Tag: Meditation

Releasing the Old….

Those who travel the Spiritual realms say that “We need to release that which no longer serves”, although in our everyday human life we are more likely to say something like “out with the old, make room for the new” but how many of us actually take the time to understand what those words mean and to actually do something about it? 

I’ve often spoken of how we talk-the-talk but don’t understand the energy of the words we use; of how we have fallen into the habit of parroting phrases that sound good to us, but as with many of these so-called “New Age” phrases, we don’t often take the time to dig deep within ourselves to find out what it actually means, on an energetic level, to do those things. 

So, what is it that no longer serves? What does it mean?  I’ve seen and heard it being used by people when they really mean “Shut up about XYZ.  It’s done.  Get over it!”   And although that’s fairly extreme I also find that it can be used as an excuse similar to when you know that you need to clean the fridge but can’t be bothered just yet.  It’s a very wide-ranging term that is open to an almost infinite range of explanations.   

In the physical world for example, it’s likely to mean sorting out your wardrobe and getting rid of stuff that doesn’t fit any more or it could be the dancing Elvis doll you bought on a whim and is now cluttering up your bookshelf – or, yes, cleaning the fridge!  In your emotional world, it could mean leaving an abusive relationship or walking away from a virulent argument.  It could be leaving behind beliefs and memories that replay in your mind causing you to fall back into self-destructive energy.  And it is this last example that is most important to those of us who are working within the Spiritual realms, because these beliefs and memories have a tendency to cycle around and around simply because we haven’t dealt with them.  They are the very things that pull us down and cause it to be hard to maintain the highest energy frequency we can. 

I, like most other people, have things that have adversely affected me my whole life.  Those who have been following me for a while are probably aware that for most of my life I have stumbled from one drama to another and that over the past few years I have been actively working to deal with the energies of these dramas.  As I have worked through various things, I have come to realise that these are the very things that have gifted me with knowledge and wisdom, caring and the desire to be of assistance to the Collective.  I have been discovering that the dramas of my life are the very things that make me into the person I am becoming. 

Here’s an example.  I used to work in the corporate world.  A large company where I held a National Management position.  I left that world over 15 years ago, yet I still feel the anger, frustration and powerlessness of every Board meeting I attended – where the old-school-mates would leave a box of tissues at my place at the table because they knew that it was so very easy to wind me up until I burst into tears.  That they were tears of anger and frustration at being misunderstood in a predominantly male world, compounded by deep disappointment in self that I reacted that way, was no matter – the game was to make me cry.   

Even though I am no longer that person, and the anger and frustration is long gone, the memory remains.  The belief that I react this way to bullies was so ingrained that I didn’t actually think of it as a belief.  It was just me.  I didn’t even realise that the other people were being bullies.   I actually carried the energy of that memory with me over the years without even realising it, because it was such a part of ME that it had become something I rarely thought of – until I released that energy just the other day within a meditation session.  I had carried one perspective of that situation for all these years – that of the emotions I felt during those horribly embarrassing meetings.  In that meditation, I came to see another perspective where I could understand that although the actual hands-on work as that National Manager was right up my street, as a PTSD sufferer, I was ill-equipped for the aspects that involved confrontation.  The “what no longer served me” that I released was not only the memory pain of being bullied, embarrassed and emotional when pushed, but with it came the realisation that at that time in my life I was in a situation that was beyond me.  I forgave my overwhelming work colleagues and, most importantly, I forgave myself. 

A few weeks ago I, and the other Krones, logged off social media for a break from the energies – for “Spiritual Maintenance.” It was a much-needed time to reset beliefs – to release that which no longer serves and to confirm commitments to the work that we do.  I had a lot of difficulty in getting back to my groups and pages – the energies seemed stagnant.  It was time for a good close look at why.  My page, The Path to Ein Teri Y’h was about a long-held dream that seemed about to move from a dream into reality when covid reared its head and so many dreams fell into dust.  I had given that group a new name, tried to stir the energies back into some form of enthusiasm but it became so very obvious that this was one of those things that no longer served.  And so I released that Facebook group and it is being archived on 31st August, and by doing that I have given myself time.  Time to work on my blog, my podcast, the work of the International Koalition of Krones, my Helping You course and more.

When you release those old, long-held beliefs not only does it give you a feeling of dropping a heavy weight, it gives you room to move, to become creative.  To grow.  It gives you space, physically, emotionally and spiritually, to spread your wings, to learn how to fly in a new world.    

