I Believe…

I was thinking about Queen Elizabeth II and the news of her passing, and how I had ‘met’ her when I was a teenager.  Actually, I hadn’t really met her, as in having a personal conversation or a handshake,  I’d just been one in a crowd of people when she came to our town to launch a boat, but I’d been in close enough proximity to think of it as having met her.

As I was thinking of her, I was reminded of a particular client I had seen last month.  My mind can make connections that probably seem rather weird to a lot of people… but, it’s how my mind works, and it jumped to an oracle card reading I’d done at our local UFO Festival.  It was a strange and difficult reading, and afterwards, he told me his story.  He’d been abducted by aliens. 

Now, what on earth could connect the late Queen of England and some guy in Australia who believed himself abducted by aliens?  The connection was actually a thought about how some meetings can just slip by and be forgotten, yet others can have a life-long profound effect on you and on your beliefs.

My belief that I’d met the Queen was an embellishment I’d chosen over 50 years ago because, at the time , I thought it gave me some status. Yes, it had some truth to it – I had been part of the crowd reasonably close around her, but it was not until a couple of days ago when I heard of her passing that I went “Hang on. Did I really meet her?” So I looked into that belief I discovered that it simply is no longer my truth.

The guy who believed he had been abducted had undergone a profound change because of his experience.  It became the pivotal point in his life.  Some people will scoff and think he’s off his rocker, but it is his belief and should be respected as just that.  I too have had a similar experience and firmly believe that the 7 or 8 hours that I lost one summer’s day in 1980 is very connected to a sighting of what I called a massive metal Toblerone that I saw parked in a field.  Some people will also think that’s nuts, and there are times when I do too, but it’s my belief that this happened although it didn’t have such a profound effect on me as that similar experience did for my client. 

From there, I started to think about other experiences that I have had that completely changed my life.  Many of them are of the ‘woo-woo’ variety, with the one which had the most profound effect being what I term my Initial Awakening Experience.  Some folk would think that I suffered a psychotic break, and that is entirely possible from one point of view.  Everything in my life around that time points to that possibility, but I believe that it was an intense spiritual experience that has driven my life forward in a way that can only be termed as positive.  I found a belief that is so strong it cannot be moved and that belief has driven me to learn how to understand what makes me tick.  It’s helped me overcome decades of severe pain, auto-immune disorders, and more dramas and trauma than should be allowed to fill any one life.  It is the driving force behind my life and I cannot see that changing.  Psychotic break or actual spiritual experience is totally irrelevant.  It has brought positive change into my life and for that I feel blessed to have experienced it.

We all hold beliefs and it’s entirely probable that most of our beliefs only matter to us.  Those beliefs may be spiritual in nature or based on life experiences.  They may have a profound effect on your life, or they may add to the traumas that you carry.  Whatever they are, they shape your world and it is a good idea to bring them out every now and then, dust them off and review them.  Are they beliefs that I still need to carry around with me, or are they no longer really true and can be released?  Do they affect me in a positive or a negative way?  Do they encourage me to grow as a human or do they hold me back?

When did you last take a good long look at your beliefs?  Not just the biggies but also the ones that have a limiting response in your life?  The “I’m afraid of moths/heights/dogs/my boss” type of beliefs.  Write yourself a list and then ask yourself why you hold these and is it time to change them. 

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Drifting…

A few days ago, I did some introspective work and came to the conclusion that I am in a waiting zone.  I have arrived at a point in my life that I have been seeking for a very long time.  A time where I can follow my own desire to begin some serious Spiritual study.  But what exactly do I want to study? What in particular do I want to deeply explore? I have no idea.

I’ve actually been in this drifting mode since the start of Covid when I began to move away from social media.  I used to spend hours on Face Book every day – with the International Koalition of Krones, my groups and pages and self-help courses and, as I pulled right back, I also berated myself for abandoning my media presence.  

It was time to sit back and have a good look into why I needed to build a media presence and discovered that constantly sharing things with the public – even in the belief that I was helping others, was nothing more than an addiction, and my Ego.  The work I want to do is for me. For my knowledge and growth – at least, initially. To do this work, I do not need to perform a song-and-dance routine for the world. I need quiet time, and this is my time of quietness.

What to study?  That is the big question.  In my life I have explored many things which have become passions, and almost all of which I have ended up teaching: ballet, fitness, writing, belly dancing, weaving – but I know that this time I need to dig into the knowledge desired by my soul.  I know that part of my soul journey is to gain knowledge and information that I can take forward into other incarnations and not necessarily knowledge that I will teach.  The imperative to begin that learning is strong, yet I am still in this waiting-zone.

Right now I am exploring Taoism – and finding it fascinating.  I am learning Tai Chi.  I’m also reading other great Teachers such as Neville Goddard, Manly P. Hall and Ram Dass but so far the topic that excites me and will guide me into the depth of knowledge I desire to gain, has eluded me. 

I did that introspective digging into Self I mentioned earlier, to gain greater clarity of where I currently am: physically, mentally and emotionally, then I entered into meditation to seek the spiritual depths to this knowledge.  In that meditation, my guides brought this forward.

Sometimes you have to drift with the winds of change.

Pushing against the storm is not productive.

Be aware of the currents.

This message tells me that drifting with the winds of change (and I am definitely within a process of change) is exactly what I need to do right now.  Drift, and I should not allow frustration at being without definite direction to grow, although to be honest, currently, that frustration is very mild, and I’m rather enjoying the drifting process.

This message was also interesting because it reminded me of a very important lesson I had learned 5 years ago when it was essential that I move to a new town and I really didn’t want to.  I fought hard not to go, yet it turned out the be one of the very best things in my life at that time.  Sometimes you need to accept that you might be ready to change the world, but the Universe has to get things ready first.

