Releasing the Old….

Those who travel the Spiritual realms say that “We need to release that which no longer serves”, although in our everyday human life we are more likely to say something like “out with the old, make room for the new” but how many of us actually take the time to understand what those words mean and to actually do something about it? 

I’ve often spoken of how we talk-the-talk but don’t understand the energy of the words we use; of how we have fallen into the habit of parroting phrases that sound good to us, but as with many of these so-called “New Age” phrases, we don’t often take the time to dig deep within ourselves to find out what it actually means, on an energetic level, to do those things. 

So, what is it that no longer serves? What does it mean?  I’ve seen and heard it being used by people when they really mean “Shut up about XYZ.  It’s done.  Get over it!”   And although that’s fairly extreme I also find that it can be used as an excuse similar to when you know that you need to clean the fridge but can’t be bothered just yet.  It’s a very wide-ranging term that is open to an almost infinite range of explanations.   

In the physical world for example, it’s likely to mean sorting out your wardrobe and getting rid of stuff that doesn’t fit any more or it could be the dancing Elvis doll you bought on a whim and is now cluttering up your bookshelf – or, yes, cleaning the fridge!  In your emotional world, it could mean leaving an abusive relationship or walking away from a virulent argument.  It could be leaving behind beliefs and memories that replay in your mind causing you to fall back into self-destructive energy.  And it is this last example that is most important to those of us who are working within the Spiritual realms, because these beliefs and memories have a tendency to cycle around and around simply because we haven’t dealt with them.  They are the very things that pull us down and cause it to be hard to maintain the highest energy frequency we can. 

I, like most other people, have things that have adversely affected me my whole life.  Those who have been following me for a while are probably aware that for most of my life I have stumbled from one drama to another and that over the past few years I have been actively working to deal with the energies of these dramas.  As I have worked through various things, I have come to realise that these are the very things that have gifted me with knowledge and wisdom, caring and the desire to be of assistance to the Collective.  I have been discovering that the dramas of my life are the very things that make me into the person I am becoming. 

Here’s an example.  I used to work in the corporate world.  A large company where I held a National Management position.  I left that world over 15 years ago, yet I still feel the anger, frustration and powerlessness of every Board meeting I attended – where the old-school-mates would leave a box of tissues at my place at the table because they knew that it was so very easy to wind me up until I burst into tears.  That they were tears of anger and frustration at being misunderstood in a predominantly male world, compounded by deep disappointment in self that I reacted that way, was no matter – the game was to make me cry.   

Even though I am no longer that person, and the anger and frustration is long gone, the memory remains.  The belief that I react this way to bullies was so ingrained that I didn’t actually think of it as a belief.  It was just me.  I didn’t even realise that the other people were being bullies.   I actually carried the energy of that memory with me over the years without even realising it, because it was such a part of ME that it had become something I rarely thought of – until I released that energy just the other day within a meditation session.  I had carried one perspective of that situation for all these years – that of the emotions I felt during those horribly embarrassing meetings.  In that meditation, I came to see another perspective where I could understand that although the actual hands-on work as that National Manager was right up my street, as a PTSD sufferer, I was ill-equipped for the aspects that involved confrontation.  The “what no longer served me” that I released was not only the memory pain of being bullied, embarrassed and emotional when pushed, but with it came the realisation that at that time in my life I was in a situation that was beyond me.  I forgave my overwhelming work colleagues and, most importantly, I forgave myself. 

A few weeks ago I, and the other Krones, logged off social media for a break from the energies – for “Spiritual Maintenance.” It was a much-needed time to reset beliefs – to release that which no longer serves and to confirm commitments to the work that we do.  I had a lot of difficulty in getting back to my groups and pages – the energies seemed stagnant.  It was time for a good close look at why.  My page, The Path to Ein Teri Y’h was about a long-held dream that seemed about to move from a dream into reality when covid reared its head and so many dreams fell into dust.  I had given that group a new name, tried to stir the energies back into some form of enthusiasm but it became so very obvious that this was one of those things that no longer served.  And so I released that Facebook group and it is being archived on 31st August, and by doing that I have given myself time.  Time to work on my blog, my podcast, the work of the International Koalition of Krones, my Helping You course and more.