Gy’ Shé em
Flip the heaviness and Shine your Bling

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The International Koalition of Krones (IKoK) is an international group of Spiritually Awakened Wise Women whose goal is to assist the Collective in it’s continued Spiritual Awakening & Consciousness Expansion Journey during this time on Earth referred to as “The Great Awakening”

The Founder of the IKoK, Essence Ka tha’ras, is, amongst many other things, a Master Metatronic Numerologist. If you wish to explore her work, and the work of the IKoK, there are links below.

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What’s the Point?

I am one of the Krones of the International Koalition of Krones. This is a Transcript of my talk on the IKoK Chat on June 4th, 2021.

You can find more information on the IKoK at the bottom of this blog.

In the last chat I delved a little deeper into how we deal with our problems, and I talked about the need to take action steps.   Today, I’m going to delve a bit deeper again.  This issue, of needing to take action steps,  is a fundamental  building tool that we are not using correctly and that is, in many ways, holding us back from being able to come together in a way that can highlight the future that we want to see this Collective moving towards.

On the 5th of May, people all around the world started 108 Days of Sacred Meditation, and the aim of that meditation is to create the necessary Metamorphosis for the Collective Consciousness of Humanity and to bring into existence the energy of its Bliss.

Metamorphosis is the changing of one thing into something totally different.  Think of a caterpillar changing into a butterfly.  At the moment we, the Collective, we are the caterpillar and all we are thinking of is satisfying our needs.  What we, as individuals, want.

And what IS our Bliss?  What is it that we, the Collective Consciousness of Humanity are really seeking for the future of our species?  I know I have my ideas, as an individual, of what I want to future to look like, but I am only one tiny little thread of the Collective.  I can easily envisage how I want it to look for the next 10 years or so – after that it gets a bit tricky.  And when we stretch it out, like, 50 years…   Well, I pretty much expect to be pushing up daisies by then, so do I need to worry about that? 

Well.  Yes I do.  For several reasons. 


First:  How I act upon the choices I make today, will affect those who are living when I – in this human body, are not living any more.


Second:  And this is going to upset a lot of Starseed who think they are finished with this human life and are ‘going home’ when they exit this world.  Wrong.  The only thing that we are finished with is the work we first came here to do.  That’s where that strong feeling of finalising comes from.  It’s the Work that’s been completed.  The planet is now at a sufficiently high level that the Energy can support the Great Awakening that is happening.  We’ve done that job BUT we have more work to do.  You know that just by looking around you.  We are not at the end-game yet and we WILL be back.  Think about how you want the world to look when you do come back.  In 50 years.  A hundred years.  A thousand years!  If we make bad choices now, we don’t get to escape the consequences!


Third:  We are all ONE.  We have a habit of just saying those words without feeling right into what they mean; without understanding the depth and the emotion and the Energy.  We ARE all One.  We are fractal parts of each other and of Source.  What we do to each other we do to our Self.  If we don’t make the right choices, we will hurt other people, other beings – and that means we are hurting our own Self.  That’s a tricky one to get your head around, I know.  But it is Truth.

I’m going to take a little sidestep here.  We’ll get back to that lot at another time, but right now I want to stop and have a think about the choices that we ARE making right now.  Choices as individuals.  Choices pertaining to the stuff I’ve been talking about for the last couple of chats.  I’m going to step right into the physical side of our lives. 

A month or so ago my guides gave me a nudge to go check a French Philosopher called Rene Descartes.  I’m sure a lot of you have heard of him.  I’d heard the name, but knew nothing of him.  The thing that my guides were sending me to look at was that he is the chappie who is responsible for our current medical point of view.  He decided that he was going to prove the existence of God and along the way he worked out – erroneously in my mind – that the physical and the spiritual aspects of a human can actually survive independent of each other.  Hmmm… 

The upshot is that medicine started to view the human body as a mechanical system.  The soul / spirit / mind had nothing to do with the mechanics of the human body.  And over time we were taught that we cannot heal our own bodies, we need the equivalent of a car mechanic;  that we need the aid of doctors and drugs.  And you know what?  There are lots of instances where that is totally correct,  we do need our modern medical knowledge and expertise, but the problem is that we have come to a situation where when we are unwell, we visit a doctor and we ‘hand over’ our symptoms. We give the doctor a list – verbally, written, however – of all the things we are experiencing – our symptoms – and we look to the doctor to fix it.  We abdicate responsibility for our ill health.  We don’t recognise and acknowledge that the dis-ease could be something of OUR making – maybe our food choices or lack of exercise or allowing stress to get out of control. Whatever it is, we go to the doctors to get it all sorted out.