What am I going to study?  Not a clue yet.  I’ll just keep cruising until it socks me between the eyes and I feel that excitement, that Knowing, that this is where I am meant to dive deep. I know that will happen. At the right time. And in the meantime I am loving discovering the wisdom and knowledge of the ancient (and not so ancient) Teachers that is there for those who wish to discover it.

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Knackered!

I’ve always been, in many ways, a ‘physical’ person.  As a child it was ballet, as an adult I became an elite athlete.  That young person lived in a fantasy world of stage lights and dreams; the adult ran up mountains – just because.

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The physical me was my way of hiding from the world.  As a dancer, I could live in any role I chose, be recognised and applauded; as an athlete I could challenge my body in a way that I did not know how to challenge the world around me.  Always, I was hiding from my true self.

In 1997, a lifetime of stress caught up with me and I became physically ill.  In pain so severe I was told I would need to use a wheelchair – but that was not a life I could envisage.  It was not a life where I could use my body to emotionally escape.  I began the work needed to change my physical world of pain, into something far more functional.

In 2015 I was in a good place.  Physically active despite still being in pain, life was good, but I still carried the emotional weight of my life.  Then I found the person who was to become my Spiritual Teacher, mentor and friend – Essence Ka tha’ras.  She has taught me to understand from an Energetic viewpoint, the story of my life.  She taught me how to re-write that story.  It’s a journey I am still on, and right now, as I write this, I am at another crux point.

One of the things Essence teaches is that you cannot separate the physical from the spiritual, and I have grown to fully embrace that Truth.  I recently turned 67 years of age and the abuses of a physical past are doing their level best to catch up and remind me of each and every ache and pain. Then, an accident 4 years ago, meant my physical mobility decreased again, resulting in my questioning my future.  I can choose to live comfortably, and happily as a fat, un-fit, older woman and, perhaps, pass from this life in another 10-15 years, or I can step up the work to change that, and potentially have many more years to explore this Universe – this beautiful Reality that holds so much knowledge, and mystery. 

I spoke in my last blog about making a commitment to Self, and when you get right down to it, I am looking at making a “Do-or-Die” commitment.  My Teacher reminded me this morning of my deep-felt need to study; that I have expressed a desire, and commenced the work, to dig deeper into that world of Energy, Frequency, Vibration.  I want to learn from the Masters and use that knowledge to colour my world and the world around me – and to do this I need to have all my tools available to me – my physicality as well as emotional, mental and spiritual aspects.

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And as I write this, it appears that I have made that commitment, that Vow to Self.  Of course, I’m totally knackered after spending just 10 minutes on the treadmill, followed by a few ballet exercises, stretching, Tai Chi and some balance work.

Right now it feels good, but I do wonder how hard it is going to be to get out of bed tomorrow!

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Spider

When we see a spider – especially a big one – most of us will jump into freak-out mode.  There is something that just so ALIEN about the spider and all those legs… 

This spider is Florence. She came to live with me for a few weeks in 2019. She’s a Golden Orb Spider and is about the size of a medium saucepan.

I had a visit from Spider a few days ago.  A middle-sized Huntsman spider, about the size of the palm of my hand.  I was using the toilet at the time and she ran up the wall right next to me.  I can tell you, that was a tense moment!

Spider is about creation and right now this is something we, individually and collectively, really need to delve into.  Spider is reminding us that we are – each of us – a single thread in a massive weaving that forms all the Collective Consciousnesses of this planet and beyond.  This massive weaving is formed of the beliefs, the dreams, and the desires, of each part of the weaving.  It is formed from the words, thoughts and actions of people just like you.  You are creating this weaving, and as the Mistress of complicated, intricate weaving, Spider is the perfect animal ally to help us straighten out any knotted threads

Spider builds her web then she sits patiently, either on her web, or just off to the side where she can’t be easily seen, and she waits for her hard work to bring her a reward.  For her, it’s usually dinner, but what is the reward that you seek? 

Working with Spider Energy requires that you look deep into your Self and look at the Reward you most desire.  Look into the dark and scary places, the complicated and knotty places; and the bright and sparkly places and the places of abundance.  Look at what you believe about yourself, about the world around you and at the entire global society that you are a part of.  Look at things you want to achieve, ideas you want to bring to life, and ask yourself – especially if you have held onto these things for a long time yet not done anything about them – are these the rewards I want for the lifetime I am living here?  Do I want something different from my life?  Do I have beliefs that I have been hanging on to – on any subject – even when they appear to be going nowhere?  What do I want to create that will be how I am remembered when my time here is past?

Spider knows how to sit in silence.  How to be patient and give herself time to achieve her goals.  She understands that nothing is achieved if the hard work is not done first. 

She weaves with a tiny, thin, gossamer thread that she makes herself from her body. And she understands intuitively what is the right way to weave her threads together.   She knows that if she takes the right action steps, she can build her web into a solid and strong structure that will allow her to reap her reward.

We humans, also weave with a tiny, thin, gossamer thread of Belief, that we make, not with our bodies, but with our minds.  It is our Beliefs that build the structures we depend upon.  We need to know that the Beliefs are not out-dated, worn away by mis-use or lack of care or attention – because if they are, we will never build our society into a strong and solid structure that will allow us to reap our rewards.

Review what you have done so far and what you believe about YOU and the things you want to achieve.  Look deeply, and see what is the reward you seek in every interaction you have.  Is it Recognition, Praise, Acknowledgement?  Is it to know that you have made a difference?

Whatever it is – Create the life you want to live, but never forget that you must do the work in order to reap the reward.

Pelican

Pelican came calling a couple of years ago with information for humanity as a whole – and for us as individual aspects of that Collective.  We should be aware that when Pelican comes into our lives, we really need to have a good look at what should be reviewed in our personal life, and in our opinions about what is happening in the world around us. 

