More about Ego

When we wonder what it is like to fly like a bird, and we have that weird thought of base jumping off a cliff or free-falling out of an airplane in order to find out what it feels like, what is it in our mind or soul that tells us that that action might just be not in our best interest? 

My way of understanding this is that the idea of ego and spirit-self are a bit like the cartoon angel and devil that stand on your shoulders, each offering different perspectives of whatever you are considering.

Ego, to me, is the equivalent of the cartoon devil-aspect although not evil at all.  In fact, ego is rather essential.  Ego is the aspect of Self that stops us doing things that can cause us harm.  That’s actually what its job is.  It is that aspect of Self that reminds us that we really do need to have a shower, get dressed and maybe eat breakfast if we are going to get through the day.  It’s the aspect of Self that reminds us that however late we are for work, running across the road in the middle of peak traffic is a totally crazy idea. The reason that I equate ego with the devil-aspect is because ego can get too big for its own boots! 

We are here, on this planet to experience what it is to be human, and ego is the very part of us that warns us that some experiences are really not worth the risk.  It’s an important job, and sometimes our ego can get too puffed up with the responsibility and then it has a tendency to overstep the mark!

The problem is, ego works with limited knowledge.  Its knowledge base is all about keeping your human body safe.  It’s a job that’s often not very exciting, and relying on common sense, really doesn’t use a whole lot of brain power.

The other aspect, the cartoon angel sitting on our other shoulder, represents our Spirit self, which is able to access a higher level of our mind’s abilities, and it does so at such a rapid pace, that the result is what we term ‘instinctual’.  In other words, we can instinctually Know something without obviously understanding how we know.  Information is accessed and processed too fast and too accurately for ego to understand and, not understanding of the processes, can lead to distrust and even fear.  Distrust and fear trigger the survival response and keeping our human body alive and in good working order is exactly what ego is about.

We are trained, right from our earliest years, to depend upon this limiting function.  We are taught to trust the things we can easily see or explain, but to distrust that which is different, unknown or unusual.  That training, in some situations, can be lifesaving.  In others, it can be the anchor that holds you back from achieving your potential.

As I dig into this, I am on the edge of seeing through the protective sphere of my ego and into the deeper self.  The deeper self, the Spirit Self and its intuitive leaps and Knowing, is what allows us to understand and grasp, that we are all – every single Being, every blade of grass, droplet of water or particle of dust – from the same source. 

And that thought can be too big for ego to comfortably comprehend.   

That is why we have to take conscious control.  It’s ego’s job to protect us from our more idiotic ideas, from what is fearful – and something that is too big to be able to explain is often something to be fearful of.  We have to take control of ego if we want to delve into that deeper understanding – if we want to strive for Enlightenment.

Ego tries to be all things; to stretch itself beyond what it is designed to do:  which is to protect the human self from exceeding what ego understands – and it tries to protect those around us that we perceive may also need help and protection, or knowledge.  It is ego that tells us that we are the one to be able to help: that we hold the knowledge and the skills – but do we?  Could our over-zealous ego be convincing us that we are the Master when really we are the student?

Is this the ‘devil’ or the ‘angel’ standing on your shoulder?  

“No, don’t jump off that cliff to see if you can fly.  You know you can’t so don’t be an idiot.” 

And is this the ‘angel’ or the ‘devil’ standing on your shoulder? 

“Of course you can fix that other person’s problem – it’s not going to cause you physical harm by trying and you do believe you have all the skills…..”    

And what about this? Could this be ego?

I read a great book, it changed my life and now I want to use that knowledge to help other people.

This is why an out of control ego can be dangerous, and this is how ego gets too big for its boots.   Interesting – hmm? 

It’s very muddied I know, but it seems at this point that balancing ego, acting consciously and understanding its role and its essential limitations, is the place we must be in order to deeply explore the spirit self and our connection to all there is. 

Thank you for taking the time to read my meanderings. It means a lot to me – especially if you could like and subscribe, and maybe even share.


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The Power of Manifestation

Several years ago, I heard about the power of manifestation… 

At the time I’d set up a pretty full-on gym in the garage.  I’m an ex-fitness fanatic and was working hard to recover after illness.  I’d hop on the treadmill and as I was walking, I’d think about the things that could make my life perfect. 

I never did fall for the bunkum of manifesting a new car, money in the bank, an over-seas holiday etc. – there are so many things wrong with that train of thought – but it did get me thinking about how I would like my life to look in the future.  I knew, even in those early days of my spiritual journey, that you can wish and pray and talk all you want, but if you are not prepared to put in the hard-yakka, nothing is going to materialise out of thin air.  I knew that if I wanted these things in my life, I had to do my fair share of the manifesting.  Source, God, Spirit (whatever name you prefer) was not going to just drop stuff into my lap because I really, really, really want it!

I ended up with a fairly short list, and I walked for hours on that treadmill as I spoke that list out loud.  It was like chanting.  The words timed to the rhythm of the steps I took.  I had to walk miles each session because I also felt the need to explain exactly why each point was important; how I, specifically, wanted each thing to look; why I didn’t want too much of each good thing – da da da…. 

Moving forward…. 

About a month or so ago, I realised that something was really weird.  I was in a very strange state of mind and it took me a while to work it out.  I am happy. 

I can honestly say that I can count on one hand the times I have felt this happy.  The birth of my daughter over 40 years ago.  The birth of my eldest grandchild 18 years ago.  Very, very few other times.  It took me a while to work out why, but almost all of those things I wanted in my life as I walked on that treadmill, are here.  The reality isn’t how I envisaged things to turn out, but they are the reality I now live in.  And it is good.

