I lived.  The people there were lovely.  Committed, helpful, caring – but the Energies they moved in were already too low a frequency for me to feel comfortable in and I wasn’t sufficiently experienced to be able to move through different frequencies without being affected.  I know that sounds like Ego – Hey, my frequency is higher than yours – but that is very definitely not the case.  It was simply that they worked in fields that operated in different frequencies than those I was starting to work in. I went there to learn skills I needed – primarily I needed to learn to trust what I Know.  To trust the Energy I was able to read.  How did I do this, I learned the art of psychometry. 

I was pretty hopeless with reading Energy off personal items such as jewellery, they feel inert to me, but my teacher would put a photograph in an envelope or face-down on the table and I would hover my hand over it, I wouldn’t touch it and I would attempt to ‘read’ the Energy I felt about whatever was in that photo that I couldn’t see.  I had to push myself out of my comfort zone and learn to say what came into my Knowing without doubting and second-guessing it.  Sometimes the things students would come out with when we did these exercises were hilarious or even ridiculous, but no-one ever made anyone else feel stupid.  We were all just having a go and I learned to relax and say whatever popped into my mind.  And surprisingly that information was uncannily accurate.

It was a good class.  Fun.  Great people.  And every single week for about 18 months, I left that class, got home and vomited.  Every single week after attending that class, I would spend hours throwing up. 

Now, to be fair,  I do have a number of food intolerances and vomiting isn’t really unusual for me when I eat certain natural food chemicals and so, week after week I thought it was something I was eating.  Until I was invited to visit the local Spiritual Church. 

I went into that church and immediately felt that really familiar draining of my Energy that I describe as ‘pain’.  This was a place of very low frequency and I was in a position of starting to be able to recognise and understand it.  When I had to rush out of that church in order to vomit, I knew exactly why I had been throwing up for the previous 18 months.  However lovely the people were in the class I had been attending, the Energy they were working in was too low for the frequencies I was learning to move within and when I mentioned this with my psychometry teacher, she confirmed that she too had recognised that I would soon be leaving to follow my own path.  This is a good way of understanding that you really can’t separate the physical from the spiritual.

During most of this time, I had lived in an apartment building with the most horrible, swirling, chaotic energy.  Next door was an even bigger apartment building that held energies that were even more intense.  It came to a point, when I had to move out.  I was the fourth successive manager of that building to have had a mental breakdown.  That’s how bad the Energy was there.  I amicably separated from my husband and moved to a town several hours away, but on the 1st January 2018 I found myself back in that building after getting a call for help in running the resort.  

Despite already having several years of learning to recognise and understand how to read the Energy and, at a basic level, how to work with it, I found myself just 8 days later, on the beach seeking a passive way to leave this life.  That’s how badly I was being affected by that energy of those buildings in just 8 short days.  I went into meditation and beseeched the Universe to either take me or to show me how to bring balance into my life. 

Balance is what I got.  I fell off the sea wall.  I had to be rescued by the fire service; had two stays in hospital and 4 1/2 hours of surgery pinning my leg back together.  When I came out of hospital I had to go back to that place of swirling, painful energy which had only become worse.  I had to spend 9 weeks in bed with my leg stuck in the air.  And I had to recognise that Energy and not allow it to take control of me once again.  I had to learn to choose how I worked with it. 

During those 9 weeks I was severely tested.  I don’t need to go into the details, but it was bad; it was hard.  And it was here that I came to understand that me being in control of the way I perceive and work with the energies around me, or of allowing these energies to control me as they had whilst I was younger was all about choice.  Choice and discernment.  I had the ability to choose how I saw, felt and reacted to the energies around me and in order to make that choice I had to be able to discern what was beneficial and what was not.   And believe me, not only then but in the three years since that accident, I have been severely challenged. 

Does this mean that I am now fully in control of my Empathic abilities.  Nope.  I think I will be learning and growing in this area for a long time yet.  What has happened is that I am learning to use that energy in the way that Essence told me I would be able to do.  I now view this ability as the true gift it is.  I use it to see my world as it is and not so much as it is presented.  I use it when I have a client – either for Reiki or drum healing or as a counsellor.  I use it within meditation for the benefit of the entire collective – and it’s impossible not to work with energy when working with Essence. 

One of the first things she taught me is that Everything is Energy, Frequency, Vibration.  It took me a while to get a really good handle on understanding that – but I think I’m pretty much getting there! 

Thank you.  Thank you for listening.  I hope the sharing of my journey helps you to better understand your journey and not to be overwhelmed by the fears of uncontrolled empathy.

Gy’ Shé em
Flip the heaviness and Shine your Bling

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The International Koalition of Krones (IKoK) is an international group of Spiritually Awakened Wise Women whose goal is to assist the Collective in it’s continued Spiritual Awakening & Consciousness Expansion Journey during this time on Earth referred to as “The Great Awakening”

The Founder of the IKoK, Essence Ka tha’ras, is, amongst many other things, a Master Metatronic Numerologist. If you wish to explore her work, and the work of the IKoK, there are links below.

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Posted in 2021

Autumn

Yesterday was my 66th birthday. 

Today, I woke very early, 3.00am and spoke for a couple of hours with close Facebook friends.   Sisters in Spirit.   I came away from that conversation with a feeling of being re-directed.  Or rather, of recognition of a re-direction that was already in place.

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This is my time of stepping into the Autumn of my life.  I feel the shift.  I feel it as a physical thing as I write this – a not-quite dizziness, a side stepping within the realms of the dimensions I normally travel in.  As if I am holding my breath.  There is a feeling of clarity that is overlaid with wonder and excitement – and not a little trepidation.  This moving into the Autumn of my life involves a shedding.

As trees shed their leaves, I have been shedding mine – although it wasn’t really clear until this chat with my Facebook sisters.  Dreams have changed into so much smoke and have drifted away on the crazy-making winds of Covid-induced fear.  Plans that were ripe for exploring and bringing into the world have sunk back into the ground.  Those explorations of things that were going to make a real difference in this world, feels very much as if they will never materialise again in my current lifetime.  Yet they still may.  I am not yet prepared to fully shed my dreams.  I hold hope in my heart for humanity.

I have friends who are also finding that they need to make changes and although I doubt they will ever leave my life, distance is coming into play.  A moving away as a leaf moves away on the wind of change.  Anchors in social media are becoming full of holes as the travel directions of gifted knowledge are ignored by those who are seeking their way, but not noticing the signposts. 

Moving into this third season of my life is a physical thing.  And a spiritual thing.  You really cannot separate them.  Physically, I am leaving behind the zest and energy of the spring and the summer.  There is a physical slowing down.  Spiritually, there is a pause.  A waiting time.  This is, perhaps, the greatest shift. 

I have been spending untold Energy in trying to help many people, utilising tools such as social media; bashing my head against so many pairs of closed ears and eyes.  Talking, teaching of certain things, only to find that those who appeared to be listening were not.  And then hearing the words echoed back at a later time with the warped twist of Chinese Whispers and displayed as something new.

Autumn is a season of changes.  A time of preparation and the start of the slowing down for that time of rest known as Winter.  I feel it will be a long Autumn in the seasons of my life and I can see where the refocusing is going to lie.  At least, for now.  My interest in creativity is very strong.  The potential of weaving a dream into reality is being redirected into the creation of weaving rag rugs.  The foundation of a future I wanted to build is being re-directed into an exploration of the joys and complexities of polymer clay!  This shedding doesn’t mean the end, just a re-shaping, a pulling-back into a smaller world. 

Time to stop worrying about the rest of the world.  About the Neophytes who think they are Masters and the harm they can bring about in their unknowingly feeding Energy into the very things they believe they are fighting.  The Collective Consciousness of Humanity will decide it’s own future.  I am but one small thread, a whisper in a crowd that is yelling “Me, me, me.”

It’s going to be interesting to see where this Autumn of shedding leaves will take me.  But one thing is True…   I AM Krone.  I share my thoughts – it’s up to you if you listen. 