Pelican floats along, looking as if it is effortless, but under the water she is working.  Paddling.  It’s not a frantic work.  She looks confident and serene.  When she spots a fish she simply tips in her bill and scoops it up.   In our human world that means working in the NOW for what you want the future to look like, for the abundance you know should be available for everyone, for the Love and Serenity of a peaceful society; but storms do sometimes happen and if you hit those darker patches of water, you can get sucked in, becoming emotionally attached to the darkness that can be projected.  To get out of those darker waters, you need to work hard.   And you need the assistance of family.

Pelican encourages us to go deep into Self.  Often, by looking deeply at what you believe is happening in your world, and at your physical, emotional and spiritual health, you will most likely find that something in your life is out of whack; off kilter.  Something has a sense of ‘wrongness’ about it.

Pelican encourages us to observe with intent, and with patience, so that we can discover a deeper understanding of Self and a knowledge of where balance is needed.  To do this, explore your current life, where you stand in your beliefs, and feel into where in your body – which chakras – the emotions reside.  By being aware this way, you can work out what needs to be reviewed and probably in what manner.  For example, if something you do every day causes you pain in your throat, you can be pretty sure that you need to look deeper.   It may be that something about that task is uncomfortable, but you feel you can’t talk about it. Be aware that this work is not just for you as an individual, although that’s very important, but also for you as an integral part of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity.

Remember – the past is in the past and cannot be changed.  The way to travel forward is together, as family, and we should remember that to maintain unity within family, we need Trust, Dependability, Loyalty, Generosity, Humility and, occasionally, Sacrifice. 

The future you envisage when you look around you, can be achieved for the benefit of all with co-operation and an understanding that we can’t travel alone.  We need a support system.  We need family.

Pelican is about family.  The three that visited me were two adults and a youngster.  Pelican is about social responsibility, teamwork, generosity, friendliness.  With your family around you – and that can be your physical or your spiritual family – there is no need to sacrifice yourself in always helping others.  In always being the one to step up and sort things out.  Allow others to help you out.  To make things easier. 

I had three Pelicans visit with this message.  The Metatronic Numerology I AM Keyword Phrase for the number 3 is: I AM Joyful Creation.

We need to be looking towards creating the future we want with Joy in our hearts.  At the moment there are many people – Starseeds/Lightworkers included – who seem to have forgotten this.  The basic Law of Attraction.  The Energy you put out is what you will get back.  If you focus on the darker side of what is happening in the world, the darker energy is what will be there in abundance.  I’m talking about the fear, the anger, the distrust and confusion.  Even if your intention is good, that focus provides energy to the darker aspect. 

Learn to flip the narrative.  Seek the good.  Create the Joy.   Don’t feed the darkness.   Seek the Balance in doing the work you feel you need to do, but don’t put so much of your Energy into projects that suck you dry.  If the work you are doing is not joyously creative – look at how you can make it so.  And if it cannot be flipped then have a good look at where that heavy Energy is pointing.

When Pelican chooses to fly, she simply releases any fish in her bill and with a bit of a run, up she goes. There is something serene and magical about Pelican skimming over the water and landing with barely a splash to float, seemingly unworried about anything.  We need to emulate her by releasing what weighs us down.

Learn to accept the help of family and other members of your society.  Learn to relax – taking a step back helps you to see the bigger picture.  Release your Ego – this can often be the weight that stops you from working harmoniously with others.  And stops you from flying.

Think about Pelican, when you need to understand when you can safely float along and when you need to review what is holding you down. Especially, when you want to fly!

Releasing the Old….

Those who travel the Spiritual realms say that “We need to release that which no longer serves”, although in our everyday human life we are more likely to say something like “out with the old, make room for the new” but how many of us actually take the time to understand what those words mean and to actually do something about it? 

I’ve often spoken of how we talk-the-talk but don’t understand the energy of the words we use; of how we have fallen into the habit of parroting phrases that sound good to us, but as with many of these so-called “New Age” phrases, we don’t often take the time to dig deep within ourselves to find out what it actually means, on an energetic level, to do those things. 

So, what is it that no longer serves? What does it mean?  I’ve seen and heard it being used by people when they really mean “Shut up about XYZ.  It’s done.  Get over it!”   And although that’s fairly extreme I also find that it can be used as an excuse similar to when you know that you need to clean the fridge but can’t be bothered just yet.  It’s a very wide-ranging term that is open to an almost infinite range of explanations.   

In the physical world for example, it’s likely to mean sorting out your wardrobe and getting rid of stuff that doesn’t fit any more or it could be the dancing Elvis doll you bought on a whim and is now cluttering up your bookshelf – or, yes, cleaning the fridge!  In your emotional world, it could mean leaving an abusive relationship or walking away from a virulent argument.  It could be leaving behind beliefs and memories that replay in your mind causing you to fall back into self-destructive energy.  And it is this last example that is most important to those of us who are working within the Spiritual realms, because these beliefs and memories have a tendency to cycle around and around simply because we haven’t dealt with them.  They are the very things that pull us down and cause it to be hard to maintain the highest energy frequency we can. 

I, like most other people, have things that have adversely affected me my whole life.  Those who have been following me for a while are probably aware that for most of my life I have stumbled from one drama to another and that over the past few years I have been actively working to deal with the energies of these dramas.  As I have worked through various things, I have come to realise that these are the very things that have gifted me with knowledge and wisdom, caring and the desire to be of assistance to the Collective.  I have been discovering that the dramas of my life are the very things that make me into the person I am becoming. 