A good example:  At the time, many people told me that if I was going to ask for money in my manifestation hopes, ask for a lot.  Don’t be stingy.  Go for the Big Bucks!  Me?  That didn’t sit comfortably.  I just wanted enough so that I could pay my bills and have a little left over so I could save up for small luxuries.  What came about is that I am now an Aged Pensioner.  I have a regular income of about half of the breadline wage and which has very little room for fluff – but, my bills are paid, I share a wonderful house on the water (another of my desires) at (almost unbelievable in today’s world) a rent I can afford. 

I sought good health, as I walked that treadmill.  Good health is a very relative thing.  If I look at my point of view from 25 years ago when I was at the top of my game, I’m a wreak!  If I look at my health from the point of view of my doctor telling my that the periods of paralysis are going to get worse and I won’t ever be pain free so I should start to use a wheelchair, my current health is fantastic!  It’s just a matter of how you look at things in your life.

These things that have brought about a fulfillment in my life, and this strange and wonderful feeling of contentment and happiness, didn’t come about because of the chanting as I walked that treadmill, they came about because I put in the hard work.  They came about because I did my damn best to look for the bling in every dark corner – and I have been well-challenged in that arena – and not allowed myself to wallow (at least not for long) in despair.

One of the things I asked for was time to look after me, to do the things I want to do and not be at everyone’s beck and call.  I’m one of those people who has a very strong need to help others – and it’s caused me no end of problems because it’s often been at the expense of having time to look after me.    The isolation periods of the last couple of years has been a blessing in disguise for me as it highlighted a need to withdraw from the addiction of social media, to pull back from trying to set up classes and workshops aimed at helping others deal with their anxiety, fear etc.  It was time to STOP.  So I did.  And there it was – time to do the work on ME.

On this Spiritual path I have done the hard work that has brought me to this point in my growth.  I am currently in the midst of a shift where I can choose to step up and take that work further.  Where I can study, dig even deeper into the Energies of this beautiful world we call home.  Or I can sit back and feel good about where I have arrived.  A place of reasonable comfort with enough funds to pay my bills – and that feeling of happiness!

I understand the value of pushing things a bit further.  Dramas that many of us face can definitely push you out of your comfort zone during the early stages of this life-journey, and maybe, as I travel further, my comfort zone will be rocked a few more times.  Somehow, I don’t believe that the drama of my life up to now will continue at that intensity.  I am aware that as drama appears, I have a choice.  It is my reaction that causes the problems.  Hopefully I’ve learned enough that I can make the wise choices.

Do I believe in the power of manifestation?  You betcha I do.  But not at the level of ask / pray / focus hard enough and it will materialise like magic.  No.  You have to do the hard work.  The work on Self – physically, spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and the practical work of having a goal to aim for – and going after it.  You have to decide what is realistic and what isn’t.  It’s the adult version of the mother telling the child that ‘Just because you want it, it doesn’t mean you can have it!”

Working with the 1/66 Dual Frequency

I am one of the Krones of the International Koalition of Krones. This is a Transcript of my talk on the IKoK Chat on May, 7th 2021.

The International Koalition of Krones (IKoK) is an international group of Spiritually Awakened Wise Women whose goal is to assist the Collective in it’s continued Spiritual Awakening & Consciousness Expansion Journey during this time on Earth referred to as “The Great Awakening”

The Founder of the IKoK, Essence Ka tha’ras, is, amongst many other things, a Master Metatronic Numerologist. If you wish to explore her work, and the work of the IKoK, there are links at the end of this post. There are also You Tube and Soundcloud links to the full IKoK Chat if you wish to know more about the work we do.


A couple of weeks ago Essence retrieved, and shared with the Krones, the I AM Keyword Phrase for the 1/66 Dual frequency.

The 1/66 Dual is a phrase that struck an immediate chord with me, so much so that I had to ask Essence to repeat it simply so that I could soak it in.  That’s happened a couple of time before, where I have heard one of the I AM Keyword phrases and felt it resonate right through me, and I have over time, come to understand that when this happens it means that this is an area where I have work to do.  Work for me as an individual; work for me as an individual part of the Collective and work for the entire Collective Consciousness of Humanity – and beyond.

So I had to delve deeply into this frequency in order bring about for me, an understanding of what exactly this frequency means and how it can be of assistance.   I needed to work to bring that ephemeral understanding – that gut feeling – into the physical world because that’s where I live and where I work, and if I didn’t understand that depth, how can I understand it enough to use it to be of assistance in this physical reality?

I am a person who has, in many ways, fought with my physicality all my life.  I’m a dancer.  I was accepted into the Royal Ballet School in London – except, after two years of auditions and interviews, I was told that it didn’t matter how talented I was, I would never succeed because I wouldn’t grow tall enough.  They were right.  I’m barely 5ft tall and that has given me a lot of logistical problems like how to reach things on the top shelf at the supermarket!

I’ve fought with my physicality through my health too.  I’ve had times of severe illness where I’ve had to literally crawl my way back to a semblance of health.  I’ve had my arguments with my mental and emotional self too.    I’ve had two mental breakdowns, PTSD, grief.  Never forget, your mental and emotional health is an aspect of the physical Self.

And so, when I heard this I AM Keyword Phrase, and it resonated so deeply within me, I knew I had to work with this.  As Essence says, Everything is Energy, Frequency, Vibration – and that very much includes the words we use.  We talk to our bodies.  We tell them that they can get better, that they can improve, that they can stop being sick.  But we also invariably use words that don’t carry quite the right frequency and so we often get disheartened and very often fail in achieving the health we seek.  I know this.  I’ve worked really hard to get my health where it is, but I also know that I’m not where I want to be.  There is something missing.  Something I’m still not doing right. 