The International Koalition of Krones (IKoK) is an international group of Spiritually Awakened Wise Women whose goal is to assist the Collective in it’s continued Spiritual Awakening & Consciousness Expansion Journey during this time on Earth referred to as “The Great Awakening”

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Posted in 2021

What’s the Point?

I am one of the Krones of the International Koalition of Krones. This is a Transcript of my talk on the IKoK Chat on June 4th, 2021.

You can find more information on the IKoK at the bottom of this blog.


In the last chat I delved a little deeper into how we deal with our problems, and I talked about the need to take action steps.   Today, I’m going to delve a bit deeper again.  This issue, of needing to take action steps,  is a fundamental  building tool that we are not using correctly and that is, in many ways, holding us back from being able to come together in a way that can highlight the future that we want to see this Collective moving towards.

On the 5th of May, people all around the world started 108 Days of Sacred Meditation, and the aim of that meditation is to create the necessary Metamorphosis for the Collective Consciousness of Humanity and to bring into existence the energy of its Bliss.

Metamorphosis is the changing of one thing into something totally different.  Think of a caterpillar changing into a butterfly.  At the moment we, the Collective, we are the caterpillar and all we are thinking of is satisfying our needs.  What we, as individuals, want.

And what IS our Bliss?  What is it that we, the Collective Consciousness of Humanity are really seeking for the future of our species?  I know I have my ideas, as an individual, of what I want to future to look like, but I am only one tiny little thread of the Collective.  I can easily envisage how I want it to look for the next 10 years or so – after that it gets a bit tricky.  And when we stretch it out, like, 50 years…   Well, I pretty much expect to be pushing up daisies by then, so do I need to worry about that? 

Well.  Yes I do.  For several reasons. 


First:  How I act upon the choices I make today, will affect those who are living when I – in this human body, are not living any more.


Second:  And this is going to upset a lot of Starseed who think they are finished with this human life and are ‘going home’ when they exit this world.  Wrong.  The only thing that we are finished with is the work we first came here to do.  That’s where that strong feeling of finalising comes from.  It’s the Work that’s been completed.  The planet is now at a sufficiently high level that the Energy can support the Great Awakening that is happening.  We’ve done that job BUT we have more work to do.  You know that just by looking around you.  We are not at the end-game yet and we WILL be back.  Think about how you want the world to look when you do come back.  In 50 years.  A hundred years.  A thousand years!  If we make bad choices now, we don’t get to escape the consequences!


Third:  We are all ONE.  We have a habit of just saying those words without feeling right into what they mean; without understanding the depth and the emotion and the Energy.  We ARE all One.  We are fractal parts of each other and of Source.  What we do to each other we do to our Self.  If we don’t make the right choices, we will hurt other people, other beings – and that means we are hurting our own Self.  That’s a tricky one to get your head around, I know.  But it is Truth.

I’m going to take a little sidestep here.  We’ll get back to that lot at another time, but right now I want to stop and have a think about the choices that we ARE making right now.  Choices as individuals.  Choices pertaining to the stuff I’ve been talking about for the last couple of chats.  I’m going to step right into the physical side of our lives. 

A month or so ago my guides gave me a nudge to go check a French Philosopher called Rene Descartes.  I’m sure a lot of you have heard of him.  I’d heard the name, but knew nothing of him.  The thing that my guides were sending me to look at was that he is the chappie who is responsible for our current medical point of view.  He decided that he was going to prove the existence of God and along the way he worked out – erroneously in my mind – that the physical and the spiritual aspects of a human can actually survive independent of each other.  Hmmm… 

The upshot is that medicine started to view the human body as a mechanical system.  The soul / spirit / mind had nothing to do with the mechanics of the human body.  And over time we were taught that we cannot heal our own bodies, we need the equivalent of a car mechanic;  that we need the aid of doctors and drugs.  And you know what?  There are lots of instances where that is totally correct,  we do need our modern medical knowledge and expertise, but the problem is that we have come to a situation where when we are unwell, we visit a doctor and we ‘hand over’ our symptoms. We give the doctor a list – verbally, written, however – of all the things we are experiencing – our symptoms – and we look to the doctor to fix it.  We abdicate responsibility for our ill health.  We don’t recognise and acknowledge that the dis-ease could be something of OUR making – maybe our food choices or lack of exercise or allowing stress to get out of control. Whatever it is, we go to the doctors to get it all sorted out.

We get a diagnosis and usually a script for medication.  Again, nothing wrong with that when needed, but the problem is that we have generally abdicated responsibility for our Self.  And when we include our Spiritual Self – because we now know that the physical body and the spiritual body are not separate, we find again so many people who are unwell, who ask for Energy Healing, for prayers, and are expecting the results to be just like a doctor visit.  They ask for help and lots of people do send healing energy and prayers, and that is lovely – but what are the people receiving this energy doing on their end?  Are they taking action steps to fix the situation that has come about; or are they waiting for that energy to flow over and through them and fix all the problems without them having to do the hard yakka.

In the last chat I spoke of how I used the Energy that was shared with me when I was seriously ill.  I outlined the Action Steps I took.  I talked of how I took strength from the care of those people around me and I mentioned that none of that Energy was given in a way that is considered as Spiritual Healing Energy.  But Energy is simply energy, whatever it’s source.  It was the practical care of doctors, physios, chiropractors; the people I worked with; family; friends and strangers that I received.

I mentioned how I had a choice:  I could use that Energy to accept my illness, to accept that wheelchair.  I could have ignored and negated all the energy and assistance given to me and slumped into despondency and depression – and still ended up in that wheelchair.  I could have taken that energy and done nothing with it; expected it to fix my illness in the manner of a miracle – and then perhaps got angry, and despondent and depressed because it didn’t work.  But I chose differently and it was that choice that has lead me, directly, to being here talking with you.

I’m going to tell you another story.  When my first husband died, a lot of people helped me.  On the day of his funeral we heard of a group of thieves who were breaking in to the homes of the bereaved whilst they were at the funeral.  One of my sister in laws got on the phone to a friend and asked her to house sit whilst we were all out.  No problems – let me just get someone to collect my son from school.  I later heard that the person collecting the boy had to also change some appointments in order to help and that, of course, affected the people the appointments were with.  There was a domino effect of people helping people.  And those people two or three times removed, had no idea that they were, ultimately, helping with my safety and the protection of my home.  They didn’t know me at all.  People Helping People

I want you to now widen your horizon and think about the people who are sending that energy to those who request it.  They are everyday people with everyday problems just like you and I.  People Helping People.  People who are struggling themselves, and still helping other people.  Wouldn’t it be nice if that could circle around and that those people giving help, could also be helped.  Well they can.  And this is where you come in.

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Action Steps.  I’m talking, of course, about action steps.  We have to take them.  Energy is just Energy.  Think about electricity  and your coffee maker.  The electricity is just sitting there until you take the action step and turn the machine on.  And that’s when magic happens.  And what we are going to do.  I want you to be the switch that allow the energy to flow.  Take the action steps right where you are in YOUR community.  Give some of your energy – not a spiritually energetic way but rather in a physical way – go volunteer your time and energy somewhere where it is needed.  Be someone who helps someone.  There are always organisations who cry out for volunteers.  My own town – there is a very dedicated and small group of people who are seen everywhere – because there is need for volunteers and not enough people who are willing to share their energy. 

And it’s not just helping people that needs to happen.  Animals need that help.  And so does our countryside.  Yesterday, I was cycling home along the path that runs next to the ocean.  Wedged in a low branch on one of the trees was two plastic bottles.  A human had placed them there.  A human that obviously couldn’t take the rubbish home them or put it in the rubbish bin that was about 20 paces away.  What they thought would happen is beyond me.  It blows my mind to think that humans are so lazy and dirty and uncaring.  Don’t be a human that causes damage or inflicts pain.  Be a human that looks after the place we live. 

People helping people.