When you release those old, long-held beliefs not only does it give you a feeling of dropping a heavy weight, it gives you room to move, to become creative.  To grow.  It gives you space, physically, emotionally and spiritually, to spread your wings, to learn how to fly in a new world.    

Gy’ Shé em
Flip the heaviness and Shine your Bling

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Love, Light and Other Fluff

I’m sure you’ve worked it out by now that the way in which humans communicate with each other is something that I’m pretty intrigued with.  I wouldn’t go so far as to say that I am passionate about it, and I’m certainly no expert in language use, but I have been writing and talking about the Energy of words and the way that we communicate by using them, for years – specifically about how those who consider themselves to be Spiritual: Lightworkers, Starseeds, or whatever other name you prefer – and about how they communicate and interact with each other. 

I’ve spoken many times about the Energy held within everyday words and how when those words are not spoken in the highest sense, how that Energy can personally affect YOU, how the words that you use can pull you down; how they can limit your potential to excel.  To grow.  And this effect is not just in the spiritual realms – it also affects everyday life. 

I spoke on this topic again in the International Koalition of Krones Zoom Chat on 13th November 2020, but that time it was about how our word choices, and the syntax and cadence that we use, can actually cause Energetic Harm to others – and that harm can even happen unintentionally because we are careless and we speak without consideration of the meaning and the effects of certain words.

Humans are poised to evolve.

It’s not the first time we’ve changed and grown, and it probably won’t be the last time.  But this time?  This time we get the opportunity to consciously choose which direction, which timeline, we will travel.  We get to choose what we want it to look like.  And that choice happens through the Energy held by the majority of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity.

There is so much opportunity right now, at this point in linear time, at this crux-point we are currently in.  So much opportunity to make the right choice.  We know this.  In our physical world it is so obvious.  We are at a place in our reality where humans are able to make a choice about the future of humanity; a choice about which path we are going to choose – and that choice will eventually affect the future of all Beings on this planet, not just humans, but every Being on Earth.  And because we are choosing OUR future, and because humanity WILL go Galactic in that future, our choices now will affect so much that lies way beyond this place we call home.  The choices we are making right now, both individually and collectively, are so important because they will affect everything for the next 13,000 years. 

And the only way that we can work out what those choices should look like is to communicate with each other.  And to be quite honest, I think we are doing a pretty rotten job.  Those who promote the fear and anger that has been sweeping this planet for so many years and which has become extreme in the last few months – they are talking the loudest.  Their words don’t always make sense, but they say it loudly and with conviction.  And humans have a history of listening to those who talk the loudest, regardless of whether what they are saying is Truth or not.

Communication is the first stage of the Conscious Evolution of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity. 

Starseed and Lightworkers are here at this point in linear time to maintain the Energy, to hold space so that humanity can grow and work things out in the way that they most desire as a Collective.  Everyone on this path should be really aware of the words they use and how they use them.  We are responsible for consciously leading the way into clear communication. We hold the Energy and we absolutely must do everything we can to hold it at the highest frequency we can. 

And that leads me into something I want to talk about – about how we, the Spiritual Community, especially in the Western world, have taken Sacred words and Blessings, often from other cultures, and made them into everyday phrases. 

I want to talk about how we, the Spiritual Community, use words of great Power in exactly the same way as we yell “Bye, see ya later.”  I want to discuss how we finish an email, not with ‘Best wishes,” or ‘Yours faithfully,’ but with a Sacred Blessing.  And there is nothing wrong with that, nothing wrong with that at all provided that Blessing is given consciously and with knowledge.

We, especially those of us within a Western society have appropriated Sacred Words from other cultures and we’ve bastardised them.  When we are writing a salutation at the end of a letter or a post, most of us wouldn’t dream of using the words “ By the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ and the love of God…” So why do we use “Namaste”?