It’s a pet topic of mine – how the words we use, how the frequencies attached to the words we use, can actually be stopping us in achieving what we want to achieve.   The 1/66 Dual I AM Keyword Phrase, removes the frequency problems.  It tells each cell in our bodies exactly what it needs to hear.  I have lived with chronic pain for many years.  About 20 years ago I was told that I needed to use a wheelchair and get a full time carer to look after me.  I fought this and although my physical life is amazing in comparison to what was expected, I still live in almost constant pain. 

I have been using this I AM phrase on a daily basis, like a mantra, for the last week or so.  I’ve also been moving house – which means lifting heavy boxes and furniture.  My housemate is seriously ill and unable to help a whole lot, so most of the work has been mine.  I should be a physical wreak by now – but I have actually experienced several pain-free days.  It’s amazing, it’s almost unheard of.

Is this a ‘miracle cure?’ Do a bit of chanting and all is well?  Nope.  Not at all.  This I AM Keyword Phrase takes the guess-work out of using the correct frequency to aid you in improving the wellbeing of your physical body.  YOU still have to do the work.  You cannot and should not abdicate responsibility for your physical Self.  That responsibility is yours.

For me, in using this 1/66 Dual Frequency every day, several things became clear and I’d like to share these with you.  But first, let’s hear this phrase again and then we’ll break it down:

1/66 Dual. 

I AM Physical Form perfected.

I AM Somatic and Psychic Dis-ease Experienced and Acknowledged.

I AM Healed.


I AM Physical Form Perfected.
What is meant by that?  Does it mean that I have a perfect body?  That I look good in a way that society accepts as ‘perfect?’  Well, no.  I’m in my 60’s; I’m fat; I’m short; I have a heap of aches and pains that affect how I move and what I am capable of doing.  My body is far from what is considered ‘perfect.’

Yet…  I have a body that is a miracle.  A body, that despite all the stuff I’ve done to it, is still very functional.   It is a design that has developed over eons to become the perfect vehicle that transports me where I need to go, that allows me to achieve what I need to do. If I want to scratch my nose, I can scratch my nose without even thinking about it.  There are so many areas that function in perfect synchronicity, performing the dance that is Life.  It is a body that surrounds me, protects me, that holds safe the core of what makes me ME.  I AM Physical Form perfected.

I AM Somatic and Psychic Dis-ease Experienced and Acknowledged.
Let’s look at this.

Somatic – to do with the physical body, with skin and joints and tissues;
Psychic – having to do with the mind and the Spirit rather than the body.
Both body and mind are able to function at less than optimal.  They are subject to disease and illness.

There is a belief that this Reality is a school.  A place where Beings: Souls, Starseeds, Lightworkers – whatever you wish to call yourself, come in order to experience and learn.  In this belief, many of us, indeed most of us will take on the experience of the body and the mind not working at its optimum, of being dis-eased.  In this belief, we have agreed to experience these things, before we even came into this current lifetime reality. 

I AM Somatic and Psychic Dis-ease Experienced and Acknowledged.  Here we make a statement that we have experienced the physical and mental abilities of our human body not working at optimal.   We are confirming that we have completed the lesson and that we acknowledge the completion.

The lesson is no longer needed.  It is completed, therefore I AM Healed.
 

Now.  I could stop there.  I AM Healed.  There is a finality about that statement, isn’t there – I AM Healed. There’s no going back once you have made a statement like that.  It IS an acknowledgement on all levels.  I AM Healed.  They are powerful words.  Those words put your dis-ease and illness in the past.

What I am not saying though, is “I am healed but, why do I still hurt?”   Or “I am healed – but I’m still overwhelmed by the problems in my life.”    There is no separating the physical from the spiritual  and we’ve just come to understand the Energetic – the Spiritual – meaning of this I AM Keyword Phrase for the 1/66 Dual Frequency, but the problem we have is that we are human. 

Our physical body is human and yes, we have just acknowledge how amazing a human body can be, but we seem to have wandered into a time where we’ve forgotten that our physicality and our spirituality are not separate things.  They are like pylons driven into opposite banks over a river holding up the bridge.  But the bridge is very wobbly and we have to do the work to connect those pylons.  To strengthen that bridge. 

Within most religions there are stories of how the Master says to the cripple “You can walk” and the cripple stands up, wobbles a bit, takes a few steps and lo!  A miracle. 

If I were to say to you,  “You are healed – you can walk.”  You’d be more likely to answer “Yeah.  Right.”  Some would say that is because the age of miracles is past.  Or maybe it’s because human limitation says that speaking words – however powerful – doesn’t fix the problem.  The science doesn’t pan out.  What needs to happen is that we have to take action steps. 

Let me give you an example.  I mentioned earlier that I’ve had some pretty big run-ins with my physical and mental health.  I’m going to tell you a story about one of those things.  23 years ago I was nursing my husband at home.  He had terminal brain cancer and I got up in the middle of the night to check on him and decided to make a bathroom trip.  As I stepped into the bathroom, suddenly all feeling from my lower body went, just like that.  I collapsed on the bathroom floor, paralysed.  I was there for hours until gradually the feeling came back and I was able to pull myself out of that room.

The next two years saw the difficulties of being widowed compounded by hospital visits, medical tests, drugs: painkillers, anti-inflammatories.  And they had side effects for which I was given more drugs.  I still had periods of paralysis.  I could be walking through the office, and the next minute I’d be on the floor.  The pain I lived with was horrendous. 