People helping animals.
People helping our environment.
People helping…….

Physically, Practically, Purposefully.


This is the first step to healing our reality.

This is the 1/66 Dual Frequency I AM Keyword Phrase in action.  Let me refresh your memory:

I AM Physical Form Perfected.

I AM Somatic and Psychic Dis-ease, Experienced and Acknowledged.

I AM Healed.

Now, have a think about that, not as “me,” the individual, but as Me: One with our species, our planet.  Me: Gaia.

If we, as a Collective, as people, as a species, can’t undergo that metamorphoses, and take the action steps we need in order to change from a caterpillar to a butterfly, if we can’t make the leap into doing the physical work we need to do to make the change, well, what’s the point?  Why carry on?  We might as well just pack up our bags right now. 

OM AkarapariNAma Anandaham


The International Koalition of Krones (IKoK) is an international group of Spiritually Awakened Wise Women whose goal is to assist the Collective in it’s continued Spiritual Awakening & Consciousness Expansion Journey during this time on Earth referred to as “The Great Awakening”

The Founder of the IKoK, Essence Ka tha’ras, is, amongst many other things, a Master Metatronic Numerologist. If you wish to explore her work, and the work of the IKoK, there are links below.

There are also You Tube and Soundcloud links to the full IKoK Chat if you wish to know more about the work we do.

Please feel free to share this blog. I only ask that you share it in it’s entirety and not just snippets. You can also share the memes on the following page: Memes and Other Stuff

Posted in 2021

The Value of Community Action

I am one of the Krones of the International Koalition of Krones. This is a Transcript of my talk on the IKoK Chat on May, 21st, 2021.

You can find more information on the IKoK at the bottom of this blog.


Photo by Mike Erskine on Unsplash

In the last chat I spoke about the 1/66 Dual Frequency I AM Keyword phrase and its impact on me, personally.  I spoke of how I had to dig deep into the Energy and the Meaning of that Keyword phrase in order to fully understand how It could aid me.  I spoke of how I understood that this was work that I had to do.  How I knew it was work for me not only on a personal level, but for me as an individual aspect of the Collective and the work I do on behalf of the entire Collective Consciousness of Humanity and beyond. 

Last week I focused mainly on the work I needed to do for me as an individual.  Today, I am going to talk again about that work, but I’m also going to be speaking of how we can use this to aid, not just an individual, but the entire Collective.  I’m not talking just Humans, I’m talking about ALL Beings; I’m talking about how we can utilise the Energy of Healing, and how we can do this work of healing for all on this planet. 

In this life time, I’ve only been on my conscious spiritual journey for a little under 7 years – not long in the grand scheme of things so I don’t know how the Physical and the Spiritual came together – worked together – in those earlier times, but if I look back to that hippy era, there seems to have been a ‘togetherness’ that appears to be lacking right now.  What I do know and am very aware of is that in these recent years we have been highly focussed on the Spiritual aspect of our current growth and that’s fine, things cycle around.  Now it’s time to bring things back into balance and regain that knowledge that you really can’t separate the physical from the spiritual.

In the last chat I mentioned one of the health issues I have had to deal with for many years – chronic pain.  I spoke of my doctor’s recommendation that I use a wheelchair and my decision not to accept that future for myself.  I spoke of the choice I made, but I didn’t go into any depth regarding how I actioned that choice and I didn’t talk about the steps I took to ensure better physical health. 

“Actioned” the choice.   “Steps” I took.

I, like you, am an individual part of the Collective.  I’m one of the threads in the Tapestry of Life, just like you are.  What I do affects the Collective.  What YOU do also affects the Collective.  If, at that point in my life, when the doctors told me I needed to accept that wheelchair, if at that time, I had simply asked people to pray for me, to send energy – as so many people do when life is difficult –   if that was all I had relied on, I probably wouldn’t be alive today.  I personally know people who have died because they relied purely on that energy healing. 

I’m not saying it doesn’t help – one of my main skills is distance healing.  Science has proven through Quantum Entanglement that energy really does move in that way – from one point on the globe to another point on the globe, and that some people are proficient in actioning that. But you, as Starseed, Lightworker or whatever you want to call yourself, you can send all the Loving, Healing Energy you want, but it won’t help in the recipient’s physical world unless the action steps are also undertaken.  And if that doesn’t happen, if Action Steps are never taken…  Well, what’s the point?  We might as well pack up and give up on the human race.

So let’s delve a bit deeper about Action Steps, and we can use my experience as an example.  I was supported by many people – doctors, physios, chiropractors, family, friends….  And all that supportive energy could just as easily have been channelled into supporting me into accepting my limitations, accepting that wheelchair and the inevitable worsening of my condition.  That energy was being caringly given, and it was being gratefully received, but if I had sat there and waited for that Energy to do the work for me, nothing would have been achieved.

How I did use that supportive energy was to quit my job; to move to a place that is more energetically suited to me – next to the ocean.  And I started to learn to move again.   It was hard.  It was very hard.  It pushed me out of my comfort zone, every day – many times a day.  I started with getting out of my chair and walking across the room.  It took me four months to be able to walk to the lift, across the lobby, out of the door, across the road and onto the beach.  About 500 meters.  1/4 of a mile.  Then I would rest on the sand for a couple of hours and then start the long journey back.  It took me over two years to wean myself off all the drugs.  And all the time I was receiving caring, supportive Energy. 

If I hadn’t had people around me supporting me energetically, could I have found the strength I needed to take those action steps? If I was doing it on my own? Probably not.  That Energy, that wasn’t given in a Spiritual way, through meditation or distance healing or Reiki, it was simply people caring and helping.  And it was essential, but it would have been useless if I hadn’t used that support to take the action steps that I did. 

There’s a synergy at play.  It’s a synergy that we seem to be losing touch with.  Especially during this last year or so where we have been so isolated from each other.  That synergy is brought into play by the community supporting the action steps needed to bring about the desired result.  And that synergy is what we need to start to focus on in order to bring about Collective Healing. 

There are many Starseeds who ask why they are here.  What their role is.  What work are they here to do.  Here is the answer.

The Collective.  Individuals form the Collective.  Individuals form the Community you live and work within.  You are a member of your community; you are an aspect of the Collective.   Yes, these are just words and it doesn’t matter which word you prefer.  What it means is that you are a part of the energy source for your community and you are a part of the needed action steps  to bring that healing energy into the physical world.  How do we do that?  We do what we are here to do as Starseed – we help our community and not just Energetically.  We give service to our community. Physical service.  Our work is Community Service.

There are many ways that you can be involved in community service, but I tell you now – this is work that involves the very survival of your community and many of the individuals within it.  And I tell you this too – when the survival of a community is at risk, so too is the survival of the species.  This is grass-roots work.  Let me give you some examples.

I know a lady who has given her life to Community Service.  She’s an awesome person and one of the things she does is to organise the Meals on Wheels service within my community.  Without this work that she does, many elderly people would have no outside contact with the world, wouldn’t get a proper meal.  No-one would know if they fell over and broke their hip.  Her work provides a lifeline for these people.  She could sit under a tree and Spiritually send healing energy to the elderly of our town, and that would be good but that wouldn’t feed them or make sure that they are actually still alive, and well.  That synergy of the Energy given and the action steps taken is essential.

And it works both ways.  I work within Community Service.  All my work is voluntary.  Some of it I actually get paid for in a round-about way.  I’m technically unemployed, but at almost 66 years old, I’m not going to be able to get a paid job, so I do community service instead of competing with the younger ones for work.  Our Government supports this for our older community who are not yet old enough to retire, but are unlikely to be offered, or physically able to undertake full time work.  But, and it’s a big but, If I didn’t do this volunteer work, I wouldn’t get unemployment benefits.  Without that, I’d be without a home.  Or food.  I’d be destitute.  My giving of energy spiritually and physically – and my taking action steps within my community, is what ensures my personal survival. 