We get a diagnosis and usually a script for medication.  Again, nothing wrong with that when needed, but the problem is that we have generally abdicated responsibility for our Self.  And when we include our Spiritual Self – because we now know that the physical body and the spiritual body are not separate, we find again so many people who are unwell, who ask for Energy Healing, for prayers, and are expecting the results to be just like a doctor visit.  They ask for help and lots of people do send healing energy and prayers, and that is lovely – but what are the people receiving this energy doing on their end?  Are they taking action steps to fix the situation that has come about; or are they waiting for that energy to flow over and through them and fix all the problems without them having to do the hard yakka.

In the last chat I spoke of how I used the Energy that was shared with me when I was seriously ill.  I outlined the Action Steps I took.  I talked of how I took strength from the care of those people around me and I mentioned that none of that Energy was given in a way that is considered as Spiritual Healing Energy.  But Energy is simply energy, whatever it’s source.  It was the practical care of doctors, physios, chiropractors; the people I worked with; family; friends and strangers that I received.

I mentioned how I had a choice:  I could use that Energy to accept my illness, to accept that wheelchair.  I could have ignored and negated all the energy and assistance given to me and slumped into despondency and depression – and still ended up in that wheelchair.  I could have taken that energy and done nothing with it; expected it to fix my illness in the manner of a miracle – and then perhaps got angry, and despondent and depressed because it didn’t work.  But I chose differently and it was that choice that has lead me, directly, to being here talking with you.

I’m going to tell you another story.  When my first husband died, a lot of people helped me.  On the day of his funeral we heard of a group of thieves who were breaking in to the homes of the bereaved whilst they were at the funeral.  One of my sister in laws got on the phone to a friend and asked her to house sit whilst we were all out.  No problems – let me just get someone to collect my son from school.  I later heard that the person collecting the boy had to also change some appointments in order to help and that, of course, affected the people the appointments were with.  There was a domino effect of people helping people.  And those people two or three times removed, had no idea that they were, ultimately, helping with my safety and the protection of my home.  They didn’t know me at all.  People Helping People. 

I want you to now widen your horizon and think about the people who are sending that energy to those who request it.  They are everyday people with everyday problems just like you and I.  People Helping People.  People who are struggling themselves, and still helping other people.  Wouldn’t it be nice if that could circle around and that those people giving help, could also be helped.  Well they can.  And this is where you come in.

Photo by earlybird coffee on Unsplash

Action Steps.  I’m talking, of course, about action steps.  We have to take them.  Energy is just Energy.  Think about electricity  and your coffee maker.  The electricity is just sitting there until you take the action step and turn the machine on.  And that’s when magic happens.  And what we are going to do.  I want you to be the switch that allow the energy to flow.  Take the action steps right where you are in YOUR community.  Give some of your energy – not a spiritually energetic way but rather in a physical way – go volunteer your time and energy somewhere where it is needed.  Be someone who helps someone.  There are always organisations who cry out for volunteers.  My own town – there is a very dedicated and small group of people who are seen everywhere – because there is need for volunteers and not enough people who are willing to share their energy. 

And it’s not just helping people that needs to happen.  Animals need that help.  And so does our countryside.  Yesterday, I was cycling home along the path that runs next to the ocean.  Wedged in a low branch on one of the trees was two plastic bottles.  A human had placed them there.  A human that obviously couldn’t take the rubbish home them or put it in the rubbish bin that was about 20 paces away.  What they thought would happen is beyond me.  It blows my mind to think that humans are so lazy and dirty and uncaring.  Don’t be a human that causes damage or inflicts pain.  Be a human that looks after the place we live. 

People helping people.

Photo by OCG Saving The Ocean on Unsplash

People helping animals.
People helping our environment.
People helping…….

Physically, Practically, Purposefully.


This is the first step to healing our reality.

This is the 1/66 Dual Frequency I AM Keyword Phrase in action.  Let me refresh your memory:

I AM Physical Form Perfected.

I AM Somatic and Psychic Dis-ease, Experienced and Acknowledged.

I AM Healed.

Now, have a think about that, not as “me,” the individual, but as Me: One with our species, our planet.  Me: Gaia.