And nobody could work out what the problem was, and it was very definitely not getting better.  One day my doctor told me that it wouldn’t be long until I couldn’t walk at all and it was time to consider finding a full-time carer to look after me and to start using a wheelchair.

I had a choice.  I could take that route, but instead I took the most important action step in my life and I said,  “No.  That picture you paint isn’t me.”    Every Master, Teacher, Saint, Angel could have said to me, those words, of the 1/66 Dual.  They could have said “You are Healed” until they were blue in the face, and I would have answered “Yeah.  Right.”   Because I knew that the only person in the world who could say those words to me, was me.  I AM Healed. 

Did that mean I was physically healed.  No.  Because my body is human.  It needed time.  It was Energetically healed because I made the choice, the commitment, to be Healed.  Because I knew the action steps I needed to take, but it took time for my body to recover from the damage. 

Many of us will reach a point where we need to make a choice in which direction to go.  We could make the comfortable choice, the one where we know what happens on a day to day basis; where things might get a bit rocky every now and then, but we where we feel safe because we are in a situation we understand and know.  It’s familiar.  It’s our Comfort Zone. And even extreme pain can be comfortable.

Or we can choose to take action steps to change the things we know need changing in order to effect that healing.

That time of choice for the individual arrives every time you have a situation where you know that something is not right.  That choice could be something huge like choosing to stay or to leave an abusive situation, or it could be that you need to look to your physical health because your comfort zone isn’t going to give you a long and happy life.

That choice I made that day, to not accept that wheelchair, was a major pivot point in my life.  I’ll tell you a little more in the next chat, but it was that decision, and the knowledge that I had only to do the needed work, that pointed me in the direction that has brought me here today.

It was that choice, together with almost 20 years of taking action steps, of constantly pushing myself outside of my comfort zone, that has allowed me to be in a situation where I can indirectly give back to those all those who have aided me.  And I do that through service to the community I live in, to the individuals, who make up the CCoH, to the CCoH as a whole – and to me.  I, and only I, can Heal myself – I cannot abdicate responsibility to others.  I must be involved in my own healing.  I could be guided, but I, the ME who fills this physical body, I had to do the work that was needed. 

I knew, deep within that if I tried to only heal my physical body without commitment, belief  and action I couldn’t heal.  I knew that if I relied solely on someone else doing the healing for me – in my case, doctors prescribing drugs –  and didn’t get off my butt and push my body into taking those action steps, I couldn’t heal. 

You can’t separate the physical from the spiritual.  Doctors, alternative healing like Reiki or other energy work – even chanting the 1/66 Dual Keyword phrase, won’t do it – won’t bring about a healing – if you don’t step out of that comfort zone and take the steps you need to do, to heal yourself.  Healing is not a passive activity.

And when you understand that, then you can say those powerful words with the deeper understanding that is needed.  I AM Healed.

OM AkarapariNAma Anandaham
Krone Auri’An

Links:

Facebook: International Koalition of Krones: https://www.facebook.com/IKoK2266
Facebook: The Path to Ein Teri Y’h: https://www.facebook.com/groups/EinTeriYh
You Tube Chat May 7th 2021: https://youtu.be/XHYdQcW9XRo
Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/essence-ka-tharas/ikok-chat-may-7-2021-expanding-your-comfort-zone-from-the-inside-out
Web: http://www.shambahallanewearth.com/

Drama and Ego

I’m no expert, but it seems to me that in times of war you have to stop and review what’s been going on, what you believe will happen, what you want to see happen and what is likely to actually happen.  This is what I have been doing over the last few weeks.

I’m not a regular writer in this blog.  I have a tendency to do my other stuff until something happens and I just have to write about it – and if that need to write gets as far as actually publishing, well that is just awesome!  I had intended to become a tad more disciplined this year – at least I had until the Universe stepped in with other plans.

So far it’s been a year of drama.  And really?  I’ve had quite enough drama in my life to be quite happily bored for a time.  We know that there is massive amounts of drama in the world but I’m talking personal drama on top of all that Covid crap. It’s been full on and has felt like a major war with massive salvos being shot across my equanimity. 

It should have been no surprise.  I’d had plenty of warning from my Spiritual Sister and Teacher, Essence Ka tha’ras.  I knew that the Collective Consciousness of Humanity was heading towards a Collective Dark Night of the Soul and that it won’t peak at its worst point until September 2022.  I also know (because I work closely with her and have seen her predictions come into reality so many times that any doubt just doesn’t exist) that this is only the first stage of that DNOTS and that things are likely to get a whole lot rockier.

So what on Earth made me think that I would escape?  Was it because I have just come out of my own DNOTS?  It took me over 5 years to pull that one off, so I have all the experience in the world about working and living in that place.  I definitely thought I could use that to help others as they fall into their own personal dark place.  Could I possibly have thought that I was immune because during my DNOTS I also studied and gained my skills and qualifications as an Holistic Counsellor? 

Who knows?  What I do know is that in thinking I could avoid this I had donned my own face mask – right over my eyes.  I recognised this. This was the work of Ego. 

Ego is super-sneaky.  Ego leads you to believe that you are helping to sort out the problems of Self and/or the world.  Ego makes you think you are bullet-proof and, believe me, that doesn’t help one little bit when trying to survive in our current society. 

It’s not really surprising that Ego has shown up for me as a micro aspect of the macro (the Collective Consciousness of Humanity).  Ego is currently having a field-day with our world leaders.  And not just the leaders of our society.  You only have to turn on the TV to see it glowing in the faces of many people as they scream and yell and destroy all the while thinking that this violence is going to change things for the better.  Idiots.