I’m guilty.  I’m guilty of using such words without, each time, considering the deeper meaning of the words I’m using.

So let’s think about the meaning of that word – Namaste.  I Bow to You.  On the surface it seems like a pretty good salutation and nowadays, it’s mainly that way, but let’s dig a bit deeper.  I Bow to You.  It means that you hold deep respect for the other person.  That you know them, that you honour them and that you also understand, because we are all One, that in honouring and respecting them you too are being honoured and respected.  How often, when you use that word, do you take time to think of the acknowledgement you are making in understanding one of the deeper Truths of the Universe?

Then again, the Oxford English Dictionary simply says that it means “Hello.”

Food for thought.

Another Sacred phrase that we use incorrectly, also stolen from another culture – in this case the Mayan – is “In Lak’ech ala kin”   Now I do know a number of people who do use this phrase in full awareness of the deeper meaning of the words, and I don’t see it over used in the same way as Namaste has been.  And that is a good thing. In Lak’ech literally means “I am another you.” Like Namaste this phrase is talking of the deeper Truths of the Universe – I don’t exist without you and you don’t exist without me.  If you were not here, I wouldn’t be here either – and thinking about that can take you on a very long, and interesting journey seeking that deeper knowledge.

When I was first starting out on my Spiritual journey, when I first heard of that phrase and it’s meaning, I thought it was really cool and I used it all over.  Until I started to delve into that deeper meaning and realised my casual use was both disrespectful to the culture and to the deeper truth of the words.

And that brings me to the final phrase I want to discuss today.  A phrase that is so mis-used and over-used that just to hear it makes my toes curl!  It no longer carries the Energy it should.  That it once did.

But first, before I tell you what this phrase is, I’ll tell you what it means to me.  My interpretation.

I am the Light of Creation. 

I am the light first seen at the beginning of the linear time of our reality. 

I draw that light into my Being so that I can be a beacon to guide and aid those who struggle in darkness.

I humbly bring that Light into the Service of All.  

I am merely a conduit. 

A conduit in Service to the Energy and Knowledge of the Universe. 

I Bless you with the frequencies of Creation and Wisdom and Love. 

When I say this, my interpretation of this phrase, I feel the Energy.  I feel it building in my hands and my heart, in all my Chakras.  I feel the Energy of being in Service, I feel humbled and I feel the commitment I have made to this Journey, to the Collective.  And when all that Energy, all that is bundled, mainly without thought, into  “Love and Light” delivered in an off-hand, throw-away manner, is it any wonder that I cringe?

Now, don’t misunderstand me – I’m not in anyway saying that there is anything wrong in using those phrases.  There is nothing wrong with using Namaste, In Lak’ech, Love and Light, Gy’ Shé em, KaRa Ounz Chez Prana, OM AkArapariNAma Anadaham and more.  But please, feel the power of the words.  Understand the depth of the words.  Feel the Blessing within the words.  And then use them in Honour of the Knowledge and the Wisdom and the Power of these phrases.

We who are Starseed, Lightworkers or whatever other term you prefer, we are the ones who should be leading the way for the Conscious Evolution of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity.  And the first step is to become aware of the power that we hold in the words that we use.  And we should use them wisely.  Yes, we all stumble and make mistakes, we speak through a human filter but we have also become complacent. We are de-sensitised.  We are losing the deeper Truths, the deeper knowledge and wisdom in favour of fluff.

Gy Shé em

Auri’An

International Koalition of Krones

This blog post is an extract from the Zoom Chat held by the International Koalition of Krones on 13th November 2020. You can access the recording here.

Truly Committed?

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I feel like I’m stepping out on a slightly different path.  One filled with Possibilities and Probabilities and The Unknown in a whopping huge barrel-load of OMG-What-Have-I-Let-Myself-Into now!

I know what my Sacred Contractual Work is for this lifetime (and beyond) and I also know that I am at the very beginning of that work.  Knowing what your Sacred Contractual Work is, doesn’t mean that you are going to step right into it.  It doesn’t mean that you are actually even going to fully know, or understand, what it will entail.

