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Controlling Empathy

All my life, for as long as I can remember, I have been overwhelmed.  For most of my life I believed it was because of my upbringing which was in a time when children could be seen, but most definitely were not to be heard.  It was confusing.  Adults and other children around me, made me feel befuddled. They made me fearful; they over-powered me with their very presence, with the noise that they made.  They were too active – too strong and I didn’t understand that it wasn’t their physical voice, or activity, or muscular strength that overpowered me – it was far stranger than that.  Some people could over-power me simply by looking at me and make me devolve into  tear-filled mess.

The noise that humans make hurts me.  Even now – in certain situations.  Not physically, it’s more of a mental disturbance.   It’s hard to describe, and as a child I had no means of reference to say that this pain which hurt my body and this pain which hurt my soul were any different.  I had no guidance to know that it wasn’t always physical noise that hurt.  Now I know that it is the chaotic, jumbled Energy noise that so many people put out, that can hurt so much.

Like many others, I had no-one to guide me, so I learnt avoidance.  I already knew how to disappear into the walls so that I couldn’t be seen but I also learned how to disappear into story books, how to travel to different realms.  My own way to describe it was to “go visit the Elephants”.  Basically I would leave my body and go where I felt safe.  On the open savannah with the elephants.  I would walk in their footsteps.    I have a guide, Emily, who is a big, blue, matriachal elephant.  I even have a painting of her on my wall.  She makes me feel safe.

I learned how not to be there even when my physical body was.  It was the only way I had at that time to control my environment.  When I got a bit older, I used food to control my environment.  I was anorexic.

That tentative control was violently ripped from me one day when I was caught up in riots. Now I understand that it wasn’t just the physical noise and violence of those riots, but the Energy of anger, fear, death; of dominance, destruction and hatred.  That Energy whirled around in a maelstrom of violence that I couldn’t handle.  For over 20 years after that event, I lived in fear of everything outside my front door.  I had zero control of everything that happened outside my front door.  It took that long for me to be diagnosed with PTSD.

Time moved on, I learned how to deal with the panic attacks that happened every day and especially whenever I went into a place where there were lots of people.  My need to escape the pain I felt was so great that I would become violent.  I’ve been thrown out of more that one McDonalds for going to thump someone who was simply talking loudly!

Time moved on, I learned coping strategies and life continued – and was even fulfilling at times.  Then, totally out of the blue, in the midst of a time when other dramas were playing out, I was accused of something I hadn’t done, something I hadn’t even been involved with and I was threatened with jail time.  My world was already very delicately poised, but with this threat it totally collapsed.  This was in August 2014.

In October 2014, I had what I call my Initial Spiritual Awakening Experience.  And in June the following year Essence Ka tha’ras came into my life.    There have been many times when I have stated that she saved my sanity and I am deadly serious about that.  Finally someone was able to explain to me what was happening. 

At 60 years of age I found out about Empathy.  Of course I knew about empathy as opposed to sympathy, but I didn’t know that empathy could also be an amalgam of our senses; a deeper sense. A response to the energies swirling about in the world around us.  I didn’t know that people are empathic in this way of sensing the energies around them.  I found out that I am Empathic – and that every other human on this planet has that ability to some degree or other.  If they are open to it – it’s a matter of sensitivity.  Most importantly, I learned that it overwhelms when you are not in control.  And I, most definitely, was not in control.  I finally discovered that all this pain and noise and overwhelm is because I am very sensitive to the energy of what is around me. 

Essence taught me that I can learn to take control.

That has probably been the most important part of my journey through this lifetime.  You really can’t learn to control how you perceive and receive the energy around you, until you learn about how Energy works and how to work with Energy.  You can’t just flick a switch – you have to learn about it.

The very first thing I needed to learn was how to stop seeing all this Energetic swirling as something to be feared.  Essence taught me that if I could learn to take control, instead of it controlling me, that this knowledge of the energy of the world around me could become my greatest gift for helping others.  I am driven to help others; and this could be an amazing tool but I had to change my mindset, my beliefs.  I’d had 60 years of fear and hiding from something that could be my greatest asset – but it wasn’t something that was going to be learned overnight. 

