Posted in 2021

Drama and Ego

I’m no expert, but it seems to me that in times of war you have to stop and review what’s been going on, what you believe will happen, what you want to see happen and what is likely to actually happen.  This is what I have been doing over the last few weeks.

I’m not a regular writer in this blog.  I have a tendency to do my other stuff until something happens and I just have to write about it – and if that need to write gets as far as actually publishing, well that is just awesome!  I had intended to become a tad more disciplined this year – at least I had until the Universe stepped in with other plans.

So far it’s been a year of drama.  And really?  I’ve had quite enough drama in my life to be quite happily bored for a time.  We know that there is massive amounts of drama in the world but I’m talking personal drama on top of all that Covid crap. It’s been full on and has felt like a major war with massive salvos being shot across my equanimity. 

It should have been no surprise.  I’d had plenty of warning from my Spiritual Sister and Teacher, Essence Ka tha’ras.  I knew that the Collective Consciousness of Humanity was heading towards a Collective Dark Night of the Soul and that it won’t peak at its worst point until September 2022.  I also know (because I work closely with her and have seen her predictions come into reality so many times that any doubt just doesn’t exist) that this is only the first stage of that DNOTS and that things are likely to get a whole lot rockier.

So what on Earth made me think that I would escape?  Was it because I have just come out of my own DNOTS?  It took me over 5 years to pull that one off, so I have all the experience in the world about working and living in that place.  I definitely thought I could use that to help others as they fall into their own personal dark place.  Could I possibly have thought that I was immune because during my DNOTS I also studied and gained my skills and qualifications as an Holistic Counsellor? 

Who knows?  What I do know is that in thinking I could avoid this I had donned my own face mask – right over my eyes.  I recognised this. This was the work of Ego. 

Ego is super-sneaky.  Ego leads you to believe that you are helping to sort out the problems of Self and/or the world.  Ego makes you think you are bullet-proof and, believe me, that doesn’t help one little bit when trying to survive in our current society. 

It’s not really surprising that Ego has shown up for me as a micro aspect of the macro (the Collective Consciousness of Humanity).  Ego is currently having a field-day with our world leaders.  And not just the leaders of our society.  You only have to turn on the TV to see it glowing in the faces of many people as they scream and yell and destroy all the while thinking that this violence is going to change things for the better.  Idiots.

What they are doing is giving Ego a bigger platform in their lives.  They are making it all about Me Me Me whilst believing that it is about Us Us Us.  And the arena that it is most easily seen is in that of what is rapidly becoming one of the worlds fastest growing religions – yes a religion, complete with warped dogma – the so-called New Age Belief System.  But I digress.  I’ll talk about that one on another blog.

So.  In my personal war I have spent time reviewing.  I have spent time looking into the darkest aspects of me and my ego.  I have been doing Shadow Work.  We, the IKoK – International Koalition of Krones – have been saying for a while that the Collective will have to do this Shadow Work.  That if they don’t they will be forced into it by circumstance.  I learn by experience and I am having my personal experience of being made to look deeply through all the drama in my life in a way I just can’t avoid.

And all I can say right now is that if the entire Collective Consciousness of Humanity has to do the same, has to dig as deep as I have, has to face its fears and its demons, it’s going to be messy.  But I also want to hold up a ray of light.  Only a few days ago I believed I was falling deeply into that dark well of despair that I know so well having lived in it for many years, but I am still here.  Occasionally teetering on the edge for sure but all that experience and study and training has held me in good stead.  I recognised what was happening and I chose to survive.  I chose to survive because I believe, so very strongly, that I can help.  Even if it is only with one person.  I can help that one person make a difference in their life.

And that isn’t ego.  It’s Krone Wisdom.  The wisdom that is grown out of knowledge and experience and shared with all who seek it and respect it.

Gy’ Shé em

I AM Krone

Krone Auri’An

Posted in 2020

Bashing Hope?

Oh MAN!! I am seeing so many posts about the imminent Spiritual Ascension – how all the ‘bad’ people will die and the ‘good’ people will rise up and live the good life. This is apparently going to come in on solar winds, our light bodies are going to be activated and all that apparently unused DNA. is going to light up…..

Do you know how many times I have seen this rubbish since I started my journey? Too many to count. I’ve seen it from well-known personalities, from unknown people with big Egos; from people who seriously believe in what is no more than a glorified Doomsday prophesy.

And when the designated date goes silently past, and nothing happens, these people all shut up. For a while.