If we, as a Collective, as people, as a species, can’t undergo that metamorphoses, and take the action steps we need in order to change from a caterpillar to a butterfly, if we can’t make the leap into doing the physical work we need to do to make the change, well, what’s the point?  Why carry on?  We might as well just pack up our bags right now. 

OM AkarapariNAma Anandaham

The International Koalition of Krones (IKoK) is an international group of Spiritually Awakened Wise Women whose goal is to assist the Collective in it’s continued Spiritual Awakening & Consciousness Expansion Journey during this time on Earth referred to as “The Great Awakening”

The Founder of the IKoK, Essence Ka tha’ras, is, amongst many other things, a Master Metatronic Numerologist. If you wish to explore her work, and the work of the IKoK, there are links below.

There are also You Tube and Soundcloud links to the full IKoK Chat if you wish to know more about the work we do.

Please feel free to share this blog. I only ask that you share it in it’s entirety and not just snippets. You can also share the memes on the following page: Memes and Other Stuff

The Value of Community Action

I am one of the Krones of the International Koalition of Krones. This is a Transcript of my talk on the IKoK Chat on May, 21st, 2021.

You can find more information on the IKoK at the bottom of this blog.

Photo by Mike Erskine on Unsplash

In the last chat I spoke about the 1/66 Dual Frequency I AM Keyword phrase and its impact on me, personally.  I spoke of how I had to dig deep into the Energy and the Meaning of that Keyword phrase in order to fully understand how It could aid me.  I spoke of how I understood that this was work that I had to do.  How I knew it was work for me not only on a personal level, but for me as an individual aspect of the Collective and the work I do on behalf of the entire Collective Consciousness of Humanity and beyond. 

Last week I focused mainly on the work I needed to do for me as an individual.  Today, I am going to talk again about that work, but I’m also going to be speaking of how we can use this to aid, not just an individual, but the entire Collective.  I’m not talking just Humans, I’m talking about ALL Beings; I’m talking about how we can utilise the Energy of Healing, and how we can do this work of healing for all on this planet. 

In this life time, I’ve only been on my conscious spiritual journey for a little under 7 years – not long in the grand scheme of things so I don’t know how the Physical and the Spiritual came together – worked together – in those earlier times, but if I look back to that hippy era, there seems to have been a ‘togetherness’ that appears to be lacking right now.  What I do know and am very aware of is that in these recent years we have been highly focussed on the Spiritual aspect of our current growth and that’s fine, things cycle around.  Now it’s time to bring things back into balance and regain that knowledge that you really can’t separate the physical from the spiritual.

In the last chat I mentioned one of the health issues I have had to deal with for many years – chronic pain.  I spoke of my doctor’s recommendation that I use a wheelchair and my decision not to accept that future for myself.  I spoke of the choice I made, but I didn’t go into any depth regarding how I actioned that choice and I didn’t talk about the steps I took to ensure better physical health. 

“Actioned” the choice.   “Steps” I took.

I, like you, am an individual part of the Collective.  I’m one of the threads in the Tapestry of Life, just like you are.  What I do affects the Collective.  What YOU do also affects the Collective.  If, at that point in my life, when the doctors told me I needed to accept that wheelchair, if at that time, I had simply asked people to pray for me, to send energy – as so many people do when life is difficult –   if that was all I had relied on, I probably wouldn’t be alive today.  I personally know people who have died because they relied purely on that energy healing. 

I’m not saying it doesn’t help – one of my main skills is distance healing.  Science has proven through Quantum Entanglement that energy really does move in that way – from one point on the globe to another point on the globe, and that some people are proficient in actioning that. But you, as Starseed, Lightworker or whatever you want to call yourself, you can send all the Loving, Healing Energy you want, but it won’t help in the recipient’s physical world unless the action steps are also undertaken.  And if that doesn’t happen, if Action Steps are never taken…  Well, what’s the point?  We might as well pack up and give up on the human race.

So let’s delve a bit deeper about Action Steps, and we can use my experience as an example.  I was supported by many people – doctors, physios, chiropractors, family, friends….  And all that supportive energy could just as easily have been channelled into supporting me into accepting my limitations, accepting that wheelchair and the inevitable worsening of my condition.  That energy was being caringly given, and it was being gratefully received, but if I had sat there and waited for that Energy to do the work for me, nothing would have been achieved.