Here’s an example.  I used to work in the corporate world.  A large company where I held a National Management position.  I left that world over 15 years ago, yet I still feel the anger, frustration and powerlessness of every Board meeting I attended – where the old-school-mates would leave a box of tissues at my place at the table because they knew that it was so very easy to wind me up until I burst into tears.  That they were tears of anger and frustration at being misunderstood in a predominantly male world, compounded by deep disappointment in self that I reacted that way, was no matter – the game was to make me cry.   

Even though I am no longer that person, and the anger and frustration is long gone, the memory remains.  The belief that I react this way to bullies was so ingrained that I didn’t actually think of it as a belief.  It was just me.  I didn’t even realise that the other people were being bullies.   I actually carried the energy of that memory with me over the years without even realising it, because it was such a part of ME that it had become something I rarely thought of – until I released that energy just the other day within a meditation session.  I had carried one perspective of that situation for all these years – that of the emotions I felt during those horribly embarrassing meetings.  In that meditation, I came to see another perspective where I could understand that although the actual hands-on work as that National Manager was right up my street, as a PTSD sufferer, I was ill-equipped for the aspects that involved confrontation.  The “what no longer served me” that I released was not only the memory pain of being bullied, embarrassed and emotional when pushed, but with it came the realisation that at that time in my life I was in a situation that was beyond me.  I forgave my overwhelming work colleagues and, most importantly, I forgave myself. 

A few weeks ago I, and the other Krones, logged off social media for a break from the energies – for “Spiritual Maintenance.” It was a much-needed time to reset beliefs – to release that which no longer serves and to confirm commitments to the work that we do.  I had a lot of difficulty in getting back to my groups and pages – the energies seemed stagnant.  It was time for a good close look at why.  My page, The Path to Ein Teri Y’h was about a long-held dream that seemed about to move from a dream into reality when covid reared its head and so many dreams fell into dust.  I had given that group a new name, tried to stir the energies back into some form of enthusiasm but it became so very obvious that this was one of those things that no longer served.  And so I released that Facebook group and it is being archived on 31st August, and by doing that I have given myself time.  Time to work on my blog, my podcast, the work of the International Koalition of Krones, my Helping You course and more.

When you release those old, long-held beliefs not only does it give you a feeling of dropping a heavy weight, it gives you room to move, to become creative.  To grow.  It gives you space, physically, emotionally and spiritually, to spread your wings, to learn how to fly in a new world.    

Gy’ Shé em
Flip the heaviness and Shine your Bling

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The International Koalition of Krones (IKoK) is an international group of Spiritually Awakened Wise Women whose goal is to assist the Collective in it’s continued Spiritual Awakening & Consciousness Expansion Journey during this time on Earth referred to as “The Great Awakening”

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Controlling Empathy

All my life, for as long as I can remember, I have been overwhelmed.  For most of my life I believed it was because of my upbringing which was in a time when children could be seen, but most definitely were not to be heard.  It was confusing.  Adults and other children around me, made me feel befuddled. They made me fearful; they over-powered me with their very presence, with the noise that they made.  They were too active – too strong and I didn’t understand that it wasn’t their physical voice, or activity, or muscular strength that overpowered me – it was far stranger than that.  Some people could over-power me simply by looking at me and make me devolve into  tear-filled mess.

The noise that humans make hurts me.  Even now – in certain situations.  Not physically, it’s more of a mental disturbance.   It’s hard to describe, and as a child I had no means of reference to say that this pain which hurt my body and this pain which hurt my soul were any different.  I had no guidance to know that it wasn’t always physical noise that hurt.  Now I know that it is the chaotic, jumbled Energy noise that so many people put out, that can hurt so much.

Like many others, I had no-one to guide me, so I learnt avoidance.  I already knew how to disappear into the walls so that I couldn’t be seen but I also learned how to disappear into story books, how to travel to different realms.  My own way to describe it was to “go visit the Elephants”.  Basically I would leave my body and go where I felt safe.  On the open savannah with the elephants.  I would walk in their footsteps.    I have a guide, Emily, who is a big, blue, matriachal elephant.  I even have a painting of her on my wall.  She makes me feel safe.

I learned how not to be there even when my physical body was.  It was the only way I had at that time to control my environment.  When I got a bit older, I used food to control my environment.  I was anorexic.

That tentative control was violently ripped from me one day when I was caught up in riots. Now I understand that it wasn’t just the physical noise and violence of those riots, but the Energy of anger, fear, death; of dominance, destruction and hatred.  That Energy whirled around in a maelstrom of violence that I couldn’t handle.  For over 20 years after that event, I lived in fear of everything outside my front door.  I had zero control of everything that happened outside my front door.  It took that long for me to be diagnosed with PTSD.

Time moved on, I learned how to deal with the panic attacks that happened every day and especially whenever I went into a place where there were lots of people.  My need to escape the pain I felt was so great that I would become violent.  I’ve been thrown out of more that one McDonalds for going to thump someone who was simply talking loudly!

Time moved on, I learned coping strategies and life continued – and was even fulfilling at times.  Then, totally out of the blue, in the midst of a time when other dramas were playing out, I was accused of something I hadn’t done, something I hadn’t even been involved with and I was threatened with jail time.  My world was already very delicately poised, but with this threat it totally collapsed.  This was in August 2014.

In October 2014, I had what I call my Initial Spiritual Awakening Experience.  And in June the following year Essence Ka tha’ras came into my life.    There have been many times when I have stated that she saved my sanity and I am deadly serious about that.  Finally someone was able to explain to me what was happening. 

At 60 years of age I found out about Empathy.  Of course I knew about empathy as opposed to sympathy, but I didn’t know that empathy could also be an amalgam of our senses; a deeper sense. A response to the energies swirling about in the world around us.  I didn’t know that people are empathic in this way of sensing the energies around them.  I found out that I am Empathic – and that every other human on this planet has that ability to some degree or other.  If they are open to it – it’s a matter of sensitivity.  Most importantly, I learned that it overwhelms when you are not in control.  And I, most definitely, was not in control.  I finally discovered that all this pain and noise and overwhelm is because I am very sensitive to the energy of what is around me. 