What they are doing is giving Ego a bigger platform in their lives.  They are making it all about Me Me Me whilst believing that it is about Us Us Us.  And the arena that it is most easily seen is in that of what is rapidly becoming one of the worlds fastest growing religions – yes a religion, complete with warped dogma – the so-called New Age Belief System.  But I digress.  I’ll talk about that one on another blog.

So.  In my personal war I have spent time reviewing.  I have spent time looking into the darkest aspects of me and my ego.  I have been doing Shadow Work.  We, the IKoK – International Koalition of Krones – have been saying for a while that the Collective will have to do this Shadow Work.  That if they don’t they will be forced into it by circumstance.  I learn by experience and I am having my personal experience of being made to look deeply through all the drama in my life in a way I just can’t avoid.

And all I can say right now is that if the entire Collective Consciousness of Humanity has to do the same, has to dig as deep as I have, has to face its fears and its demons, it’s going to be messy.  But I also want to hold up a ray of light.  Only a few days ago I believed I was falling deeply into that dark well of despair that I know so well having lived in it for many years, but I am still here.  Occasionally teetering on the edge for sure but all that experience and study and training has held me in good stead.  I recognised what was happening and I chose to survive.  I chose to survive because I believe, so very strongly, that I can help.  Even if it is only with one person.  I can help that one person make a difference in their life.

And that isn’t ego.  It’s Krone Wisdom.  The wisdom that is grown out of knowledge and experience and shared with all who seek it and respect it.

Gy’ Shé em

I AM Krone

Krone Auri’An

What’s in a Name?

Photo: Junior Usuanlele Oshodi – Unsplash

Once again I am seeing posts that relate to people’s fears about labels.  Mainly about being labelled themselves.  It’s something that we cycle through every now and then and maybe it’s something you have an opinion about, maybe you strongly dislike being labelled as something or other or maybe you really don’t care.

Regardless of your current thoughts on people being labelled, here’s a few things to think about.  Want to share your thoughts and beliefs?  Comment below.

Can you describe yourself in a way that is easily understood by another person, without using any labels?

Bet you can’t.  You can’t mention that you are tall, or short; the colour of your skin or hair; whether you are male or female. You can’t give your name or what job you do; what hobbies you enjoy…… 

In our current society, labels can open doors that would otherwise be shut.

It may be that you have an illness, an injury or a condition that can benefit from treatment.  You need a diagnosis before treatment can begin.  It doesn’t really matter whether that is cancer, Asperger’s, a broken arm or hayfever.  The label opens up avenues for treatment.  Of course you don’t have to accept the diagnosis – or the treatment, but you certainly can benefit from having the label as a jumping-off point.

People say they don’t like labels because once given they stick with you and are limiting.

Have you ever got to the bottom of a jar of coffee and thought I can re-purpose that jar.  So you give it a good wash out, peal off the label and fill it with some other food?  Then you re-label that jar to show it’s now filled with rice.
Why can’t you do that with humans?  Just because you have a label, doesn’t mean it is true all your life.  It is the thought that you can’t change a label that is the limiting factor.

And what about the name you are given when you are born.  That is the biggest label you’ll ever get.  And yes, you can change that!!

Gy’ Shé em

Auri’An

International Koalition of Krones

Love, Light and Other Fluff

I’m sure you’ve worked it out by now that the way in which humans communicate with each other is something that I’m pretty intrigued with.  I wouldn’t go so far as to say that I am passionate about it, and I’m certainly no expert in language use, but I have been writing and talking about the Energy of words and the way that we communicate by using them, for years – specifically about how those who consider themselves to be Spiritual: Lightworkers, Starseeds, or whatever other name you prefer – and about how they communicate and interact with each other. 

I’ve spoken many times about the Energy held within everyday words and how when those words are not spoken in the highest sense, how that Energy can personally affect YOU, how the words that you use can pull you down; how they can limit your potential to excel.  To grow.  And this effect is not just in the spiritual realms – it also affects everyday life. 

I spoke on this topic again in the International Koalition of Krones Zoom Chat on 13th November 2020, but that time it was about how our word choices, and the syntax and cadence that we use, can actually cause Energetic Harm to others – and that harm can even happen unintentionally because we are careless and we speak without consideration of the meaning and the effects of certain words.

Humans are poised to evolve.

It’s not the first time we’ve changed and grown, and it probably won’t be the last time.  But this time?  This time we get the opportunity to consciously choose which direction, which timeline, we will travel.  We get to choose what we want it to look like.  And that choice happens through the Energy held by the majority of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity.

There is so much opportunity right now, at this point in linear time, at this crux-point we are currently in.  So much opportunity to make the right choice.  We know this.  In our physical world it is so obvious.  We are at a place in our reality where humans are able to make a choice about the future of humanity; a choice about which path we are going to choose – and that choice will eventually affect the future of all Beings on this planet, not just humans, but every Being on Earth.  And because we are choosing OUR future, and because humanity WILL go Galactic in that future, our choices now will affect so much that lies way beyond this place we call home.  The choices we are making right now, both individually and collectively, are so important because they will affect everything for the next 13,000 years. 

And the only way that we can work out what those choices should look like is to communicate with each other.  And to be quite honest, I think we are doing a pretty rotten job.  Those who promote the fear and anger that has been sweeping this planet for so many years and which has become extreme in the last few months – they are talking the loudest.  Their words don’t always make sense, but they say it loudly and with conviction.  And humans have a history of listening to those who talk the loudest, regardless of whether what they are saying is Truth or not.

Communication is the first stage of the Conscious Evolution of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity. 