Again it’s about choice.  I can choose to sit under a tree, go into meditation and concentrate on sending Energy to help someone. And I do do that.  Then I can go home, make a coffee and feel good about myself.  But have I really helped that person?  Does sending all the love and healing energy in the world help the physical reality of that person?  I’d really like you to think about that question.  And then think about what you can do to change it.  What action steps do you need to take to bring about that synergy in your community.

So where do you start to bring that change into the world?  That change that we all desire so much.  You start right where you are. You take action steps within YOUR community.  A bit like ‘paying it forward.’  I’ll talk more on this in the next chat.   By you taking action steps within your community you are anchoring the 5 frequency not only into your community but also into the planet.  The 5 Frequency is a neutral charge – a grounding frequency.  It is about having the courage to step out beyond our comfort zone.  And that is what our work is all about – pushing the boundaries that say we have to do things in a certain way; it looks for positive change, looks for what else out there might be true, and teaches the right use of free will.

You cannot separate the physical from the spiritual. You need to tattoo that on your arm so you can’t forget it.  We are human.  And although our Spirit isn’t confined within our physical body, it is tied to it for this lifetime reality.  We cannot separate them and remain alive in this reality. 

Energy and Action – that is the synergy we need to make the changes and the choices we, as a Collective, need to make in order to heal and to move into a better future.

OM AkarapariNAma Anandaham


The International Koalition of Krones (IKoK) is an international group of Spiritually Awakened Wise Women whose goal is to assist the Collective in it’s continued Spiritual Awakening & Consciousness Expansion Journey during this time on Earth referred to as “The Great Awakening”

The Founder of the IKoK, Essence Ka tha’ras, is, amongst many other things, a Master Metatronic Numerologist. If you wish to explore her work, and the work of the IKoK, there are links below.

There are also You Tube and Soundcloud links to the full IKoK Chat if you wish to know more about the work we do.

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Posted in 2021

I Thank You

We are all on a journey. A Journey through Life. That means we have the opportunity to experience all the ups and downs that life has to offer and we also have the opportunity as individuals to learn and grow from those experiences. And over the last year or so we have had opportunities galore.

I’ve mentioned before that the old adage of “no gain without pain” is old hat, and that we can just as easily learn and grow from Joy and Love and Laughter, but it appears that the Collective has been stuck in that old Energy and seems determined to walk the hardest road. And so we travel into our Collective Dark Night of the Soul.

I’ve been in that place a couple of times and it is not fun. This year has been almost non-stop ‘not fun’ for me on a personal level and I know for sure that I am not alone in that, but I am fortunate. Firstly, I have been in these overwhelm situations many times and I know how to deal with them, and it helps that a few years ago I started a course of study to help not only myself but others who find themselves in these situations where things just overwhelm so badly that you can’t cope. Now I have the technical back-up, and a tried and tested action plan to get me back on track.

Returning to ‘normality’ from a crazy, difficult, emotional period in your life is not easy. It doesn’t happen overnight. You can even get a few ‘false-positives’ where you are sure that you have overcome your tricky times, only to find that the hard stuff still keeps happening. I believe I am finally back, and that this time it’s real and not a ‘false-positive.’

One of the things that has been instrumental in my being able to deal with the heavy stuff is that I have had the support of friends. Essence and Kō B’a Jā, the other Krones in the International Koalition of Krones, have given me the breathing space I needed in the cyber world. We’ve never met physically but these two people are incredibly important in my life and despite having some hard things happening in their lives too, they’ve kept the social media stuff rolling on to the point where I’m pretty sure most people didn’t even miss me. I’ve also had three close friends who have supported me in the physical world with hugs; tissues to wipe my tears; kind, encouraging words and plenty of scotch, chocolate and cheese!

I learn by experiencing things and my recent experience seems to me to be a microcosm of the macrocosm. My personal experience of what the Collective is also going through. We are each going through hard and difficult times, but we are each not alone. It almost seems easier to see our Oneness as we all travel through our individual but oh-so-similar Life Journey together.

Have you noticed how so many people seem to be hunkering down? So many people suffering from overwhelm and anxiety? We have to support each other. We have to give each other space and respect that those you are talking with are probably struggling too. This has been my experience of what is needed for the Collective to come back from the happenings of 2020. There has to be very few people of this planet that haven’t been affected by Covid and the explosive political messes of the last year or so and right now we need to collectively take a few deep breaths and get ourselves grounded again. We need to stop the merry-go-round for a while because we all know that it’s going to pick up speed again very soon. This show ain’t over.

We need to be gentle with each other.

Gy’ Shé em

Krone Auri’An

Posted in 2021

Drama and Ego

I’m no expert, but it seems to me that in times of war you have to stop and review what’s been going on, what you believe will happen, what you want to see happen and what is likely to actually happen.  This is what I have been doing over the last few weeks.

I’m not a regular writer in this blog.  I have a tendency to do my other stuff until something happens and I just have to write about it – and if that need to write gets as far as actually publishing, well that is just awesome!  I had intended to become a tad more disciplined this year – at least I had until the Universe stepped in with other plans.

So far it’s been a year of drama.  And really?  I’ve had quite enough drama in my life to be quite happily bored for a time.  We know that there is massive amounts of drama in the world but I’m talking personal drama on top of all that Covid crap. It’s been full on and has felt like a major war with massive salvos being shot across my equanimity. 

It should have been no surprise.  I’d had plenty of warning from my Spiritual Sister and Teacher, Essence Ka tha’ras.  I knew that the Collective Consciousness of Humanity was heading towards a Collective Dark Night of the Soul and that it won’t peak at its worst point until September 2022.  I also know (because I work closely with her and have seen her predictions come into reality so many times that any doubt just doesn’t exist) that this is only the first stage of that DNOTS and that things are likely to get a whole lot rockier.

So what on Earth made me think that I would escape?  Was it because I have just come out of my own DNOTS?  It took me over 5 years to pull that one off, so I have all the experience in the world about working and living in that place.  I definitely thought I could use that to help others as they fall into their own personal dark place.  Could I possibly have thought that I was immune because during my DNOTS I also studied and gained my skills and qualifications as an Holistic Counsellor? 

Who knows?  What I do know is that in thinking I could avoid this I had donned my own face mask – right over my eyes.  I recognised this. This was the work of Ego. 

Ego is super-sneaky.  Ego leads you to believe that you are helping to sort out the problems of Self and/or the world.  Ego makes you think you are bullet-proof and, believe me, that doesn’t help one little bit when trying to survive in our current society. 

It’s not really surprising that Ego has shown up for me as a micro aspect of the macro (the Collective Consciousness of Humanity).  Ego is currently having a field-day with our world leaders.  And not just the leaders of our society.  You only have to turn on the TV to see it glowing in the faces of many people as they scream and yell and destroy all the while thinking that this violence is going to change things for the better.  Idiots.

What they are doing is giving Ego a bigger platform in their lives.  They are making it all about Me Me Me whilst believing that it is about Us Us Us.  And the arena that it is most easily seen is in that of what is rapidly becoming one of the worlds fastest growing religions – yes a religion, complete with warped dogma – the so-called New Age Belief System.  But I digress.  I’ll talk about that one on another blog.

So.  In my personal war I have spent time reviewing.  I have spent time looking into the darkest aspects of me and my ego.  I have been doing Shadow Work.  We, the IKoK – International Koalition of Krones – have been saying for a while that the Collective will have to do this Shadow Work.  That if they don’t they will be forced into it by circumstance.  I learn by experience and I am having my personal experience of being made to look deeply through all the drama in my life in a way I just can’t avoid.

And all I can say right now is that if the entire Collective Consciousness of Humanity has to do the same, has to dig as deep as I have, has to face its fears and its demons, it’s going to be messy.  But I also want to hold up a ray of light.  Only a few days ago I believed I was falling deeply into that dark well of despair that I know so well having lived in it for many years, but I am still here.  Occasionally teetering on the edge for sure but all that experience and study and training has held me in good stead.  I recognised what was happening and I chose to survive.  I chose to survive because I believe, so very strongly, that I can help.  Even if it is only with one person.  I can help that one person make a difference in their life.