Essence taught me that I can learn to take control.

That has probably been the most important part of my journey through this lifetime.  You really can’t learn to control how you perceive and receive the energy around you, until you learn about how Energy works and how to work with Energy.  You can’t just flick a switch – you have to learn about it.

The very first thing I needed to learn was how to stop seeing all this Energetic swirling as something to be feared.  Essence taught me that if I could learn to take control, instead of it controlling me, that this knowledge of the energy of the world around me could become my greatest gift for helping others.  I am driven to help others; and this could be an amazing tool but I had to change my mindset, my beliefs.  I’d had 60 years of fear and hiding from something that could be my greatest asset – but it wasn’t something that was going to be learned overnight. 

Essence got the ball rolling, but eventually my guides directed me to attend a weekly meditation circle in the town where I lived.  The people there were lovely.  Committed, helpful, caring – but the Energies they moved in were already too low a frequency for me to feel comfortable in and I wasn’t sufficiently experienced to be able to move through different frequencies without being affected.  I know that sounds like Ego – Hey, my frequency is higher than yours – but that is very definitely not the case.  It was simply that they worked in fields that operated in different frequencies than those I was starting to work in. I went there to learn skills I needed – primarily I needed to learn to trust what I Know.  To trust the Energy I was able to read.  How did I do this, I learned the art of psychometry. 

I was pretty hopeless with reading Energy off personal items such as jewellery, they feel inert to me, but my teacher would put a photograph in an envelope or face-down on the table and I would hover my hand over it, I wouldn’t touch it and I would attempt to ‘read’ the Energy I felt about whatever was in that photo that I couldn’t see.  I had to push myself out of my comfort zone and learn to say what came into my Knowing without doubting and second-guessing it.  Sometimes the things students would come out with when we did these exercises were hilarious or even ridiculous, but no-one ever made anyone else feel stupid.  We were all just having a go and I learned to relax and say whatever popped into my mind.  And surprisingly that information was uncannily accurate.

It was a good class.  Fun.  Great people.  And every single week for about 18 months, I left that class, got home and vomited.  Every single week after attending that class, I would spend hours throwing up. 

Now, to be fair,  I do have a number of food intolerances and vomiting isn’t really unusual for me when I eat certain natural food chemicals and so, week after week I thought it was something I was eating.  Until I was invited to visit the local Spiritual Church. 

I went into that church and immediately felt that really familiar draining of my Energy that I describe as ‘pain’.  This was a place of very low frequency and I was in a position of starting to be able to recognise and understand it.  When I had to rush out of that church in order to vomit, I knew exactly why I had been throwing up for the previous 18 months.  However lovely the people were in the class I had been attending, the Energy they were working in was too low for the frequencies I was learning to move within and when I mentioned this with my psychometry teacher, she confirmed that she too had recognised that I would soon be leaving to follow my own path.  This is a good way of understanding that you really can’t separate the physical from the spiritual.

During most of this time, I had lived in an apartment building with the most horrible, swirling, chaotic energy.  Next door was an even bigger apartment building that held energies that were even more intense.  It came to a point, when I had to move out.  I was the fourth successive manager of that building to have had a mental breakdown.  That’s how bad the Energy was there.  I amicably separated from my husband and moved to a town several hours away, but on the 1st January 2018 I found myself back in that building after getting a call for help in running the resort.  

Despite already having several years of learning to recognise and understand how to read the Energy and, at a basic level, how to work with it, I found myself just 8 days later, on the beach seeking a passive way to leave this life.  That’s how badly I was being affected by that energy of those buildings in just 8 short days.  I went into meditation and beseeched the Universe to either take me or to show me how to bring balance into my life. 

Balance is what I got.  I fell off the sea wall.  I had to be rescued by the fire service; had two stays in hospital and 4 1/2 hours of surgery pinning my leg back together.  When I came out of hospital I had to go back to that place of swirling, painful energy which had only become worse.  I had to spend 9 weeks in bed with my leg stuck in the air.  And I had to recognise that Energy and not allow it to take control of me once again.  I had to learn to choose how I worked with it. 

During those 9 weeks I was severely tested.  I don’t need to go into the details, but it was bad; it was hard.  And it was here that I came to understand that me being in control of the way I perceive and work with the energies around me, or of allowing these energies to control me as they had whilst I was younger was all about choice.  Choice and discernment.  I had the ability to choose how I saw, felt and reacted to the energies around me and in order to make that choice I had to be able to discern what was beneficial and what was not.   And believe me, not only then but in the three years since that accident, I have been severely challenged. 

Does this mean that I am now fully in control of my Empathic abilities.  Nope.  I think I will be learning and growing in this area for a long time yet.  What has happened is that I am learning to use that energy in the way that Essence told me I would be able to do.  I now view this ability as the true gift it is.  I use it to see my world as it is and not so much as it is presented.  I use it when I have a client – either for Reiki or drum healing or as a counsellor.  I use it within meditation for the benefit of the entire collective – and it’s impossible not to work with energy when working with Essence. 

One of the first things she taught me is that Everything is Energy, Frequency, Vibration.  It took me a while to get a really good handle on understanding that – but I think I’m pretty much getting there! 

Thank you.  Thank you for listening.  I hope the sharing of my journey helps you to better understand your journey and not to be overwhelmed by the fears of uncontrolled empathy.

