Life should never be stagnant.
It is a journey that allows for the individual to seek knowledge, to experience, to learn and to grow. It is something that every being throughout the Cosmos is doing – travelling the path of life.
My life path has taken me – much like anyone else’s – on a journey that has ups and downs: mountains to climb, rivers to ford, meadows to dance through, and every now and then you reach a point where the path forward diverges. A place in your life where you are faced with a choice – do I carry forward on the path I know so well and feel comfortable travelling, even if it hurts, or do I follow a different route, seek the unknown and the possible expansion of consciousness.
Last October, when my spiritual teacher, Essence Ka tha’ras, asked me a question: Who are you without your wounds? I found myself at one of those cross-roads in life, although I was not really aware of the choices I was about the make. Choices that set me on a path into the unknown resulting in my first book “Hidden in a Dark Place”. I thought I’d answered my question in that book, but in reality, I had only peeled back the first layer of the onion.
In my research for this book, I discovered that I am not neuro-typical, I am neuro-divergent. At 67 years of age I discovered a whole list of ‘labels’ that apply to me: Autism, Aphantasia, SDAM, and a whole heap more. Many people discovering these things in later life see them as a bane to carry. I choose to see them as a gift.
At the same time as this research was occurring, I was doing deep work on Self from a spiritual perspective and I have also taken a big step forward on that journey. When I look at the new path I am following, I see that it too has its ups and downs, its mountains and valleys, but now I can see that instead of it just marching forward as my earlier path did, it meanders. I am able, on this new journey pathway, to take side trips to check things out – like studying the Tao Te Ching, reading The Holographic Universe by Michael Talbot; listening to a recording by Baba Ram Dass, or working out how to make gluten-free, sugar-free pancakes that don’t taste like sawdust. And winding through, crossing over and under the main journey of spiritual seeking, are the pathways of my neuro-divergency.
Krone Auri’An: I will always be Krone, even though my path has changed direction.
Am I a wise woman? As always, that is up to you to decide.
Right now though, I invite you to come with me on my Journey through spirituality, neuro-diversity, meditating, cloud-watching, animal messengers, fidget toys, and whatever else turns up in the sunshine and the rain of life. I will, mainly, be writing these things for me – so I do not lose the memories, as happens with SDAM – but if just one person gains information, support, joy or anything else they need in their own journey – then I see myself as truly blessed.
Auri'An's Journey 