Essence got the ball rolling, but eventually my guides directed me to attend a weekly meditation circle in the town where I lived.  The people there were lovely.  Committed, helpful, caring – but the Energies they moved in were already too low a frequency for me to feel comfortable in and I wasn’t sufficiently experienced to be able to move through different frequencies without being affected.  I know that sounds like Ego – Hey, my frequency is higher than yours – but that is very definitely not the case.  It was simply that they worked in fields that operated in different frequencies than those I was starting to work in. I went there to learn skills I needed – primarily I needed to learn to trust what I Know.  To trust the Energy I was able to read.  How did I do this, I learned the art of psychometry. 

I was pretty hopeless with reading Energy off personal items such as jewellery, they feel inert to me, but my teacher would put a photograph in an envelope or face-down on the table and I would hover my hand over it, I wouldn’t touch it and I would attempt to ‘read’ the Energy I felt about whatever was in that photo that I couldn’t see.  I had to push myself out of my comfort zone and learn to say what came into my Knowing without doubting and second-guessing it.  Sometimes the things students would come out with when we did these exercises were hilarious or even ridiculous, but no-one ever made anyone else feel stupid.  We were all just having a go and I learned to relax and say whatever popped into my mind.  And surprisingly that information was uncannily accurate.

It was a good class.  Fun.  Great people.  And every single week for about 18 months, I left that class, got home and vomited.  Every single week after attending that class, I would spend hours throwing up. 

Now, to be fair,  I do have a number of food intolerances and vomiting isn’t really unusual for me when I eat certain natural food chemicals and so, week after week I thought it was something I was eating.  Until I was invited to visit the local Spiritual Church. 

I went into that church and immediately felt that really familiar draining of my Energy that I describe as ‘pain’.  This was a place of very low frequency and I was in a position of starting to be able to recognise and understand it.  When I had to rush out of that church in order to vomit, I knew exactly why I had been throwing up for the previous 18 months.  However lovely the people were in the class I had been attending, the Energy they were working in was too low for the frequencies I was learning to move within and when I mentioned this with my psychometry teacher, she confirmed that she too had recognised that I would soon be leaving to follow my own path.  This is a good way of understanding that you really can’t separate the physical from the spiritual.

During most of this time, I had lived in an apartment building with the most horrible, swirling, chaotic energy.  Next door was an even bigger apartment building that held energies that were even more intense.  It came to a point, when I had to move out.  I was the fourth successive manager of that building to have had a mental breakdown.  That’s how bad the Energy was there.  I amicably separated from my husband and moved to a town several hours away, but on the 1st January 2018 I found myself back in that building after getting a call for help in running the resort.  

Despite already having several years of learning to recognise and understand how to read the Energy and, at a basic level, how to work with it, I found myself just 8 days later, on the beach seeking a passive way to leave this life.  That’s how badly I was being affected by that energy of those buildings in just 8 short days.  I went into meditation and beseeched the Universe to either take me or to show me how to bring balance into my life. 

Balance is what I got.  I fell off the sea wall.  I had to be rescued by the fire service; had two stays in hospital and 4 1/2 hours of surgery pinning my leg back together.  When I came out of hospital I had to go back to that place of swirling, painful energy which had only become worse.  I had to spend 9 weeks in bed with my leg stuck in the air.  And I had to recognise that Energy and not allow it to take control of me once again.  I had to learn to choose how I worked with it. 

During those 9 weeks I was severely tested.  I don’t need to go into the details, but it was bad; it was hard.  And it was here that I came to understand that me being in control of the way I perceive and work with the energies around me, or of allowing these energies to control me as they had whilst I was younger was all about choice.  Choice and discernment.  I had the ability to choose how I saw, felt and reacted to the energies around me and in order to make that choice I had to be able to discern what was beneficial and what was not.   And believe me, not only then but in the three years since that accident, I have been severely challenged. 