Gy’ Shé em
Flip the heaviness and Shine your Bling

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The International Koalition of Krones (IKoK) is an international group of Spiritually Awakened Wise Women whose goal is to assist the Collective in it’s continued Spiritual Awakening & Consciousness Expansion Journey during this time on Earth referred to as “The Great Awakening”

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The Value of Community Action

I am one of the Krones of the International Koalition of Krones. This is a Transcript of my talk on the IKoK Chat on May, 21st, 2021.

You can find more information on the IKoK at the bottom of this blog.


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In the last chat I spoke about the 1/66 Dual Frequency I AM Keyword phrase and its impact on me, personally.  I spoke of how I had to dig deep into the Energy and the Meaning of that Keyword phrase in order to fully understand how It could aid me.  I spoke of how I understood that this was work that I had to do.  How I knew it was work for me not only on a personal level, but for me as an individual aspect of the Collective and the work I do on behalf of the entire Collective Consciousness of Humanity and beyond. 

Last week I focused mainly on the work I needed to do for me as an individual.  Today, I am going to talk again about that work, but I’m also going to be speaking of how we can use this to aid, not just an individual, but the entire Collective.  I’m not talking just Humans, I’m talking about ALL Beings; I’m talking about how we can utilise the Energy of Healing, and how we can do this work of healing for all on this planet. 

In this life time, I’ve only been on my conscious spiritual journey for a little under 7 years – not long in the grand scheme of things so I don’t know how the Physical and the Spiritual came together – worked together – in those earlier times, but if I look back to that hippy era, there seems to have been a ‘togetherness’ that appears to be lacking right now.  What I do know and am very aware of is that in these recent years we have been highly focussed on the Spiritual aspect of our current growth and that’s fine, things cycle around.  Now it’s time to bring things back into balance and regain that knowledge that you really can’t separate the physical from the spiritual.

In the last chat I mentioned one of the health issues I have had to deal with for many years – chronic pain.  I spoke of my doctor’s recommendation that I use a wheelchair and my decision not to accept that future for myself.  I spoke of the choice I made, but I didn’t go into any depth regarding how I actioned that choice and I didn’t talk about the steps I took to ensure better physical health. 

“Actioned” the choice.   “Steps” I took.

I, like you, am an individual part of the Collective.  I’m one of the threads in the Tapestry of Life, just like you are.  What I do affects the Collective.  What YOU do also affects the Collective.  If, at that point in my life, when the doctors told me I needed to accept that wheelchair, if at that time, I had simply asked people to pray for me, to send energy – as so many people do when life is difficult –   if that was all I had relied on, I probably wouldn’t be alive today.  I personally know people who have died because they relied purely on that energy healing. 

I’m not saying it doesn’t help – one of my main skills is distance healing.  Science has proven through Quantum Entanglement that energy really does move in that way – from one point on the globe to another point on the globe, and that some people are proficient in actioning that. But you, as Starseed, Lightworker or whatever you want to call yourself, you can send all the Loving, Healing Energy you want, but it won’t help in the recipient’s physical world unless the action steps are also undertaken.  And if that doesn’t happen, if Action Steps are never taken…  Well, what’s the point?  We might as well pack up and give up on the human race.

So let’s delve a bit deeper about Action Steps, and we can use my experience as an example.  I was supported by many people – doctors, physios, chiropractors, family, friends….  And all that supportive energy could just as easily have been channelled into supporting me into accepting my limitations, accepting that wheelchair and the inevitable worsening of my condition.  That energy was being caringly given, and it was being gratefully received, but if I had sat there and waited for that Energy to do the work for me, nothing would have been achieved.

How I did use that supportive energy was to quit my job; to move to a place that is more energetically suited to me – next to the ocean.  And I started to learn to move again.   It was hard.  It was very hard.  It pushed me out of my comfort zone, every day – many times a day.  I started with getting out of my chair and walking across the room.  It took me four months to be able to walk to the lift, across the lobby, out of the door, across the road and onto the beach.  About 500 meters.  1/4 of a mile.  Then I would rest on the sand for a couple of hours and then start the long journey back.  It took me over two years to wean myself off all the drugs.  And all the time I was receiving caring, supportive Energy. 

If I hadn’t had people around me supporting me energetically, could I have found the strength I needed to take those action steps? If I was doing it on my own? Probably not.  That Energy, that wasn’t given in a Spiritual way, through meditation or distance healing or Reiki, it was simply people caring and helping.  And it was essential, but it would have been useless if I hadn’t used that support to take the action steps that I did. 

There’s a synergy at play.  It’s a synergy that we seem to be losing touch with.  Especially during this last year or so where we have been so isolated from each other.  That synergy is brought into play by the community supporting the action steps needed to bring about the desired result.  And that synergy is what we need to start to focus on in order to bring about Collective Healing. 

There are many Starseeds who ask why they are here.  What their role is.  What work are they here to do.  Here is the answer.

The Collective.  Individuals form the Collective.  Individuals form the Community you live and work within.  You are a member of your community; you are an aspect of the Collective.   Yes, these are just words and it doesn’t matter which word you prefer.  What it means is that you are a part of the energy source for your community and you are a part of the needed action steps  to bring that healing energy into the physical world.  How do we do that?  We do what we are here to do as Starseed – we help our community and not just Energetically.  We give service to our community. Physical service.  Our work is Community Service.

There are many ways that you can be involved in community service, but I tell you now – this is work that involves the very survival of your community and many of the individuals within it.  And I tell you this too – when the survival of a community is at risk, so too is the survival of the species.  This is grass-roots work.  Let me give you some examples.

I know a lady who has given her life to Community Service.  She’s an awesome person and one of the things she does is to organise the Meals on Wheels service within my community.  Without this work that she does, many elderly people would have no outside contact with the world, wouldn’t get a proper meal.  No-one would know if they fell over and broke their hip.  Her work provides a lifeline for these people.  She could sit under a tree and Spiritually send healing energy to the elderly of our town, and that would be good but that wouldn’t feed them or make sure that they are actually still alive, and well.  That synergy of the Energy given and the action steps taken is essential.