How I did use that supportive energy was to quit my job; to move to a place that is more energetically suited to me – next to the ocean.  And I started to learn to move again.   It was hard.  It was very hard.  It pushed me out of my comfort zone, every day – many times a day.  I started with getting out of my chair and walking across the room.  It took me four months to be able to walk to the lift, across the lobby, out of the door, across the road and onto the beach.  About 500 meters.  1/4 of a mile.  Then I would rest on the sand for a couple of hours and then start the long journey back.  It took me over two years to wean myself off all the drugs.  And all the time I was receiving caring, supportive Energy. 

If I hadn’t had people around me supporting me energetically, could I have found the strength I needed to take those action steps? If I was doing it on my own? Probably not.  That Energy, that wasn’t given in a Spiritual way, through meditation or distance healing or Reiki, it was simply people caring and helping.  And it was essential, but it would have been useless if I hadn’t used that support to take the action steps that I did. 

There’s a synergy at play.  It’s a synergy that we seem to be losing touch with.  Especially during this last year or so where we have been so isolated from each other.  That synergy is brought into play by the community supporting the action steps needed to bring about the desired result.  And that synergy is what we need to start to focus on in order to bring about Collective Healing. 

There are many Starseeds who ask why they are here.  What their role is.  What work are they here to do.  Here is the answer.

The Collective.  Individuals form the Collective.  Individuals form the Community you live and work within.  You are a member of your community; you are an aspect of the Collective.   Yes, these are just words and it doesn’t matter which word you prefer.  What it means is that you are a part of the energy source for your community and you are a part of the needed action steps  to bring that healing energy into the physical world.  How do we do that?  We do what we are here to do as Starseed – we help our community and not just Energetically.  We give service to our community. Physical service.  Our work is Community Service.

There are many ways that you can be involved in community service, but I tell you now – this is work that involves the very survival of your community and many of the individuals within it.  And I tell you this too – when the survival of a community is at risk, so too is the survival of the species.  This is grass-roots work.  Let me give you some examples.

I know a lady who has given her life to Community Service.  She’s an awesome person and one of the things she does is to organise the Meals on Wheels service within my community.  Without this work that she does, many elderly people would have no outside contact with the world, wouldn’t get a proper meal.  No-one would know if they fell over and broke their hip.  Her work provides a lifeline for these people.  She could sit under a tree and Spiritually send healing energy to the elderly of our town, and that would be good but that wouldn’t feed them or make sure that they are actually still alive, and well.  That synergy of the Energy given and the action steps taken is essential.

And it works both ways.  I work within Community Service.  All my work is voluntary.  Some of it I actually get paid for in a round-about way.  I’m technically unemployed, but at almost 66 years old, I’m not going to be able to get a paid job, so I do community service instead of competing with the younger ones for work.  Our Government supports this for our older community who are not yet old enough to retire, but are unlikely to be offered, or physically able to undertake full time work.  But, and it’s a big but, If I didn’t do this volunteer work, I wouldn’t get unemployment benefits.  Without that, I’d be without a home.  Or food.  I’d be destitute.  My giving of energy spiritually and physically – and my taking action steps within my community, is what ensures my personal survival. 

Again it’s about choice.  I can choose to sit under a tree, go into meditation and concentrate on sending Energy to help someone. And I do do that.  Then I can go home, make a coffee and feel good about myself.  But have I really helped that person?  Does sending all the love and healing energy in the world help the physical reality of that person?  I’d really like you to think about that question.  And then think about what you can do to change it.  What action steps do you need to take to bring about that synergy in your community.

So where do you start to bring that change into the world?  That change that we all desire so much.  You start right where you are. You take action steps within YOUR community.  A bit like ‘paying it forward.’  I’ll talk more on this in the next chat.   By you taking action steps within your community you are anchoring the 5 frequency not only into your community but also into the planet.  The 5 Frequency is a neutral charge – a grounding frequency.  It is about having the courage to step out beyond our comfort zone.  And that is what our work is all about – pushing the boundaries that say we have to do things in a certain way; it looks for positive change, looks for what else out there might be true, and teaches the right use of free will.

You cannot separate the physical from the spiritual. You need to tattoo that on your arm so you can’t forget it.  We are human.  And although our Spirit isn’t confined within our physical body, it is tied to it for this lifetime reality.  We cannot separate them and remain alive in this reality. 

Energy and Action – that is the synergy we need to make the changes and the choices we, as a Collective, need to make in order to heal and to move into a better future.