And that isn’t ego.  It’s Krone Wisdom.  The wisdom that is grown out of knowledge and experience and shared with all who seek it and respect it.

Gy’ Shé em

I AM Krone

Krone Auri’An

Posted in 2020

Of Wings and Lost Marbles

2020. 

The Year that Humanity Goes Galactic. 

2020 was the year that historians will look back upon and say that this is where we took the first step towards physically travelling to the stars.  But looking back now, at the end of the year and not from the perspective of 200 years into the future, is it any wonder that I occasionally think that this is a euphemism.  That “going Galactic” really means that humanity goes completely off it’s collective rocker!  It’s the only possible explanation for what’s been going on this year.  We’ve lost our marbles.

Think about it.  It’s been exhausting.  It’s been a year filled with fear and anxiety; with anger and with helplessness.  It’s been a year where people have lost their jobs, their loved ones, their lives. We are at war.  Make no mistake about that one.  But it’s a war, the likes of which we’ve never seen before.  A cyber war. A war where people are being beset with their greatest fears – all in the so-called safety of their home.  It’s a war where Starseeds and Lightworkers believe they are fighting for good and for the light – but in reality have been drawn into an addiction energy that drives the Shadow Side Forces of Light.

I remember at the beginning of Covid thinking that this is IT.  This is the thing that will bring humanity together.  I remember writing that there was no war on the planet at that time because everyone had finally found a common enemy and they were coming together to fight it together.  How different could this have been if we’d stayed on that path?  But humans are still ruled  by division.  If we can’t go fight overseas and show the world that face of superiority, well we’ll just escalate the in-fighting and continue to believe in that fallacy of superiority.  Only this time it’s our belief that we are superior to our neighbour that drives the fear and the anger.

Everything about humanity that is bad has been lifted up and reflected to us in the mirror.  It’s a mirror that we have not been able to avoid, but still many of us haven’t done the needed work on Self.  It’s been a year where we have not been able to stick our head under a blanket and say ‘it’ll be all right’ because for the first time in most people’s lives, we just don’t know if it will, in fact, ‘be all right.’  And still we don’t do that really honest look at Self – because to do that can be brutal.  And a lot of us are at the point where we can’t deal with ‘brutal’ anymore.

For many, it’s been a year of hardship.  Of lost jobs, of insecurity.  Of not knowing when or if it’s all going to get back to normal.  If it will ever get back to normal – and what is normal anyway and do we really want to go back to that?

But we have seen fighting, and death, and finger pointing, ‘Not me – you’re the one to blame for this, not me.” We’ve seen family members and loved ones struggling and we’ve not been able to even go give them a hug.  We’ve seen separation, division and people forced to hide behind a mask – the physical representation of the masks we all wear when we don’t show our true selves.  We’ve seen those buried fears rising up and exploding out in bigotry and hatred.

2020 is a year that it will take a long time to recover from.

And so it probably seems strange that I can say, in all honesty, that 2020 has been the best year I have ever experienced.

2020 is the year that I finally stepped out of my metamorphic cocoon and brought myself to a place where I can prepare to fly.

I’ve spent many years struggling with the experiences and the emotions of my past, and on 7th January 2020 the stage was set for me to move away from that past.  To start my journey forward towards the future I want.  On that day, my divorce came through and my decision to legally change my name, to become known by my Spirit-given name was also approved.  For me that was an amazing fresh start in a fresh new year that was filled with possibilities.

And then COVID happened. 

Media had a field day and drove the fears of the Collective to new heights.  But I had avoided news media for almost 40 years.  I had no idea what was happening in the worlds of finance or politics, so I missed most of that media-fuelled fear. 

And lock-down?  Well, that was fantastic for me.  Given half a chance I’d be a hermit – as long as I had access to the internet.  I avoid people when ever I can anyway so suddenly having the freedom to indulge that was really energising for me.  I loved it.  I had the opportunity to live without clocks, without time restrictions.  I could eat when hungry, sleep when tired without being concerned about functioning within society.  I could study and research; spend more time in meditation; start to teach myself Qi Gong and so much more.

I’m unemployed.  I live on welfare which in Australia is an amount roughly half of what is considered to be bread-line living.  I’m not old enough to retire, but I’m too old to be a serious contender in the race to gain a job.  COVID brought a financial bonus.  Abundance. Here in Australia a temporary increase in unemployment benefit for 6 months brought my income up to almost bread-line level and that felt like I had been given riches.  It felt like a really heavy weight had lifted and it has allowed me to prepare for next year, when that COVID supplement is removed.  I’ve built a garden – I only grow things I can eat.  I’ve learned to re-purpose cast-off items and as a result I’ve been asked to head up a team showcasing those skills as works of art.  I’ve gained in so many ways.

I’ve gained in confidence.  I recognise what I still need to work on, but I’ve left the majority of my fears behind.  I’ve stepped out of my comfort zone with the Zoom Chats for the International Koalition of Krones. 

2020 has, for me, been a year of finally putting the jigsaw pieces together.  It’s been a time-out-of-time that has allowed me to complete my metamorphosis into the real me. A metamorphosis which, like the caterpillar, reduces one to sludge and from which you have the opportunity to rebuild yourself in any way you want.  2020 has been the year where I broke free of my cocoon and started to step out onto the tree branch and spread my wings.

And to complete the year I was gifted with the opportunity to meet with a group of people from nine different countries who have learned to work together to achieve their goals. Nine groups with a deep connection to our planet and to all Beings who live on her. Nine individual groups who have formed a Group Collective Conscious Mind and the whole has become far greater that the individuals.

Seeing these peoples meeting and interacting for the greater good of all was so beautiful I could barely contain my emotion. My Heart Sang. Seeing the Respect given to each other – and especially to those Elders who are revered filled me with hope. THIS. THIS is the way forward.

And so we venture into 2021.

 A Year of Creation through the use of Conscious Control of Sacred Sound.

This Blog is based upon my IKoK message during this Zoom Chat https://youtu.be/zp3LwLqC1Fw

May you have a wonderful Christmas time and you are free to take down masks and show yourself fully to friends, family and other loved ones.

Gy’ Shé em

Auri’An

Posted in 2020

Love, Light and Other Fluff

I’m sure you’ve worked it out by now that the way in which humans communicate with each other is something that I’m pretty intrigued with.  I wouldn’t go so far as to say that I am passionate about it, and I’m certainly no expert in language use, but I have been writing and talking about the Energy of words and the way that we communicate by using them, for years – specifically about how those who consider themselves to be Spiritual: Lightworkers, Starseeds, or whatever other name you prefer – and about how they communicate and interact with each other. 

I’ve spoken many times about the Energy held within everyday words and how when those words are not spoken in the highest sense, how that Energy can personally affect YOU, how the words that you use can pull you down; how they can limit your potential to excel.  To grow.  And this effect is not just in the spiritual realms – it also affects everyday life. 

I spoke on this topic again in the International Koalition of Krones Zoom Chat on 13th November 2020, but that time it was about how our word choices, and the syntax and cadence that we use, can actually cause Energetic Harm to others – and that harm can even happen unintentionally because we are careless and we speak without consideration of the meaning and the effects of certain words.

Humans are poised to evolve.

It’s not the first time we’ve changed and grown, and it probably won’t be the last time.  But this time?  This time we get the opportunity to consciously choose which direction, which timeline, we will travel.  We get to choose what we want it to look like.  And that choice happens through the Energy held by the majority of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity.

There is so much opportunity right now, at this point in linear time, at this crux-point we are currently in.  So much opportunity to make the right choice.  We know this.  In our physical world it is so obvious.  We are at a place in our reality where humans are able to make a choice about the future of humanity; a choice about which path we are going to choose – and that choice will eventually affect the future of all Beings on this planet, not just humans, but every Being on Earth.  And because we are choosing OUR future, and because humanity WILL go Galactic in that future, our choices now will affect so much that lies way beyond this place we call home.  The choices we are making right now, both individually and collectively, are so important because they will affect everything for the next 13,000 years. 