I’m currently riding through a sort of settling-in period and I have been for a few years.  It’s a time of getting a better handle on what it’s all about.  A learning more about me, where I’ve come from; the choices that I’ve made that have lead me here.  It’s about understanding the world around me from a different perspective,  thinking about the world I would like to inhabit and the knowledge I will need to build that world; to live there and above all how do this work. However it develops. Whenever it develops.  If it develops.  Because I also know that although it may happen in this lifetime – it may just as easily not.  I’m planting seeds.  I’m Trusting that it WILL all work out as it’s meant to.  Even though there is no guarantee.

I’ve spoken before about my Sacred Contractual Work and how, within the Dragon’s Gate in 2016, I was so upset because I’d been so sure that I was ‘going home’ and discovered that I wasn’t.  At that time, even though I was very upset, I made a commitment.  In many ways this was like signing a legal Contract and even though I didn’t actually realise that for a couple of years because I was too wrapped up in being upset about not going home – my Higher Self recognised that this was the right path for me to follow. 

By that time I’d already made two major commitments.  When I talk about MAJOR commitments, I’m talking about making a commitment way beyond what is asked of most people.  We all make commitments – to our partner, to family, to work etc. and those commitments can last all your current life and be very important – or not.  These commitments can come to an end or even be broken.  But my path is asking that I make a deeper, more intense commitment to my work. 

The first was the one that totally changed my life when had what I call my Initial Awakening Experience where I’d spent 3 ½ hours in the middle of the night, sitting in the rain, in the mud, in the middle of a field, literally experiencing that absolute feeling that we all strive for – that feeling of being ONE.  Being Gaia.  Being the AUM of the Universe.  Being the trees, the grass and the wind.  And feeling the pain carried by all on this planet – especially the pain of our Mother, Gaia.  I emerged from that experience with my life forever changed.  I had made a Major Commitment to work to reduce that pain. 

A little less than a year later Essence put out a post asking if anyone recognised themselves as First Wave Blue Ray Indigo.  She was talking about me.  She was talking TO me.  Yes, many people felt that call, but I Knew it was spoken directly to ME.  It was a life-line and a few months later I became one of the admins of that Face Book group and I started my journey with Essence as my teacher.

 As I gradually began to learn and to find my path, I found myself making another Major Commitment.  One to the Work that Essence is here to do.  My belief in that Work is absolute.  My Commitment to aiding with that Work wherever I am able is not something I would ever even consider putting to one side.  Yes, we may at some point travel in different directions, but I believe in the work that Essence is here to do – and believe me there have been many times when I’ve questioned the stuff she comes out with and thought that Essence has really lost it – only to have something come along that proves without a shadow of doubt that this is work is real.

And so, in this lifetime so far, I have made three major commitments.  I have committed to following a spiritual path; to aiding Essence in her Sacred Work and in following my own Sacred Work.  And none of these commitments are mutually exclusive. The commitments were all made at different times, were not always recognised as commitments but they weave together in a way that I only truly started to see and understand in the last 6 months or so.  These commitments are connected, they are an integral part of the tapestry of my reality.  You’ll see the weavings – they are right there if you look.  My work contains threads from Essences work.  I have little doubt that some of my threads are woven into Essences tapestry.  And the same with Ko Ba Ja’s.  These interweavings are what forms the Group Collective Conscious Mind that we Krones work within.

Not everyone will be called upon to make such major commitments.  Very few I suspect.  Such deeper work is not something that everyone, as an individual, is meant to do. And that is fine.  Exactly as it should be.  Perfect.  But we – the Collective Consciousness of Humanity – ARE being asked to explore and understand our Commitment.  And that means that you, as an individual thread forming part of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity, needs to decide on your level of Commitment. 

And why do we need to decide right now?  Just look around you.  Almost everything that you see that is painful and wrong is the result of the Energy of the 17/8 ATKI rising up to be released.  Governments and corporations around the world, making decisions that further their personal agendas rather than for the good of the Collective Consciousness of this planet.  Of Earth herself. Not just humans.  This is the Energy of the 17/8 ATKI.  We’ve talked about this for a few years and now we are getting to see it in action. 