Starseed and Lightworkers are here at this point in linear time to maintain the Energy, to hold space so that humanity can grow and work things out in the way that they most desire as a Collective.  Everyone on this path should be really aware of the words they use and how they use them.  We are responsible for consciously leading the way into clear communication. We hold the Energy and we absolutely must do everything we can to hold it at the highest frequency we can. 

And that leads me into something I want to talk about – about how we, the Spiritual Community, especially in the Western world, have taken Sacred words and Blessings, often from other cultures, and made them into everyday phrases. 

I want to talk about how we, the Spiritual Community, use words of great Power in exactly the same way as we yell “Bye, see ya later.”  I want to discuss how we finish an email, not with ‘Best wishes,” or ‘Yours faithfully,’ but with a Sacred Blessing.  And there is nothing wrong with that, nothing wrong with that at all provided that Blessing is given consciously and with knowledge.

We, especially those of us within a Western society have appropriated Sacred Words from other cultures and we’ve bastardised them.  When we are writing a salutation at the end of a letter or a post, most of us wouldn’t dream of using the words “ By the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ and the love of God…” So why do we use “Namaste”?

I’m guilty.  I’m guilty of using such words without, each time, considering the deeper meaning of the words I’m using.

So let’s think about the meaning of that word – Namaste.  I Bow to You.  On the surface it seems like a pretty good salutation and nowadays, it’s mainly that way, but let’s dig a bit deeper.  I Bow to You.  It means that you hold deep respect for the other person.  That you know them, that you honour them and that you also understand, because we are all One, that in honouring and respecting them you too are being honoured and respected.  How often, when you use that word, do you take time to think of the acknowledgement you are making in understanding one of the deeper Truths of the Universe?

Then again, the Oxford English Dictionary simply says that it means “Hello.”

Food for thought.

Another Sacred phrase that we use incorrectly, also stolen from another culture – in this case the Mayan – is “In Lak’ech ala kin”   Now I do know a number of people who do use this phrase in full awareness of the deeper meaning of the words, and I don’t see it over used in the same way as Namaste has been.  And that is a good thing. In Lak’ech literally means “I am another you.” Like Namaste this phrase is talking of the deeper Truths of the Universe – I don’t exist without you and you don’t exist without me.  If you were not here, I wouldn’t be here either – and thinking about that can take you on a very long, and interesting journey seeking that deeper knowledge.

When I was first starting out on my Spiritual journey, when I first heard of that phrase and it’s meaning, I thought it was really cool and I used it all over.  Until I started to delve into that deeper meaning and realised my casual use was both disrespectful to the culture and to the deeper truth of the words.

And that brings me to the final phrase I want to discuss today.  A phrase that is so mis-used and over-used that just to hear it makes my toes curl!  It no longer carries the Energy it should.  That it once did.

But first, before I tell you what this phrase is, I’ll tell you what it means to me.  My interpretation.

I am the Light of Creation. 

I am the light first seen at the beginning of the linear time of our reality. 

I draw that light into my Being so that I can be a beacon to guide and aid those who struggle in darkness.

I humbly bring that Light into the Service of All.  

I am merely a conduit. 

A conduit in Service to the Energy and Knowledge of the Universe. 

I Bless you with the frequencies of Creation and Wisdom and Love. 

When I say this, my interpretation of this phrase, I feel the Energy.  I feel it building in my hands and my heart, in all my Chakras.  I feel the Energy of being in Service, I feel humbled and I feel the commitment I have made to this Journey, to the Collective.  And when all that Energy, all that is bundled, mainly without thought, into  “Love and Light” delivered in an off-hand, throw-away manner, is it any wonder that I cringe?

Now, don’t misunderstand me – I’m not in anyway saying that there is anything wrong in using those phrases.  There is nothing wrong with using Namaste, In Lak’ech, Love and Light, Gy’ Shé em, KaRa Ounz Chez Prana, OM AkArapariNAma Anadaham and more.  But please, feel the power of the words.  Understand the depth of the words.  Feel the Blessing within the words.  And then use them in Honour of the Knowledge and the Wisdom and the Power of these phrases.

We who are Starseed, Lightworkers or whatever other term you prefer, we are the ones who should be leading the way for the Conscious Evolution of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity.  And the first step is to become aware of the power that we hold in the words that we use.  And we should use them wisely.  Yes, we all stumble and make mistakes, we speak through a human filter but we have also become complacent. We are de-sensitised.  We are losing the deeper Truths, the deeper knowledge and wisdom in favour of fluff.

Gy Shé em

Auri’An

International Koalition of Krones

This blog post is an extract from the Zoom Chat held by the International Koalition of Krones on 13th November 2020. You can access the recording here.

Truly Committed?

Photo: Christian Bueher. Unsplash

I feel like I’m stepping out on a slightly different path.  One filled with Possibilities and Probabilities and The Unknown in a whopping huge barrel-load of OMG-What-Have-I-Let-Myself-Into now!

I know what my Sacred Contractual Work is for this lifetime (and beyond) and I also know that I am at the very beginning of that work.  Knowing what your Sacred Contractual Work is, doesn’t mean that you are going to step right into it.  It doesn’t mean that you are actually even going to fully know, or understand, what it will entail.

I’m currently riding through a sort of settling-in period and I have been for a few years.  It’s a time of getting a better handle on what it’s all about.  A learning more about me, where I’ve come from; the choices that I’ve made that have lead me here.  It’s about understanding the world around me from a different perspective,  thinking about the world I would like to inhabit and the knowledge I will need to build that world; to live there and above all how do this work. However it develops. Whenever it develops.  If it develops.  Because I also know that although it may happen in this lifetime – it may just as easily not.  I’m planting seeds.  I’m Trusting that it WILL all work out as it’s meant to.  Even though there is no guarantee.