And the only way that we can work out what those choices should look like is to communicate with each other.  And to be quite honest, I think we are doing a pretty rotten job.  Those who promote the fear and anger that has been sweeping this planet for so many years and which has become extreme in the last few months – they are talking the loudest.  Their words don’t always make sense, but they say it loudly and with conviction.  And humans have a history of listening to those who talk the loudest, regardless of whether what they are saying is Truth or not.

Communication is the first stage of the Conscious Evolution of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity. 

Starseed and Lightworkers are here at this point in linear time to maintain the Energy, to hold space so that humanity can grow and work things out in the way that they most desire as a Collective.  Everyone on this path should be really aware of the words they use and how they use them.  We are responsible for consciously leading the way into clear communication. We hold the Energy and we absolutely must do everything we can to hold it at the highest frequency we can. 

And that leads me into something I want to talk about – about how we, the Spiritual Community, especially in the Western world, have taken Sacred words and Blessings, often from other cultures, and made them into everyday phrases. 

I want to talk about how we, the Spiritual Community, use words of great Power in exactly the same way as we yell “Bye, see ya later.”  I want to discuss how we finish an email, not with ‘Best wishes,” or ‘Yours faithfully,’ but with a Sacred Blessing.  And there is nothing wrong with that, nothing wrong with that at all provided that Blessing is given consciously and with knowledge.

We, especially those of us within a Western society have appropriated Sacred Words from other cultures and we’ve bastardised them.  When we are writing a salutation at the end of a letter or a post, most of us wouldn’t dream of using the words “ By the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ and the love of God…” So why do we use “Namaste”?

I’m guilty.  I’m guilty of using such words without, each time, considering the deeper meaning of the words I’m using.

So let’s think about the meaning of that word – Namaste.  I Bow to You.  On the surface it seems like a pretty good salutation and nowadays, it’s mainly that way, but let’s dig a bit deeper.  I Bow to You.  It means that you hold deep respect for the other person.  That you know them, that you honour them and that you also understand, because we are all One, that in honouring and respecting them you too are being honoured and respected.  How often, when you use that word, do you take time to think of the acknowledgement you are making in understanding one of the deeper Truths of the Universe?

Then again, the Oxford English Dictionary simply says that it means “Hello.”

Food for thought.

Another Sacred phrase that we use incorrectly, also stolen from another culture – in this case the Mayan – is “In Lak’ech ala kin”   Now I do know a number of people who do use this phrase in full awareness of the deeper meaning of the words, and I don’t see it over used in the same way as Namaste has been.  And that is a good thing. In Lak’ech literally means “I am another you.” Like Namaste this phrase is talking of the deeper Truths of the Universe – I don’t exist without you and you don’t exist without me.  If you were not here, I wouldn’t be here either – and thinking about that can take you on a very long, and interesting journey seeking that deeper knowledge.

When I was first starting out on my Spiritual journey, when I first heard of that phrase and it’s meaning, I thought it was really cool and I used it all over.  Until I started to delve into that deeper meaning and realised my casual use was both disrespectful to the culture and to the deeper truth of the words.

And that brings me to the final phrase I want to discuss today.  A phrase that is so mis-used and over-used that just to hear it makes my toes curl!  It no longer carries the Energy it should.  That it once did.

But first, before I tell you what this phrase is, I’ll tell you what it means to me.  My interpretation.

I am the Light of Creation. 

I am the light first seen at the beginning of the linear time of our reality. 

I draw that light into my Being so that I can be a beacon to guide and aid those who struggle in darkness.

I humbly bring that Light into the Service of All.  

I am merely a conduit. 

A conduit in Service to the Energy and Knowledge of the Universe. 

I Bless you with the frequencies of Creation and Wisdom and Love. 

When I say this, my interpretation of this phrase, I feel the Energy.  I feel it building in my hands and my heart, in all my Chakras.  I feel the Energy of being in Service, I feel humbled and I feel the commitment I have made to this Journey, to the Collective.  And when all that Energy, all that is bundled, mainly without thought, into  “Love and Light” delivered in an off-hand, throw-away manner, is it any wonder that I cringe?

Now, don’t misunderstand me – I’m not in anyway saying that there is anything wrong in using those phrases.  There is nothing wrong with using Namaste, In Lak’ech, Love and Light, Gy’ Shé em, KaRa Ounz Chez Prana, OM AkArapariNAma Anadaham and more.  But please, feel the power of the words.  Understand the depth of the words.  Feel the Blessing within the words.  And then use them in Honour of the Knowledge and the Wisdom and the Power of these phrases.

We who are Starseed, Lightworkers or whatever other term you prefer, we are the ones who should be leading the way for the Conscious Evolution of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity.  And the first step is to become aware of the power that we hold in the words that we use.  And we should use them wisely.  Yes, we all stumble and make mistakes, we speak through a human filter but we have also become complacent. We are de-sensitised.  We are losing the deeper Truths, the deeper knowledge and wisdom in favour of fluff.

Gy Shé em

Auri’An

International Koalition of Krones

This blog post is an extract from the Zoom Chat held by the International Koalition of Krones on 13th November 2020. You can access the recording here.

Posted in 2020, IKoK

Word Power

Photo by: Jason Rosewell. Unsplash

Words contain Power.  Power that is beyond anything that you might realise. At least, not without thinking deeply about the words that you use, and the words that others use around you.  How they affect you – and how they affect those others that you speak with – or to.

There.  Straight away, there, is an good example of what I mean.  I said, “The others that you speak with or to.”  Have a think about it.  When you bump into someone and have a chat, then you mention that chat to another person or just review it in your mind later on, how do you describe that conversation? I could say, “I spoke with Essence yesterday” or I could say “I spoke to Essence yesterday.”  Just have a think of the difference that is made by that tiny, often unthinking choice of words.  You may not even have noticed the difference.

When I speak WITH Essence – we are talking pretty much on an equal footing,  we are engaging each other in conversation.

Yet in this scenario, when I speak TO Essence – I would be not only taking control of the conversation – I would be taking Energy away from her because there is an inference that I am talking down to her in some way.  Diminishing her.  Of course, I never would consider myself in any way superior to Essence (she is my teacher, my mentor, my Spiritual Sister and, above all, my friend), but that diminishing of the Self of the person you are talking TO is a big potential for harm.

Think about it.  If one of your co-workers was speaking TO you in this manner, always talking TO you and not WITH you, it wouldn’t take long before you would feel really disempowered, and if it kept on, you would end up feeling fearful, bullied.  You’d loose the Joy in your work.

Now, I must say that CONTEXT also plays a big role in this.  For example, Essence does talk TO me occasionally.  She is my teacher, and she occasionally kicks my butt when I get too big for my britches, or I’m being particularly dense about something.  She does this because I asked her to.  I asked her to haul me back when I wander off track.  Teacher to Student.  It’s not a power-play, it’s a lesson that is given respectfully; I know the context and the Energy of the conversation and I am not being disempowered in anyway.   With Essence, it’s quite the opposite.  She doesn’t cause me Energetic Harm.

And this is what I want to talk about. 

I’ve been living in a situation where the words that a neighbour uses has caused me Energetic Harm.  It was not done on purpose, nothing at all was meant to diminish me or even make me feel uncomfortable, but after several months I reached the point where my Energy was seeping out of me like someone had turned on the tap.  I was feeling drained. 

My neighbour is a lovely person.  A great person who would give everything she has, to help another person in need.  She doesn’t have much herself, but I’ve seen her in action.  She is a good person.  She’s not on a conscious spiritual path – but she lives the best life she can.  Except for her speech.