Does this mean that I am now fully in control of my Empathic abilities.  Nope.  I think I will be learning and growing in this area for a long time yet.  What has happened is that I am learning to use that energy in the way that Essence told me I would be able to do.  I now view this ability as the true gift it is.  I use it to see my world as it is and not so much as it is presented.  I use it when I have a client – either for Reiki or drum healing or as a counsellor.  I use it within meditation for the benefit of the entire collective – and it’s impossible not to work with energy when working with Essence. 

One of the first things she taught me is that Everything is Energy, Frequency, Vibration.  It took me a while to get a really good handle on understanding that – but I think I’m pretty much getting there! 

Thank you.  Thank you for listening.  I hope the sharing of my journey helps you to better understand your journey and not to be overwhelmed by the fears of uncontrolled empathy.

Gy’ Shé em
Flip the heaviness and Shine your Bling

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Energy Frequency Vibration

IMG_5587 (2)I first wrote about these words as a passionate, excited Neophyte who had finally reached a level of understanding about what they meant and how they would colour my life forever.   I wrote four articles in my Dance In Thunder blog and I’ve shared the link more than a few times in trying to help people who have recognised that they are travelling through the energy of Fear but don’t know how to escape.

I have moved forward on my Journey, have learned a little more about the path I am following, have a pretty good idea of the direction I am traveling and recognise that I probably have many years more learning to do as I head in that direction.  So I am not promising to have all the answers, but maybe my writings will give you food for thought and ideas in how to deal with the low frequency energies that often seem to follow people who are stepping out onto their personal Spiritual Journey.

For a while, these words were probably the thing my Friend and Teacher most spoke about.  We joked about getting them tattooed on my forearm so I’d never forget them, but it wasn’t until a time of strife and stress; a time of being bathed in low-frequency energies that I came to better understand the meaning.  I need to experience things in order to get to the deeper Truth, and this need has lead me into a life-time of disasters and dramas.  I’m sometimes slow on the uptake so the dramas tend to cycle around, but am now getting a whole lot better at recognising my Lessons and understanding those Truths as they appear at that time.  In the context of the disasters and dramas of my life this one was fairly easy to get under my belt, mainly because of a mental picture I was given by my Teacher and friend, Essence Ka tha’ras, and it is this which I want to share with you.

EVERYTHING IS ENERGY

EVERYTHING is energy.  You, your home, the clothes you wear, the food you eat, everything you see, feel touch, hear, smell, say, think.  It is all energy.  We all know that we are made up of trillions and trillions of atoms – all whirling around, looking like miniScreenshot (61) galaxies and producing….yep energy!  And between and within these atoms there is – as far as I know, (I’m no scientist, but I plan on learning more) – nothing!  Apparent emptiness.  These atoms and the emptiness between is the playground of Quantum Physics.  Those studying QP are slowly discovering the science behind the Shaman and the Healer and I find it fascinating that I have the opportunity to be here, in this lifetime, to be able to see this happening.  The first steps leading to a time where science and Spirit blend into one.  The medicine of the future.

Most of us say those words “Everything is Energy” or “I’m working on raising my Vibration” or similar, but they are just words really if you are still working consistently within lower-frequency energies and feeling the pull of Fear.  When you get a good solid handle on this you find that Fear really isn’t an issue any more.  Unless you are jumping out of a plane or on a roller-coaster or facing a tiger.  Then, your body has its own protective system and overcoming that is a whole different ball-game we can talk about another time.  It would be hard to avoid that kind of fear, but for now, I’m talking more about Spiritual fear.

Everything is energy, but all energy isn’t the same.  Energy vibrates.  It vibrates at different frequencies.  You can see this by looking at sine waves.  They measure the frequency of the vibrations.  Here is the bit that fascinates me – all the horrible stuff, the emotions such as anger, bigotry, fear, are energies that vibrate at a low speed.  I haven’t yet researched if I am right, but it seems to me that every low frequency energy devolves down to Fear.  If you are angry, and you look at your anger, you will find fear lurking behind it.  If you are racist – you fear those who are different so you react.  If you are a bully you fear that someone may be better than you, or different to you and because you don’t understand that, you lash out at that difference so that you can feel in charge again.  Worry and stress – Fear of what is to come or is currently happening.  We all hit that one at some point!