I’ve spoken before about my Sacred Contractual Work and how, within the Dragon’s Gate in 2016, I was so upset because I’d been so sure that I was ‘going home’ and discovered that I wasn’t.  At that time, even though I was very upset, I made a commitment.  In many ways this was like signing a legal Contract and even though I didn’t actually realise that for a couple of years because I was too wrapped up in being upset about not going home – my Higher Self recognised that this was the right path for me to follow. 

By that time I’d already made two major commitments.  When I talk about MAJOR commitments, I’m talking about making a commitment way beyond what is asked of most people.  We all make commitments – to our partner, to family, to work etc. and those commitments can last all your current life and be very important – or not.  These commitments can come to an end or even be broken.  But my path is asking that I make a deeper, more intense commitment to my work. 

The first was the one that totally changed my life when had what I call my Initial Awakening Experience where I’d spent 3 ½ hours in the middle of the night, sitting in the rain, in the mud, in the middle of a field, literally experiencing that absolute feeling that we all strive for – that feeling of being ONE.  Being Gaia.  Being the AUM of the Universe.  Being the trees, the grass and the wind.  And feeling the pain carried by all on this planet – especially the pain of our Mother, Gaia.  I emerged from that experience with my life forever changed.  I had made a Major Commitment to work to reduce that pain. 

A little less than a year later Essence put out a post asking if anyone recognised themselves as First Wave Blue Ray Indigo.  She was talking about me.  She was talking TO me.  Yes, many people felt that call, but I Knew it was spoken directly to ME.  It was a life-line and a few months later I became one of the admins of that Face Book group and I started my journey with Essence as my teacher.

 As I gradually began to learn and to find my path, I found myself making another Major Commitment.  One to the Work that Essence is here to do.  My belief in that Work is absolute.  My Commitment to aiding with that Work wherever I am able is not something I would ever even consider putting to one side.  Yes, we may at some point travel in different directions, but I believe in the work that Essence is here to do – and believe me there have been many times when I’ve questioned the stuff she comes out with and thought that Essence has really lost it – only to have something come along that proves without a shadow of doubt that this is work is real.

And so, in this lifetime so far, I have made three major commitments.  I have committed to following a spiritual path; to aiding Essence in her Sacred Work and in following my own Sacred Work.  And none of these commitments are mutually exclusive. The commitments were all made at different times, were not always recognised as commitments but they weave together in a way that I only truly started to see and understand in the last 6 months or so.  These commitments are connected, they are an integral part of the tapestry of my reality.  You’ll see the weavings – they are right there if you look.  My work contains threads from Essences work.  I have little doubt that some of my threads are woven into Essences tapestry.  And the same with Ko Ba Ja’s.  These interweavings are what forms the Group Collective Conscious Mind that we Krones work within.

Not everyone will be called upon to make such major commitments.  Very few I suspect.  Such deeper work is not something that everyone, as an individual, is meant to do. And that is fine.  Exactly as it should be.  Perfect.  But we – the Collective Consciousness of Humanity – ARE being asked to explore and understand our Commitment.  And that means that you, as an individual thread forming part of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity, needs to decide on your level of Commitment. 

And why do we need to decide right now?  Just look around you.  Almost everything that you see that is painful and wrong is the result of the Energy of the 17/8 ATKI rising up to be released.  Governments and corporations around the world, making decisions that further their personal agendas rather than for the good of the Collective Consciousness of this planet.  Of Earth herself. Not just humans.  This is the Energy of the 17/8 ATKI.  We’ve talked about this for a few years and now we are getting to see it in action. 

For years we’ve gone with the Love and Light, we’ve sat on our energetic butts and followed what we are being told whether that’s from our law-makers, our teachers or the billboards on the side of bus!  We don’t think of ourselves as sheeple, but we, as a Collective, don’t think FOR ourselves either.  Together.  As a Collective.  We haven’t made that commitment to change anything at a fundamental level.  We’ve blindly accepted that we live in a male-dominated society – even as we tell ourselves that the Divine Feminine is rising.  It’s what we know.  It’s been that way for the last 6,000 years.  We are programmed, genetically imprinted.  And it needs to change.

Now – I’m NOT asking that you go out and join in with the protests that are happening all over this world.  Unless that’s where you are drawn.  I’m NOT asking that you become militant in the need to change things – to my mind, that is a very masculine, traditional way of doing it and is, long term, not likely to succeed in any major way.  Peace has never been the result or aim of violence.   Remember – everything is Energy.  Frequency.  You cannot create a frequency of peace from a frequency of war. And I’m not asking that you put yourself on the front line unless that is where you feel your purpose is. 

What I AM asking, is for you to think about your commitment – to whatever.  Are you really committed to building a better place for our children’s children – as I spoke of in a previous chat – to the 7th generation and beyond.  Or are you happier, more comfortable, just watching everything unfold and maybe discussing stuff with friends or posting on Face Book?

There is no judgement here.  This is Personal, Individual work that we are all being called upon to do in order for the Collective to start to really know its Self.  We need to look at Self with honesty and open-mindedness and not to judge yourself or anyone else if you discover that you don’t hold any major commitments.  To be quite honest, most people won’t.

You are a single thread that forms the tapestry of all humans on this planet and your thread is important.  If you look at any tapestry, you’ll find that there are threads in there that form the big picture – the background, there are threads that form the detail – the 5 dancers. There is no one thread in there that is more important than another.  In weaving, they are the weft.