She’s a naturally vocal person and I am not.  Loud noises are a trigger for my PTSD and she has a super loud voice.  She spends a lot of time on her balcony, on the phone to various friends and I cannot help but hear her private conversations.  I don’t want to but her voice carries as clear as if she is standing next to me so I constantly feel as if I am intruding.  And it’s not just the volume of her voice, it’s the cadence – she mainly sounds angry.  Even when she’s not, the cadence is as if she is arguing with someone, or being defensive.   And every 2nd word begins, probably with very little realisation, with an F. 

Photo by: wrongtog. Unsplash
(A good representation of how I see loud noise)

Have I said something to her?  Have I communicated how I feel about this?  Not really, not in plain language because she has the right to be who she is.  I am the one who is sensitive to loud noise.  I am the one who doesn’t want to hear another person’s life laid out on the table for all to listen to.  I am the one who feels battered by the constant swearing and who reads into her syntax and cadence the energy of anger and discord.  She is just a person who communicates in a certain way and doesn’t realise that from my perspective it feels like I’m being bludgeoned.

The reason I am sharing this is because I wanted to highlight how we can have an effect on others without realising it simply by the way we use the power of our voice and the words we use. 

And words carry Energy. 

Yes, we all know. This is a bit of a soap-box issue for me – I’ve written in my blog a few times on this topic, Way back in June I spoke on an IKoK Chat about it and I’ve given a few lectures on how you can shoot yourself in the foot by the words that you use, but each time I have been talking about you – about how your language use affects YOU.  I don’t think I’ve ever spoken on how your language use, the way that you communicate, can affect others.  But now I’d like you to think about exactly that.

We live in a world that depends upon communication, and as anyone who is aware of the Energy of such things will know, the vast majority of that communication at the moment is fear based.  And right now, when it has become so tricky to know if what you are being told is true, or not, it becomes even more essential to be discerning about who you talk with, or even to,  And who you listen to.

Making it even harder is the fact that so much mis-information carries a basis of truth – but a truth that has been twisted, embroidered, expanded until it bears little resemblance to the initial truth.  That kernel of truth running through that misleads good hearted people into falling down the rabbit hole into anger and fear and despair.  This is the communication that the Collective Consciousness of Humanity is dealing with.  This is the communication style that has brought us to such a low point in this reality. 

We talk, we use words, we communicate about coming together as One.  As working for the benefit of all.  And we use words, and syntax and cadence that says something entirely different.  The microcosm – my neighbour, a good soul who works to aid people yet still, in certain circumstance and unknowingly, causes Energetic Harm.  The macrocosm – Face Book, News media, the person you bumped into in the street.  And possibly, probably, you or me.

So what can we do about it? 

Previously, I’ve shared information about what to do so that your speech doesn’t affect your Energy and really, this is pretty much the same but with a focus on how your speech patterns affect others

I’d recommend first listening to yourself.  Record yourself on your phone and see what comes up.  Do you talk with others or do you talk to others?  Does that change depending on the context? Do you encourage conversation that brings everyone in on an even level?  Do you listen respectfully when someone says something you disagree with or do you try to show them that your knowledge is better?  Do you interrupt a whole lot?  This is mirror work that we must all do – and not just once. It’s an ongoing process. Clear Communication is the base work of the Conscious Evolution of Humanity.

I’ve been doing this mirror work and I’ve discovered that some of my habits could be construed as annoying to others.  I have a tendency to laugh in phone conversations but by doing this Mirror work, by LISTENING to myself, I’ve realised that that laughter is something I started to do many years ago to cover up my fears.  It happens with any phone conversation I have with any person, and it happens because a valuable form of information is removed for me – basically I can’t read face and body expressions which is something I learned as a very small child in order to be able to work out if a situation is fearful or not.  Those situations no longer apply but the cover-up laughter still remains.  It’s something I can now work on.  The mirror work is on self, but with the intention of bringing a new level of open communication with everyone around me. 

I am a single thread in the weaving of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity.  If I can improve my communication skills by being aware of the effects on others of my word choices and the way I deliver my message, I can have an affect on all other threads in that weaving. 

If we can each learn to communicate and interact with each other in a way that is more considered, respectful and less likely to cause Energetic Harm, we will be taking a step forward on the road of the Controlled Conscious Evolution of our Collective.

DID YOU KNOW: People living in areas with high levels of daytime noise had a 36% higher risk of being diagnosed with mild cognitive impairment, and a 30% increased risk of Alzheimer’s disease than those living in quieter neighbourhoods.

This blog is from the International Koalition of Krones Bi-monthly Chat of 23rd October 2020. You can watch the full chat at: https://youtu.be/daflEFbrP-w and also have the opportunity to take part in an amazing and powerful meditation.

The audio version can be found at: https://soundcloud.com/essence-ka-tha…

And you can find us on Face Book at: https://www.facebook.com/IKoK2266

Posted in 2020, IKoK

Truly Committed?

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I feel like I’m stepping out on a slightly different path.  One filled with Possibilities and Probabilities and The Unknown in a whopping huge barrel-load of OMG-What-Have-I-Let-Myself-Into now!

I know what my Sacred Contractual Work is for this lifetime (and beyond) and I also know that I am at the very beginning of that work.  Knowing what your Sacred Contractual Work is, doesn’t mean that you are going to step right into it.  It doesn’t mean that you are actually even going to fully know, or understand, what it will entail.

I’m currently riding through a sort of settling-in period and I have been for a few years.  It’s a time of getting a better handle on what it’s all about.  A learning more about me, where I’ve come from; the choices that I’ve made that have lead me here.  It’s about understanding the world around me from a different perspective,  thinking about the world I would like to inhabit and the knowledge I will need to build that world; to live there and above all how do this work. However it develops. Whenever it develops.  If it develops.  Because I also know that although it may happen in this lifetime – it may just as easily not.  I’m planting seeds.  I’m Trusting that it WILL all work out as it’s meant to.  Even though there is no guarantee.

I’ve spoken before about my Sacred Contractual Work and how, within the Dragon’s Gate in 2016, I was so upset because I’d been so sure that I was ‘going home’ and discovered that I wasn’t.  At that time, even though I was very upset, I made a commitment.  In many ways this was like signing a legal Contract and even though I didn’t actually realise that for a couple of years because I was too wrapped up in being upset about not going home – my Higher Self recognised that this was the right path for me to follow. 

By that time I’d already made two major commitments.  When I talk about MAJOR commitments, I’m talking about making a commitment way beyond what is asked of most people.  We all make commitments – to our partner, to family, to work etc. and those commitments can last all your current life and be very important – or not.  These commitments can come to an end or even be broken.  But my path is asking that I make a deeper, more intense commitment to my work. 

The first was the one that totally changed my life when had what I call my Initial Awakening Experience where I’d spent 3 ½ hours in the middle of the night, sitting in the rain, in the mud, in the middle of a field, literally experiencing that absolute feeling that we all strive for – that feeling of being ONE.  Being Gaia.  Being the AUM of the Universe.  Being the trees, the grass and the wind.  And feeling the pain carried by all on this planet – especially the pain of our Mother, Gaia.  I emerged from that experience with my life forever changed.  I had made a Major Commitment to work to reduce that pain. 

A little less than a year later Essence put out a post asking if anyone recognised themselves as First Wave Blue Ray Indigo.  She was talking about me.  She was talking TO me.  Yes, many people felt that call, but I Knew it was spoken directly to ME.  It was a life-line and a few months later I became one of the admins of that Face Book group and I started my journey with Essence as my teacher.

 As I gradually began to learn and to find my path, I found myself making another Major Commitment.  One to the Work that Essence is here to do.  My belief in that Work is absolute.  My Commitment to aiding with that Work wherever I am able is not something I would ever even consider putting to one side.  Yes, we may at some point travel in different directions, but I believe in the work that Essence is here to do – and believe me there have been many times when I’ve questioned the stuff she comes out with and thought that Essence has really lost it – only to have something come along that proves without a shadow of doubt that this is work is real.