Yes, I understand that this belief is really just showing where these folk are on their journey, and no, I don’t judge them. They’ll work it out eventually I hope. It just makes me tired. This is the kind of Energy that causes problems in the first place. Energy built by Ego on a distorted view of the religious Rapture.

Humans, made the mess we live in. Humans, have to clean it up. Or not. Right now we are on the “or not” track and I tell you, this is not a timeline reality we want to knowingly travel. I know, I recently ‘traveled’ approximately 150-200 years into the future of the timeline we are currently on, a time which my friend and teacher calls “HD Reality.” Believe me, we do not want to go there. We have to clean up this mess.

Some will say that it gives people hope to believe in such things. Yes. I believe strongly in hope – but time after time this type of hope is smashed. What happens then to the folk who pinned all their hopes on that sort of event – on the knight in shining armour riding to the rescue just in the nick of time?

Hope. This kind of ‘hope,’ the ascension style of hope, asks nothing of people. Just that they pin their beliefs on it happening and don’t do any of the work that is needed to make it happen. Some people will do individual work to improve themselves, but this is Collective work we need right now.

Do I have the answers? Nope. Humanity will no doubt keep stumbling on, making mistakes, sometimes fixing mistakes, sometimes making them worse, but I do know that this knight in shining armour isn’t going to ride into the Energy of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity and wipe out all the bad stuff like chalk on a board. Ain’t going to happen and the sooner we work this out and get to work – without the fear and anger – to bring about a resolution, the better we as a Collective will be.

There are those whose work is to split us apart. Divide and conquer. And their tool of choice is fear. We can’t separate the Physical from the Spiritual and so we need to come together physically and spiritually, to say No, we will not be separated. We are One. One People on this Planet. And we need to do this without feeding that Fear. That should not be our tool of choice.
People are starting to come together – but they are picking up the tools of Fear and Anger. We are the silent majority. We need to come together in the Power of Silence. The French have done it in the past, as have the Turkish. Now the world needs to do this. Peacefully. Silently. Together. Citizens of Earth.

Posted in 2020

Helping Ego

Today I want to share a personal story with you.  It’s something that happened a few years back – when I was barely started on my Awakening Journey.  It took me a few years to fully understand what had happened in that situation, but it is something that profoundly affected me and I see the same Energy of it happening in current society.  Other people falling into the same trap.  And it is because I understand just how easy it is to fall into this trap – and how very hard it is to get out again – that I am sharing this today. This is about wanting to help and how in some cases, helping is actually inappropriate and it can back-fire.   It’s also a very eye-opening tale about Ego – and just how sneaky it can be.

I’ve always had this strong urge to help people.  I saw myself as a “helper” and quite frequently as a “Rescuer”.  The urge to help people was very strong. 

I had a friend who needed help.  She was a close friend, I considered her a sister and I could see that she was hurting very badly but she wouldn’t tell me what the problem was.  Sometimes she was angry, sometimes very fearful and it broke my heart to watch her.  I felt so ineffective.  I knew, I KNEW I could help if she’d only tell me what the problem was.

Then, in dance class, she was in tears and I went to give her hug.  That was all it took and she became furiously angry, focused all that anger at me and spat out all the fear and venom that she had been holding right at me.  I was devastated.  Devastated that I couldn’t help my friend and I was absolutely desperate to do so. 

Yes, my friend had a problem.  Something that was causing her distress, but she had made it very clear that she didn’t want help.  I dis-respected her choice and in my desperation to help I turned her problems into a story about me.  It became about my need to help.  MY inability to reach her and sort things out.  MY emotional distress at being refused.  After all – all I wanted to do was to help.  It was years later that I realised I had exacerbated the situation because of my Ego.  It was my Ego that drove me to insist on helping even when my help wasn’t sought after or wanted.  I didn’t see that my Ego as involved.  How can it be Egotistical when all you want to do is GIVE?  To Help?  But the reality was, my Ego was jumping up and down, waving flags and holding a party because it had made me so sure that I was the Saviour of my friend’s situation.

So how come this personal story from several years back relates to what is happening to Starseeds right now.  Well, we’ve spoken over the last few chats (IKoK Bi-monthly chats – see below for info) about the addiction energy that is draining Starseeds.  We’ve spoken about how strong it is and chances are you’ve grieved over friends who seem to be lost down the rabbit hole of QAnon and other conspiracy theories, just as we have.  What we haven’t spoken of is how this addiction actually grabs hold of Starseeds.   Well.  It seems to me that it is Ego that opens the door to that addiction.  That need to help, that DRIVE to help can become so very, very strong that it does become like an addiction.  You need that hit of knowing that you helped someone feel better.