When you understand that anger and fear are low frequency energy, its very easy to work out what is high frequency – Love, Peace, Joy are right up there at the top.  When we talk about raising our vibration – this is what we are aiming for – the ability to consistently live in those high frequency energies.

And so I come to the mental picture I was given, and that has been so very helpful in maintaining a high frequency vibration within my energy.  Its very simple.  No complicated ceremonies, no magic, no smudging, no protection-raising.  All I am asking is that you imagine a ladder.

Screenshot (54)Yes.  A simple ladder.  Build it in your mind.  You can design your Energy Ladder however you want it to look.  A simple, traditional wooden ladder; a fancy one with ornate trellis up the sides; a golden staircase; whatever works for you.  No rules on your ladder design!!  But it needs lots of rungs, or steps.  Once you have your Energy Ladder firmly in your mind, we need to expand it out a bit.  Develop the top and the bottom – for any ladder this is important.  It needs to stand on something and lean against something.

This is the bit you need to get very firmly in your mind.  Each rung vibrates at a different frequency.  Low frequency at the bottom, high frequency at the top.  Its obvious really.  You don’t need to think too deeply about this but have a sort-of picture about the bottom, where the ladder is standing.  Mine, I describe simply as “Murk.”  It’s not an area I want to be in so I don’t spend a lot of time thinking about it, but I understand it’s there.  The top of my ladder is in pure bright light.  Again, it’s there, but its still a fair way above me and there is a lot about those energies that my human mind can’t comprehend, so I don’t try to understand.  It just is.  Someday, in some future lifetime or alternate dimension I may get there and although it’s unlikely to be this one, the thought is comforting.

Right at the bottom, in the murk is the lowest frequency rung.  In my mind this is Fear.  You may think a different emotion is the lowest – that’s fine.  It’s your ladder.  Above that, the next rung up may be Anger.  Whatever.  I’m sure you get the picture.  You are standing somewhere on the ladder.  You need to work this out for yourself.  I think of the Dalai Lama as somewhere near the top and I am nowhere near his level, so that gives me a guideline for where I am.

We have a picture of our Energy Ladder and where we stand on it. I am, in future articles, going to be referring again and again to your Energy Ladder as we explore the practical aspects of maintaining your higher frequency.  This mental picture is going to become something that will flash into your mind each time you come across something that worries you and each time that something happens to make you feel you can climb to a higher rung.

And here is the Golden Truth about your Energy Ladder

LOW FREQUENCY ENERGIES CANNOT CLIMB THE LADDER.

Think about it.  If you are, let’s say, 7 steps up your ladder and something happens that triggers anger in you, you have a choice.  You can become angry – in which case you will find yourself standing on the rung with that frequency.  On my ladder that would be the 2nd rung up.  In the murk!  I would have slipped down 5 rungs.  Alternatively I could look at that happening and tell myself, yep I could get myself good and angry, but what will that achieve?  Will making myself angry help?  Certainly in some cases, being good and angry can motivate you to achieve higher things, but only you know if that’s likely to be the case here, or if you are just getting angry for anger’s sake.  But guess what?  Anger cannot move up the ladder to you.  If that emotion tries to come to you, on your 7th step, it has to raise its frequency….. and in doing that, it means it is no longer Anger.

Have a think about how that works for Fear.

In future articles, I plan to explore things that crop up and look at how you can apply this Energy Ladder picture – and how you may be shooting yourself in the foot without even realising it!!  There are no promises about how frequent these articles may be – I have a complicated life – but to be honest, now you have your Energy Ladder – you have most of the tools you need!

In Lak’ech Ala K’in

Sue Thomson

Ki’An Healing

 

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