OM AkarapariNAma Anandaham

The International Koalition of Krones (IKoK) is an international group of Spiritually Awakened Wise Women whose goal is to assist the Collective in it’s continued Spiritual Awakening & Consciousness Expansion Journey during this time on Earth referred to as “The Great Awakening”

The Founder of the IKoK, Essence Ka tha’ras, is, amongst many other things, a Master Metatronic Numerologist. If you wish to explore her work, and the work of the IKoK, there are links below.

There are also You Tube and Soundcloud links to the full IKoK Chat if you wish to know more about the work we do.

Please feel free to share this blog. I only ask that you share it in it’s entirety and not just snippets. You can also share the memes on the following page: Memes and Other Stuff

Throat Re-balancing Meditation

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I know many people who have thyroid problems, usually hypothyroidism – including me.  I also have cysts on my thyroid that I am working to reduce.  As an Holistic Counsellor and Meditation Therapist, and with my life experience, I have an absolute belief in the power of the mind.  In meditation, in mind-over-matter, in vibration.

Today I have a gift for you.  Working with the beautiful Kiera Lea, we have built this relaxation meditation aimed specifically at those who have problems in the throat area.  This can be physically or emotionally or Spiritually.  Often those who have difficulty expressing themselves, who are afraid of public speaking or similar have a blockage in their Throat Chakra.  Running almost subliminally in the background of this track is the Solfeggio frequency of 741 Hz which is the frequency best used to aid this area.

Even if you don’t have a throat issues – it’s a lovely relaxing meditation. 

And it seems to be especially good at sending folk to sleep!

Enjoy….

Keira’s details are attached to the link if you want to talk with her about crafting audio for you.

Relaxing with the 5 Elements

A gentle relaxation / meditation for you connecting you to the beauty and strengths of each of the five elements – Water, Fire, Earth, Air, Spirit

It doesn’t matter if you are not into meditation – this will simply help you to unwind and relax. Just get yourself comfy, where you won’t be disturbed for about half and hour, headphones on – or off, it doesn’t matter, close your eyes and listen………

Who is Auri’An?

Yesterday I divorced my husband.  It was probably one of the most easy things I have ever done.  We are great friends, get on really well in almost every respect but, we both realised only a few months after we got married that we should have just stuck with friendship.

At the time I was deep into the archetype of Rescuer – or if you prefer the Jungian definition, The Caregiver.  I’m a strong Empath and at that time in my journey, having come through some pretty hard stuff myself, I wanted to fix everybody else’s problems.  My husband had some health issues that he was ignoring and I felt that he needed rescuing.  Looking back neither of us doubt that I saved his life on a couple of counts, but a big Ego (me) and a possible need to be saved (him) are not reasons to marry. 

We scraped by fairly well, mainly by living separate lives, for almost 16 years and I can’t see the friendship ever fully falling over, but when we filed for divorce, there was a possibility of another Mrs Thomson and the question of name and possible name changes came up in conversation. 

Things like this get my mind working deeply.  I start analysing self and digging into my history and my desires for the future, and I realised that I did not want to remain as Mrs. Thomson.  I also realised that both my previous names – my first marriage which ended in widowhood at an early age and my maiden name, felt very heavy.  There was much baggage attached to both names which I do not want to carry forward into this new stage of a life that is filled with potential.  A new name was needed. 

I meditated. 

I am a meditation therapist/teacher and meditation is my first port of call to resolve sticky problems.  At the very least my mind gets a time to calm down and get centred, but there are also times when my meditation goes deep.  Very deep.  I frequently travel within meditation and I also interact with Guides and other Beings.  This meditation brought forth the Big Guns – not just any Guide, but my Master Guide. 

For those of you who are sceptical of such things, it may be a good idea to skip the next paragraph, LOL, because this could be too far out there for some folk to accept – but here it is.  It’s my belief and in this case, that’s all that counts!

I went on a Journey.  I am Starseed from the Almaak constellation in the Andromeda Galaxy.  I have journeyed ‘home’ a few times and that is where I ended up in this meditation.  I have also interacted with a Being there named Layhangh.  On this trip Layhangh sent me on a Journey through several of my past lifetimes, but that’s not really relevant here.  What is relevant is that this Journey was to “learn who I am.”  I learned many things – including my name.  Auri’An.  If I wanted to make this my legal name in this lifetime, I’d also need a family name.  That turned out to be so easy!  Layhangh is a family member.  Lay is the family name. 