Starseeds, almost without exception, want to help people.  So what better way to hook Starseeds than to show them people who need help.  People they feel desperately that they NEED to help, that they are able to help. People who are suffering intense pain.  Abuse.  Torture.  Black Magic. Stuff you can barely imagine.  And when it’s children who are suffering this things?? Well the need goes right up through the roof.  And what does QAnon etc give them.  These very things.  Through Conspiracy Theory, they show Starseeds the stories that tap into that very real desire to help those who cannot help themselves.  Starseeds are being taken down with their own gifts.  Gifts that should be used to help humanity.  They are ‘fighting’ for a made-up cause.  They are giving their Energy to feed those who are trying to take them down.  And they can’t see that they are being driven in the wrong direction by an Ego that is jumping up and down, waving flags.  Having a party.

How do we know that Ego is involved – just read their posts when challenged.  They’ve done what I did.  They’ve turned the story around to be about themselves.  But like me, they can’t see it.  It’s about how they are helping and others aren’t.  It’s about how they protest, carry guns, wear a mask, don’t wear a mask.  It’s about Us and Them.  It’s about division and fear and anger.  It’s not about Love, compassion, peace.  And if very definitely is not about forgiveness.

And the part that is so very hard is that most of these conspiracy theories have some element of truth in them.   All these Starseeds want to do is be the saviour of those who can’t save themselves.  And they haven’t yet worked out that what they think they need so desperately to save is an illusion.

These are just my thoughts. You can agree or not, but I hope that this sharing of my personal story and how I see it applying to what is happening today, has given you some food for thought.

Gy’ Shé em
Auri’An

Note: This is the transcript of a talk I gave on the International Koalition of Krones bi-monthly chat. If you want to watch the You Tube version of this and other chats, readings and messages, please follow this link:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC1-dXpuahHKlTYr3nWTyI3w

Posted in 2016

Digging Through Ego

I’ve been thinking about Ego.

Like most people, I’ve had my moments of Ego and always, in hindsight I’ve disliked myself in those times.  That feeling of superiority, the whole “I know/have done/have experienced more than you” persona.

It’s usually not pretty.  And so I tend to watch myself fairly closely that my Ego is not colouring my words and emotions.  We’ve all seen and felt the energy of those people who  believe themselves so much better/further along the path…..  but then I also see other folk who project Ego all unknowingly.  And I realise just how insidious it can be.

So why am I thinking about this now?  Because something happened a couple of days ago and I wanted really badly to share it.  So I did, with my friends, people I trust.  These friends are awesome and would take what I said at face value and then celebrate with me.

But my busy brain got in on the picture and asked the question….was there an underlying Ego blast there?  A lot of self-searching later and my answer is No.  No ego, just excitement and a desire to share that experience for what it is.

But what about the possibility that people other than these friends see my talk as Ego?  As a “look what happened to me, you’ve not experienced this!” superiority?  That niggly voice can be very annoying!

This is something that has plagued my life; that has inadvertently led me into heaps of situations that have knocked the stuffing right out of me.  That has undermined my confidence and self-esteem.  The sharing and not feeling any form of ego, but still receiving the accusation; the empathic reaction to another’s problem and the resulting accusation of one-up-manship.  The accusation of needing to be better than everyone else.  These questions had, I thought, been laid to rest – until Ego popped up and said “You don’t get rid of me that easily!”

Ego isn’t all bad though.  It is a part of us that is involved in our consciousness. The etymology of ‘ego’ is “the self; that which feels, acts, or thinks,” from Latin ego “I”.  So your ego is, quite simply YOU.

Digging a little deeper: The “I” or self of any person (ego is Latin for “I”). In psychological terms, the ego is the part of the psyche that experiences the outside world and reacts to it, coming between the primitive drives of the id and the demands of the social environment, represented by the superego.

And so, back to Google to check out “superego”:  The superego is the ethical component of the personality and provides the moral standards by which the ego operates. The superego’s criticisms, prohibitions, and inhibitions form a person’s conscience, and its positive aspirations and ideals represent one’s idealized self-image, or “ego ideal.”

And I realise that there is a whole world of wonder regarding Ego.  It is not as simple as someone’s superiority, it is also not something that needs to be squashed right down and removed.  That would be squashing what makes you YOU!  The trick must be, as it is in many other aspects of life, in gaining a balance.  Of being able to yell “look what I experienced” without making other people feel as if they are lacking.

Or is their feeling of lack, something they need to look more deeply into on a personal level?

Sheesh……  This became complicated!