And it works both ways.  I work within Community Service.  All my work is voluntary.  Some of it I actually get paid for in a round-about way.  I’m technically unemployed, but at almost 66 years old, I’m not going to be able to get a paid job, so I do community service instead of competing with the younger ones for work.  Our Government supports this for our older community who are not yet old enough to retire, but are unlikely to be offered, or physically able to undertake full time work.  But, and it’s a big but, If I didn’t do this volunteer work, I wouldn’t get unemployment benefits.  Without that, I’d be without a home.  Or food.  I’d be destitute.  My giving of energy spiritually and physically – and my taking action steps within my community, is what ensures my personal survival. 

Again it’s about choice.  I can choose to sit under a tree, go into meditation and concentrate on sending Energy to help someone. And I do do that.  Then I can go home, make a coffee and feel good about myself.  But have I really helped that person?  Does sending all the love and healing energy in the world help the physical reality of that person?  I’d really like you to think about that question.  And then think about what you can do to change it.  What action steps do you need to take to bring about that synergy in your community.

So where do you start to bring that change into the world?  That change that we all desire so much.  You start right where you are. You take action steps within YOUR community.  A bit like ‘paying it forward.’  I’ll talk more on this in the next chat.   By you taking action steps within your community you are anchoring the 5 frequency not only into your community but also into the planet.  The 5 Frequency is a neutral charge – a grounding frequency.  It is about having the courage to step out beyond our comfort zone.  And that is what our work is all about – pushing the boundaries that say we have to do things in a certain way; it looks for positive change, looks for what else out there might be true, and teaches the right use of free will.

You cannot separate the physical from the spiritual. You need to tattoo that on your arm so you can’t forget it.  We are human.  And although our Spirit isn’t confined within our physical body, it is tied to it for this lifetime reality.  We cannot separate them and remain alive in this reality. 

Energy and Action – that is the synergy we need to make the changes and the choices we, as a Collective, need to make in order to heal and to move into a better future.

OM AkarapariNAma Anandaham


The International Koalition of Krones (IKoK) is an international group of Spiritually Awakened Wise Women whose goal is to assist the Collective in it’s continued Spiritual Awakening & Consciousness Expansion Journey during this time on Earth referred to as “The Great Awakening”

The Founder of the IKoK, Essence Ka tha’ras, is, amongst many other things, a Master Metatronic Numerologist. If you wish to explore her work, and the work of the IKoK, there are links below.

There are also You Tube and Soundcloud links to the full IKoK Chat if you wish to know more about the work we do.

Please feel free to share this blog. I only ask that you share it in it’s entirety and not just snippets. You can also share the memes on the following page: Memes and Other Stuff

What’s in a Name?

Photo: Junior Usuanlele Oshodi – Unsplash

Once again I am seeing posts that relate to people’s fears about labels.  Mainly about being labelled themselves.  It’s something that we cycle through every now and then and maybe it’s something you have an opinion about, maybe you strongly dislike being labelled as something or other or maybe you really don’t care.

Regardless of your current thoughts on people being labelled, here’s a few things to think about.  Want to share your thoughts and beliefs?  Comment below.

Can you describe yourself in a way that is easily understood by another person, without using any labels?

Bet you can’t.  You can’t mention that you are tall, or short; the colour of your skin or hair; whether you are male or female. You can’t give your name or what job you do; what hobbies you enjoy…… 

In our current society, labels can open doors that would otherwise be shut.

It may be that you have an illness, an injury or a condition that can benefit from treatment.  You need a diagnosis before treatment can begin.  It doesn’t really matter whether that is cancer, Asperger’s, a broken arm or hayfever.  The label opens up avenues for treatment.  Of course you don’t have to accept the diagnosis – or the treatment, but you certainly can benefit from having the label as a jumping-off point.

People say they don’t like labels because once given they stick with you and are limiting.

Have you ever got to the bottom of a jar of coffee and thought I can re-purpose that jar.  So you give it a good wash out, peal off the label and fill it with some other food?  Then you re-label that jar to show it’s now filled with rice.
Why can’t you do that with humans?  Just because you have a label, doesn’t mean it is true all your life.  It is the thought that you can’t change a label that is the limiting factor.

And what about the name you are given when you are born.  That is the biggest label you’ll ever get.  And yes, you can change that!!

Gy’ Shé em

Auri’An

International Koalition of Krones

Love, Light and Other Fluff

I’m sure you’ve worked it out by now that the way in which humans communicate with each other is something that I’m pretty intrigued with.  I wouldn’t go so far as to say that I am passionate about it, and I’m certainly no expert in language use, but I have been writing and talking about the Energy of words and the way that we communicate by using them, for years – specifically about how those who consider themselves to be Spiritual: Lightworkers, Starseeds, or whatever other name you prefer – and about how they communicate and interact with each other. 

I’ve spoken many times about the Energy held within everyday words and how when those words are not spoken in the highest sense, how that Energy can personally affect YOU, how the words that you use can pull you down; how they can limit your potential to excel.  To grow.  And this effect is not just in the spiritual realms – it also affects everyday life. 

I spoke on this topic again in the International Koalition of Krones Zoom Chat on 13th November 2020, but that time it was about how our word choices, and the syntax and cadence that we use, can actually cause Energetic Harm to others – and that harm can even happen unintentionally because we are careless and we speak without consideration of the meaning and the effects of certain words.

Humans are poised to evolve.

It’s not the first time we’ve changed and grown, and it probably won’t be the last time.  But this time?  This time we get the opportunity to consciously choose which direction, which timeline, we will travel.  We get to choose what we want it to look like.  And that choice happens through the Energy held by the majority of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity.