My new name – Auri’An Lay. 

OK sceptics – safe to read on…   LOL.

The divorce doesn’t become absolute for one month and one day, and I promised myself that I wouldn’t make any legal changes until that time had passed.  Changing your name in such a drastic way is not something to be undertaken lightly.  It is a major thing requiring major deliberations.  But whether I change it legally or not, it is the name I am using from now on. 

For me, this change of name represents a line in the sand. A physical representation of the leaving behind of all the drama, trauma and history of Sue Thomson and all her other names. A metamorphosis from the fear-driven person I was to the new story I am writing for myself.

Hi there…..   IN-Joy I greet you. 

I AM Auri’An.

Helping You – 5

Over the last 4 posts, we’ve had a good look at what happens in your body when you go into overwhelm.  You know that feeling, it’s when everything gets on top of you and you just want to burst into tears and hibernate somewhere until it all goes away.  Doesn’t matter if its work, kids, school, finances, partner issues, illness, chronic pain or a sabre toothed tiger popping up in the supermarket.  Your body reacts exactly the same – it hops into the Fight or Flight Response at warp speed plus.

If you want to know more about the Fight or Flight Response (FFR) follow the links below to my previous articles on this topic

Last issue we touched upon some of the ways we actually keep ourselves in that Fight or Flight Response (FFR) situation and in this issue I want to look at how that constant low-grade FFR affects your health.

Actually it’s easy.  Pretty much every thing you have a health issue with can be directed back to your lifestyle with a big emphasis on the amount of stress you deal with.

I know someone who has been in that Stress Response (FFR) pretty much all her life.  It has badly affected her health, and I am going to give you the short version of those problems – and the way she climbed out of that cycle.  I know this person very well indeed.  It’s me.  I tell you this not for sympathy, but rather to show you that you can be in the lowest place and still climb out if you are prepared to put in the work. 

I was emotionally abused as a child, but it was so insidious I didn’t even realise it was abuse until a few years ago.

I lived in a town on the Cold War strike list.  The threat of a nuclear bomb landing on my home town was very real.  We lived in the shadow of nuclear power stations; built nuclear submarines.  The IRA and Greenpeace activists were a constant worry. 

I was a classical ballet dancer – with all the demands and stresses of that profession.

In 1980 I found myself on the floor of a shopping mall in the UK in the middle of racial riots.  Noise, shrieks, glass windows crashing to the floor, youths trying to kill each other, missiles being thrown.  It took another 20 years before I was diagnosed with PTSD.  I had full-scale panic attacks almost every day as I pushed myself to live as close to a normal life as possible. 

I’m an Empath and the world news of that era – war, famine, torture were constant on the news – I couldn’t handle it and had a breakdown.

My husband was diagnosed with a terminal brain cancer.  I nursed him at home.  During this time there was also problems with money, threats to have our house taken off us and so much more.

I collapsed, paralysed for several hours on the bathroom floor.  I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia.  I had been an elite athlete; I trained with Olympic athletes and ranked in the top 5% fittest people on Earth.  Now I couldn’t walk across the room. 

Recently, there’s been really tough financial situations; another breakdown; relationship issues…..  the list is ongoing.

I say that I have lived my life in constant fear.  To a certain extent this is true, but there were also joys and love and laughter.

One day my doctor told me I needed to stop working and start using a wheelchair.  That is when I turned my life around.  A wheelchair was not for me.

This seems long winded, but believe me it is the short version! 

So what did I do to get myself out of this stressful, anxiety-laden life?  That first step is the hardest – I recognised that I needed to stop living in fear and do something about where I’d ended up.  I had to work it out myself as I had no help.  It’s absolutely not a quick fix. This work takes strength and determination.  And it starts with the breathing exercise I gave you in the very first post in this series!  But MAN it is worth the effort.

More next time – I’ve run out of space!

Did you miss the previous posts in this series? Here’s the links….

Helping You – 1

Helping You – 2

Helping You – 3

Helping You – 4



Helping You – 4

In the last edition I talked about the cascade of events that happens when the Sympathetic Nervous System kicks in with Fight or Flight Response – how it’s like stomping on the accelerator of your car.  I also mentioned how the Parasympathetic Nervous System cuts in to help calm everything down once the danger, or perceived danger, has passed.