And so, in this lifetime so far, I have made three major commitments.  I have committed to following a spiritual path; to aiding Essence in her Sacred Work and in following my own Sacred Work.  And none of these commitments are mutually exclusive. The commitments were all made at different times, were not always recognised as commitments but they weave together in a way that I only truly started to see and understand in the last 6 months or so.  These commitments are connected, they are an integral part of the tapestry of my reality.  You’ll see the weavings – they are right there if you look.  My work contains threads from Essences work.  I have little doubt that some of my threads are woven into Essences tapestry.  And the same with Ko Ba Ja’s.  These interweavings are what forms the Group Collective Conscious Mind that we Krones work within.

Not everyone will be called upon to make such major commitments.  Very few I suspect.  Such deeper work is not something that everyone, as an individual, is meant to do. And that is fine.  Exactly as it should be.  Perfect.  But we – the Collective Consciousness of Humanity – ARE being asked to explore and understand our Commitment.  And that means that you, as an individual thread forming part of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity, needs to decide on your level of Commitment. 

And why do we need to decide right now?  Just look around you.  Almost everything that you see that is painful and wrong is the result of the Energy of the 17/8 ATKI rising up to be released.  Governments and corporations around the world, making decisions that further their personal agendas rather than for the good of the Collective Consciousness of this planet.  Of Earth herself. Not just humans.  This is the Energy of the 17/8 ATKI.  We’ve talked about this for a few years and now we are getting to see it in action. 

For years we’ve gone with the Love and Light, we’ve sat on our energetic butts and followed what we are being told whether that’s from our law-makers, our teachers or the billboards on the side of bus!  We don’t think of ourselves as sheeple, but we, as a Collective, don’t think FOR ourselves either.  Together.  As a Collective.  We haven’t made that commitment to change anything at a fundamental level.  We’ve blindly accepted that we live in a male-dominated society – even as we tell ourselves that the Divine Feminine is rising.  It’s what we know.  It’s been that way for the last 6,000 years.  We are programmed, genetically imprinted.  And it needs to change.

Now – I’m NOT asking that you go out and join in with the protests that are happening all over this world.  Unless that’s where you are drawn.  I’m NOT asking that you become militant in the need to change things – to my mind, that is a very masculine, traditional way of doing it and is, long term, not likely to succeed in any major way.  Peace has never been the result or aim of violence.   Remember – everything is Energy.  Frequency.  You cannot create a frequency of peace from a frequency of war. And I’m not asking that you put yourself on the front line unless that is where you feel your purpose is. 

What I AM asking, is for you to think about your commitment – to whatever.  Are you really committed to building a better place for our children’s children – as I spoke of in a previous chat – to the 7th generation and beyond.  Or are you happier, more comfortable, just watching everything unfold and maybe discussing stuff with friends or posting on Face Book?

There is no judgement here.  This is Personal, Individual work that we are all being called upon to do in order for the Collective to start to really know its Self.  We need to look at Self with honesty and open-mindedness and not to judge yourself or anyone else if you discover that you don’t hold any major commitments.  To be quite honest, most people won’t.

You are a single thread that forms the tapestry of all humans on this planet and your thread is important.  If you look at any tapestry, you’ll find that there are threads in there that form the big picture – the background, there are threads that form the detail – the 5 dancers. There is no one thread in there that is more important than another.  In weaving, they are the weft.

Now think about the warp of the tapestry.  These are the threads that run up and down the fabric and form the basis that the other threads, the weft, weave through.  On a tightly woven tapestry, you don’t see those warp threads at all – not even if you look at the back of the work – but they are the threads that anchor the whole thing together.  Without these the picture could not be formed.  These are the threads representative of the silent majority.  These are the threads that hold the whole thing together and creates our reality.  These represent those who work within the Power of Silence.  Those many, many people who simply get on with their daily life being the best person they can be.  Silence is a powerful tool.  Potentially the most powerful tool. 

We all have our place and our job.  I am asking that you work out what your part is in this tapestry at this point in linear time.  Are you one of those oh so essential silent majority?  Could you be one of the visible support workers – one of those threads that form the solid background?  Or are you one of those shining, bright threads that jumps out and says “I have information.  I hold knowledge that can bring your reality to a bright place.”

I AM asking that you sit down quietly, jot things down on a notepad, meditate, talk with your Guides and Higher Self – whatever way feels right, and work out what you are most committed to.  It may be that you are most committed to your family.  I suspect that will be right at the top of most people’s commitments.  It may be your work or your health or pretty much anything, but whatever you feel the strongest commitment to, I’d like you to then take the next step.  Ask yourself how important is that commitment to you.  Don’t just think “Oh It’s very important”  I want you to think deeper than that.  I want you to think about how far you will go to protect those you are committed to.  How much work are you willing to do and what kind of work.   How far are you willing to hold that commitment?  Will you do the work you need to do to protect your unborn descendants? 

Once you have worked out your level of Commitment, then you can look at the HOW you can move forward.  What form will that work take to uphold that commitment.  This, my friends, I can’t help you with.  It’s something only YOU can know.  The ‘how’ of it.  This is the bit that is often Spirit guided.  You just need to recognise the guidance and choose to take up the work.

And whatever that commitment level, whatever way you choose to work with that commitment you have the opportunity to be doing your part towards making this reality into a place of peace and beauty.  Think about how your work helps others – maybe, like that warp thread, in a way that is unseen.  For example a school teacher allows a parent to go out to work and earn money that will help the family live in a better way.  A garbage collector is a valuable and active part of maintaining the health of the community.

I made my initial commitment to work towards reducing the pain that is felt on this planet.  I’m not an up-front warrior, my best tools are my mind and my skills with words.  Essence became my teacher to guide me in the deeper knowledge and understanding I need.  She helps me to understand why it’s sometimes necessary to move in what appears to be the wrong direction.  Why sometimes you feel as if you are stagnating.  My commitment to Essence and her work is a part of that initial commitment of mine.  By learning and understanding I can best do the work of helping to reduce the pain of this planet.  And my commitment to my Sacred Contractual Work? – well, that’s just another step in the process. 

Making a major commitment is not something to be undertaken lightly.  It’s not something you can pull on and off like a pair of socks.  It sometimes involves losing friends, family, parts of yourself that you’ve been carrying for eons.  Sometimes (often) it can mean getting out of bed in the middle of the night because you are being called and the other members of your ‘team’ work in a different time zone!  But if you are someone who can make that commitment – well, the world, your world,  doesn’t necessarily become a better place, it can even get to be a bit more difficult, a lot more difficult at times, but when you make that commitment – and uphold it however hard it becomes – then, then you KNOW why you are here.  At least, you get to see some of the picture.

Right now, the Collective Consciousness of Humanity is being tested.  The 17/8 ATKI is a huge challenge that has been brewing for millennia.  This is a long game that won’t be resolved in this lifetime.  How committed are you to doing the Energetic Work we need to do?  Is your Spiritual Journey full and deep, or is it a surface thing.  Are you prepared to do the work even when you know that the results most likely won’t be seen in your lifetime? That this is a long-game.  Remember – I thought I was going home when I went into that Dragon’s Gate in 2016 and I was totally devastated to find out that I wasn’t.  I had been thinking of the short game. The human view of working in this one lifetime.  Once I recognised, understood and accepted that this will not be my only or my last lifetime, once I recognised the long-game, I was able to relax and allow things to unfurl in their own time.  To Trust that it will all be right in the end.  And that if it’s not all right – it’s not the end.

There’s no wrong answer.  No judgement.  You are just being called to recognise as an individual thread of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity, your commitment to humanity, to this planet and especially to your Spiritual Journey through this lifetime reality and beyond.    

Gy’ Shé em

Auri’An

This is a transcription of the message given by Krone Auri’An in the bi-monthly Zoom Chat held by the International Koalition of Krones. You can find the full recording here: https://youtu.be/ONUImq4nPis