For years we’ve gone with the Love and Light, we’ve sat on our energetic butts and followed what we are being told whether that’s from our law-makers, our teachers or the billboards on the side of bus!  We don’t think of ourselves as sheeple, but we, as a Collective, don’t think FOR ourselves either.  Together.  As a Collective.  We haven’t made that commitment to change anything at a fundamental level.  We’ve blindly accepted that we live in a male-dominated society – even as we tell ourselves that the Divine Feminine is rising.  It’s what we know.  It’s been that way for the last 6,000 years.  We are programmed, genetically imprinted.  And it needs to change.

Now – I’m NOT asking that you go out and join in with the protests that are happening all over this world.  Unless that’s where you are drawn.  I’m NOT asking that you become militant in the need to change things – to my mind, that is a very masculine, traditional way of doing it and is, long term, not likely to succeed in any major way.  Peace has never been the result or aim of violence.   Remember – everything is Energy.  Frequency.  You cannot create a frequency of peace from a frequency of war. And I’m not asking that you put yourself on the front line unless that is where you feel your purpose is. 

What I AM asking, is for you to think about your commitment – to whatever.  Are you really committed to building a better place for our children’s children – as I spoke of in a previous chat – to the 7th generation and beyond.  Or are you happier, more comfortable, just watching everything unfold and maybe discussing stuff with friends or posting on Face Book?

There is no judgement here.  This is Personal, Individual work that we are all being called upon to do in order for the Collective to start to really know its Self.  We need to look at Self with honesty and open-mindedness and not to judge yourself or anyone else if you discover that you don’t hold any major commitments.  To be quite honest, most people won’t.

You are a single thread that forms the tapestry of all humans on this planet and your thread is important.  If you look at any tapestry, you’ll find that there are threads in there that form the big picture – the background, there are threads that form the detail – the 5 dancers. There is no one thread in there that is more important than another.  In weaving, they are the weft.

Now think about the warp of the tapestry.  These are the threads that run up and down the fabric and form the basis that the other threads, the weft, weave through.  On a tightly woven tapestry, you don’t see those warp threads at all – not even if you look at the back of the work – but they are the threads that anchor the whole thing together.  Without these the picture could not be formed.  These are the threads representative of the silent majority.  These are the threads that hold the whole thing together and creates our reality.  These represent those who work within the Power of Silence.  Those many, many people who simply get on with their daily life being the best person they can be.  Silence is a powerful tool.  Potentially the most powerful tool. 

We all have our place and our job.  I am asking that you work out what your part is in this tapestry at this point in linear time.  Are you one of those oh so essential silent majority?  Could you be one of the visible support workers – one of those threads that form the solid background?  Or are you one of those shining, bright threads that jumps out and says “I have information.  I hold knowledge that can bring your reality to a bright place.”

I AM asking that you sit down quietly, jot things down on a notepad, meditate, talk with your Guides and Higher Self – whatever way feels right, and work out what you are most committed to.  It may be that you are most committed to your family.  I suspect that will be right at the top of most people’s commitments.  It may be your work or your health or pretty much anything, but whatever you feel the strongest commitment to, I’d like you to then take the next step.  Ask yourself how important is that commitment to you.  Don’t just think “Oh It’s very important”  I want you to think deeper than that.  I want you to think about how far you will go to protect those you are committed to.  How much work are you willing to do and what kind of work.   How far are you willing to hold that commitment?  Will you do the work you need to do to protect your unborn descendants? 

Once you have worked out your level of Commitment, then you can look at the HOW you can move forward.  What form will that work take to uphold that commitment.  This, my friends, I can’t help you with.  It’s something only YOU can know.  The ‘how’ of it.  This is the bit that is often Spirit guided.  You just need to recognise the guidance and choose to take up the work.