There is so much opportunity right now, at this point in linear time, at this crux-point we are currently in.  So much opportunity to make the right choice.  We know this.  In our physical world it is so obvious.  We are at a place in our reality where humans are able to make a choice about the future of humanity; a choice about which path we are going to choose – and that choice will eventually affect the future of all Beings on this planet, not just humans, but every Being on Earth.  And because we are choosing OUR future, and because humanity WILL go Galactic in that future, our choices now will affect so much that lies way beyond this place we call home.  The choices we are making right now, both individually and collectively, are so important because they will affect everything for the next 13,000 years. 

And the only way that we can work out what those choices should look like is to communicate with each other.  And to be quite honest, I think we are doing a pretty rotten job.  Those who promote the fear and anger that has been sweeping this planet for so many years and which has become extreme in the last few months – they are talking the loudest.  Their words don’t always make sense, but they say it loudly and with conviction.  And humans have a history of listening to those who talk the loudest, regardless of whether what they are saying is Truth or not.

Communication is the first stage of the Conscious Evolution of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity. 

Starseed and Lightworkers are here at this point in linear time to maintain the Energy, to hold space so that humanity can grow and work things out in the way that they most desire as a Collective.  Everyone on this path should be really aware of the words they use and how they use them.  We are responsible for consciously leading the way into clear communication. We hold the Energy and we absolutely must do everything we can to hold it at the highest frequency we can. 

And that leads me into something I want to talk about – about how we, the Spiritual Community, especially in the Western world, have taken Sacred words and Blessings, often from other cultures, and made them into everyday phrases. 

I want to talk about how we, the Spiritual Community, use words of great Power in exactly the same way as we yell “Bye, see ya later.”  I want to discuss how we finish an email, not with ‘Best wishes,” or ‘Yours faithfully,’ but with a Sacred Blessing.  And there is nothing wrong with that, nothing wrong with that at all provided that Blessing is given consciously and with knowledge.

We, especially those of us within a Western society have appropriated Sacred Words from other cultures and we’ve bastardised them.  When we are writing a salutation at the end of a letter or a post, most of us wouldn’t dream of using the words “ By the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ and the love of God…” So why do we use “Namaste”?

I’m guilty.  I’m guilty of using such words without, each time, considering the deeper meaning of the words I’m using.

So let’s think about the meaning of that word – Namaste.  I Bow to You.  On the surface it seems like a pretty good salutation and nowadays, it’s mainly that way, but let’s dig a bit deeper.  I Bow to You.  It means that you hold deep respect for the other person.  That you know them, that you honour them and that you also understand, because we are all One, that in honouring and respecting them you too are being honoured and respected.  How often, when you use that word, do you take time to think of the acknowledgement you are making in understanding one of the deeper Truths of the Universe?

Then again, the Oxford English Dictionary simply says that it means “Hello.”

Food for thought.

Another Sacred phrase that we use incorrectly, also stolen from another culture – in this case the Mayan – is “In Lak’ech ala kin”   Now I do know a number of people who do use this phrase in full awareness of the deeper meaning of the words, and I don’t see it over used in the same way as Namaste has been.  And that is a good thing. In Lak’ech literally means “I am another you.” Like Namaste this phrase is talking of the deeper Truths of the Universe – I don’t exist without you and you don’t exist without me.  If you were not here, I wouldn’t be here either – and thinking about that can take you on a very long, and interesting journey seeking that deeper knowledge.

When I was first starting out on my Spiritual journey, when I first heard of that phrase and it’s meaning, I thought it was really cool and I used it all over.  Until I started to delve into that deeper meaning and realised my casual use was both disrespectful to the culture and to the deeper truth of the words.

And that brings me to the final phrase I want to discuss today.  A phrase that is so mis-used and over-used that just to hear it makes my toes curl!  It no longer carries the Energy it should.  That it once did.

But first, before I tell you what this phrase is, I’ll tell you what it means to me.  My interpretation.

I am the Light of Creation. 

I am the light first seen at the beginning of the linear time of our reality. 

I draw that light into my Being so that I can be a beacon to guide and aid those who struggle in darkness.

I humbly bring that Light into the Service of All.  

I am merely a conduit. 

A conduit in Service to the Energy and Knowledge of the Universe. 

I Bless you with the frequencies of Creation and Wisdom and Love. 

When I say this, my interpretation of this phrase, I feel the Energy.  I feel it building in my hands and my heart, in all my Chakras.  I feel the Energy of being in Service, I feel humbled and I feel the commitment I have made to this Journey, to the Collective.  And when all that Energy, all that is bundled, mainly without thought, into  “Love and Light” delivered in an off-hand, throw-away manner, is it any wonder that I cringe?

Now, don’t misunderstand me – I’m not in anyway saying that there is anything wrong in using those phrases.  There is nothing wrong with using Namaste, In Lak’ech, Love and Light, Gy’ Shé em, KaRa Ounz Chez Prana, OM AkArapariNAma Anadaham and more.  But please, feel the power of the words.  Understand the depth of the words.  Feel the Blessing within the words.  And then use them in Honour of the Knowledge and the Wisdom and the Power of these phrases.

We who are Starseed, Lightworkers or whatever other term you prefer, we are the ones who should be leading the way for the Conscious Evolution of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity.  And the first step is to become aware of the power that we hold in the words that we use.  And we should use them wisely.  Yes, we all stumble and make mistakes, we speak through a human filter but we have also become complacent. We are de-sensitised.  We are losing the deeper Truths, the deeper knowledge and wisdom in favour of fluff.

Gy Shé em

Auri’An

International Koalition of Krones

This blog post is an extract from the Zoom Chat held by the International Koalition of Krones on 13th November 2020. You can access the recording here.

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