What I want to talk about today is what happens when we keep getting triggered and the parasympathetic nervous system doesn’t get a chance to apply the brake!

Basically, the sh*^ hits the fan!  If, for whatever reason, we don’t realise that there really isn’t anything dangerous going on, something called the HPA Axis kicks in.  The Hypothalamus get back into the picture and notifies the Pituitary gland which lets the Adrenals know they need to release cortisol into our system.  That means we keep our foot on the gas pedal and our body stays ramped up for action.  And it pretty much stays that way until we can work out that the danger is passed.  When the all-clear happens, the adrenals stop producing cortisol and as that fades away we can relax again.

In modern day society, we are not likely to meet a sabre-toothed tiger.  Our FFR is far more likely to be the result of someone’s dodgy driving and even that can be fairly short term.  If FFR is something that happens every now and then and only lasts about 15 minutes – there’s no real problem, but we LIVE in FFR.  We rarely, if ever, allow that cortisol to fade away and fully relax.  Our FFR triggers are so commonplace that we accept them as a way of life – money worries, kids, spouse, the electricity bill, the boss getting on our case, being unemployed, menopause, empty nest, retiring, chronic pain.  The list is on-going.  I’m sure you can think up some more.  And, even more disturbing we voluntarily put ourselves in FFR through the things we watch on TV – movies, news – and the bun-fights we get into on social media.  Then, when you include the pressure we put on each other and ourselves to conform to a certain ideal….  Too tall / too short; too thin / too fat;  growing older, struggling with diets and disliking the view in the mirror.  We have been programmed to live in the FFR.  For sure, it’s a mild version but it is still scary in it’s implications for our health.

And that my friends is the next topic before we really look at what we can do about it.

Are you still breathing?  Three deep breaths remember ❤



Did you miss the previous posts in this series? Here’s the links….

Helping You – 1

Helping You – 2

Helping You – 3



Helping You – 3

NOTE: My local paper (for which these articles were first written) started off very small just a few months ago and is growing beautifully. Unfortunately that means that I no longer get a full page for my column! All is good though – a link will be provided to this blog so all my readers can carry on following…..
Downside though is that I have to flood this blog site will all the catch-up articles!!! Happy reading!

We’ve spoken about the Fight or Flight Response and briefly discussed how your body’s defence systems by-pass your brain, scooting into action before your logical brain has time to wake up and notice what is happening.  In this post I’d like to dig a bit deeper into how this works.

The Fight or Flight Response (FFR) has a very serious job to do.  It is our first line of defence when something potentially bad is happening or about to happen.  It puts our body into ‘high alert’ by flooding our system with adrenaline and a whole cocktail of other hormones and making sure that blood is diverted away from your gut and other non-essential parts such as your brain,  Yep – your body knows that your brain is useless if your head has been chomped by that sabre-toothed tiger.  In such dangerous conditions your legs are the most important parts of your body!  The problem, though, is that we no longer know how to switch that response off.

Think of a dog.  These guys are masters of dealing with FFR.  Pooch is lying in the sun, snoring, twitching feet, legs every which way and seemingly without a care in the world when something triggers him.  He shoots up, looking totally confused for about half-a-second and stands on high alert – tail fluffed up, hair sticking out so he looks bigger; maybe even barking.  And then he realises that it was just a dream, or that there’s no danger and with a very sheepish look he settles back down and two minutes later he’s snoring again.

What’s happened is that FFR response was triggered, but as soon as his mind caught up and worked out that all was safe in his world, his body reacted by relaxing.

The jargon stuff is that the Sympathetic Nervous System jumped into action letting the Amygdala know something was up.  The Amygdala notified the Command Centre (the Hypothalamus) which sends in the solders to wake up the Adrenals who flood the body with epinephrine (also known as adrenalin).  Epinephrine flooding your body is a bit like stamping down on the accelerator of your car – nought to sixty in no time!   In my mind, this is probably the most efficient system we have in our body!  There is a whole cascade of stuff that happens, almost instantaneously,  without us being in the least bit aware of it.  Then, when the cerebral cortex (the logical part of your brain) catches up and realises there isn’t really any danger, the Parasympathetic Nervous System kicks in and allows the body to settle back down to it’s normal state.

But what happens when the body doesn’t settle back down?  When we keep triggering the FFR?  This is what our modern society is constantly doing – and we will look at that in the next edition.

Did you miss the previous posts in this series? Here’s the links….

Helping You – 1

Helping You – 2

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