Now think about the warp of the tapestry.  These are the threads that run up and down the fabric and form the basis that the other threads, the weft, weave through.  On a tightly woven tapestry, you don’t see those warp threads at all – not even if you look at the back of the work – but they are the threads that anchor the whole thing together.  Without these the picture could not be formed.  These are the threads representative of the silent majority.  These are the threads that hold the whole thing together and creates our reality.  These represent those who work within the Power of Silence.  Those many, many people who simply get on with their daily life being the best person they can be.  Silence is a powerful tool.  Potentially the most powerful tool. 

We all have our place and our job.  I am asking that you work out what your part is in this tapestry at this point in linear time.  Are you one of those oh so essential silent majority?  Could you be one of the visible support workers – one of those threads that form the solid background?  Or are you one of those shining, bright threads that jumps out and says “I have information.  I hold knowledge that can bring your reality to a bright place.”

I AM asking that you sit down quietly, jot things down on a notepad, meditate, talk with your Guides and Higher Self – whatever way feels right, and work out what you are most committed to.  It may be that you are most committed to your family.  I suspect that will be right at the top of most people’s commitments.  It may be your work or your health or pretty much anything, but whatever you feel the strongest commitment to, I’d like you to then take the next step.  Ask yourself how important is that commitment to you.  Don’t just think “Oh It’s very important”  I want you to think deeper than that.  I want you to think about how far you will go to protect those you are committed to.  How much work are you willing to do and what kind of work.   How far are you willing to hold that commitment?  Will you do the work you need to do to protect your unborn descendants? 

Once you have worked out your level of Commitment, then you can look at the HOW you can move forward.  What form will that work take to uphold that commitment.  This, my friends, I can’t help you with.  It’s something only YOU can know.  The ‘how’ of it.  This is the bit that is often Spirit guided.  You just need to recognise the guidance and choose to take up the work.

And whatever that commitment level, whatever way you choose to work with that commitment you have the opportunity to be doing your part towards making this reality into a place of peace and beauty.  Think about how your work helps others – maybe, like that warp thread, in a way that is unseen.  For example a school teacher allows a parent to go out to work and earn money that will help the family live in a better way.  A garbage collector is a valuable and active part of maintaining the health of the community.

I made my initial commitment to work towards reducing the pain that is felt on this planet.  I’m not an up-front warrior, my best tools are my mind and my skills with words.  Essence became my teacher to guide me in the deeper knowledge and understanding I need.  She helps me to understand why it’s sometimes necessary to move in what appears to be the wrong direction.  Why sometimes you feel as if you are stagnating.  My commitment to Essence and her work is a part of that initial commitment of mine.  By learning and understanding I can best do the work of helping to reduce the pain of this planet.  And my commitment to my Sacred Contractual Work? – well, that’s just another step in the process. 

Making a major commitment is not something to be undertaken lightly.  It’s not something you can pull on and off like a pair of socks.  It sometimes involves losing friends, family, parts of yourself that you’ve been carrying for eons.  Sometimes (often) it can mean getting out of bed in the middle of the night because you are being called and the other members of your ‘team’ work in a different time zone!  But if you are someone who can make that commitment – well, the world, your world,  doesn’t necessarily become a better place, it can even get to be a bit more difficult, a lot more difficult at times, but when you make that commitment – and uphold it however hard it becomes – then, then you KNOW why you are here.  At least, you get to see some of the picture.

Right now, the Collective Consciousness of Humanity is being tested.  The 17/8 ATKI is a huge challenge that has been brewing for millennia.  This is a long game that won’t be resolved in this lifetime.  How committed are you to doing the Energetic Work we need to do?  Is your Spiritual Journey full and deep, or is it a surface thing.  Are you prepared to do the work even when you know that the results most likely won’t be seen in your lifetime? That this is a long-game.  Remember – I thought I was going home when I went into that Dragon’s Gate in 2016 and I was totally devastated to find out that I wasn’t.  I had been thinking of the short game. The human view of working in this one lifetime.  Once I recognised, understood and accepted that this will not be my only or my last lifetime, once I recognised the long-game, I was able to relax and allow things to unfurl in their own time.  To Trust that it will all be right in the end.  And that if it’s not all right – it’s not the end.

There’s no wrong answer.  No judgement.  You are just being called to recognise as an individual thread of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity, your commitment to humanity, to this planet and especially to your Spiritual Journey through this lifetime reality and beyond.    

Gy’ Shé em

Auri’An

This is a transcription of the message given by Krone Auri’An in the bi-monthly Zoom Chat held by the International Koalition of Krones. You can find the full recording here: https://youtu.be/ONUImq4nPis

Philosophy………..

Blue_Wave.pngIn my reading, I have now moved to ‘The Secret Teachings of All Ages’ a book by Manly P. Hall published in 1926 and find myself fascinated with the concepts of the early philosophers (whom I didn’t get an opportunity to study at school) and and I recognise how similar thinking is re-emerging.  I’m only on page 23 of almost 1200 and have found several ‘gems’ already.

God_1.pngThe thought of God being not like man, but round, a sphere, is something that I have just discovered is a thought within Sacred Geometry.  And this has been known for at least 2,500 years in this cycle!  Sheesh!  Are we re-inventing the wheel?

God_2.pngI’m right at the very edge of bringing Sacred Geometry and Philosophy together.  Probably in an extremely simplistic way, but I can feel the connections. It feels like I’m standing at the edge of a precipice and am about to take an intuitive leap.  I know extremely little about either subject at the moment but am excited.

Who would have thought, when I first awakened 2 years ago that a Spiritual path would involve learning Sacred Geometry, Philosophy and Quantum Physics!

I giggle a little at myself.  Only a few months ago I was declaring that I was more ‘forward thinking’ and totally uninterested in reading about ‘old school’ gurus.  A bit red-faced now!  Lol.

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