And whatever that commitment level, whatever way you choose to work with that commitment you have the opportunity to be doing your part towards making this reality into a place of peace and beauty.  Think about how your work helps others – maybe, like that warp thread, in a way that is unseen.  For example a school teacher allows a parent to go out to work and earn money that will help the family live in a better way.  A garbage collector is a valuable and active part of maintaining the health of the community.

I made my initial commitment to work towards reducing the pain that is felt on this planet.  I’m not an up-front warrior, my best tools are my mind and my skills with words.  Essence became my teacher to guide me in the deeper knowledge and understanding I need.  She helps me to understand why it’s sometimes necessary to move in what appears to be the wrong direction.  Why sometimes you feel as if you are stagnating.  My commitment to Essence and her work is a part of that initial commitment of mine.  By learning and understanding I can best do the work of helping to reduce the pain of this planet.  And my commitment to my Sacred Contractual Work? – well, that’s just another step in the process. 

Making a major commitment is not something to be undertaken lightly.  It’s not something you can pull on and off like a pair of socks.  It sometimes involves losing friends, family, parts of yourself that you’ve been carrying for eons.  Sometimes (often) it can mean getting out of bed in the middle of the night because you are being called and the other members of your ‘team’ work in a different time zone!  But if you are someone who can make that commitment – well, the world, your world,  doesn’t necessarily become a better place, it can even get to be a bit more difficult, a lot more difficult at times, but when you make that commitment – and uphold it however hard it becomes – then, then you KNOW why you are here.  At least, you get to see some of the picture.

Right now, the Collective Consciousness of Humanity is being tested.  The 17/8 ATKI is a huge challenge that has been brewing for millennia.  This is a long game that won’t be resolved in this lifetime.  How committed are you to doing the Energetic Work we need to do?  Is your Spiritual Journey full and deep, or is it a surface thing.  Are you prepared to do the work even when you know that the results most likely won’t be seen in your lifetime? That this is a long-game.  Remember – I thought I was going home when I went into that Dragon’s Gate in 2016 and I was totally devastated to find out that I wasn’t.  I had been thinking of the short game. The human view of working in this one lifetime.  Once I recognised, understood and accepted that this will not be my only or my last lifetime, once I recognised the long-game, I was able to relax and allow things to unfurl in their own time.  To Trust that it will all be right in the end.  And that if it’s not all right – it’s not the end.

There’s no wrong answer.  No judgement.  You are just being called to recognise as an individual thread of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity, your commitment to humanity, to this planet and especially to your Spiritual Journey through this lifetime reality and beyond.    

Gy’ Shé em

Auri’An

This is a transcription of the message given by Krone Auri’An in the bi-monthly Zoom Chat held by the International Koalition of Krones. You can find the full recording here: https://youtu.be/ONUImq4nPis

2018 – A Year of Change

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Gosh it’s been a while since I last wrote a blog article.  So much stuff has happened and despite heaps of good intentions, not a lot of writing has made it to this blog!  As I do every year, I hereby set my intention to be more diligent in the coming year.

As many other folk will also do, here is my review of my 2018 – a year that could have been the end-game of a very intense and fraught decade of disasters.  Instead it has been an amazing year.  As I think about the catalogue of woes of this year, I could be forgiven, I think, for curling up, burying my head in the sand and refusing to move into the world, but something happened on 8th January that completely changed how I viewed my world.

Backing up to the end of 2017:  I was living separate from my husband – a decision initially brought about by work, but which became comfortable – in a gorgeous old Queenslander workers’ cottage  three hours’ drive from where my husband ran our holiday accommodation business.  I lived alone with my dog; was studying, offering holistic counselling and spiritual healing and growing into my Self for what was probably the first time in my life.  On December 31st my husband called asking for help with cleaning the holiday apartments as the regular cleaner had been offered another job.  So, 1st January 2018 saw me packing up the bare minimum, throwing the dog in the car and heading back to Hervey Bay.

So many memories of living in that place, and not many of them good memories, so by 8th  January I was emotionally struggling and decided to go to the beach and meditate.  I was really low and although I was far from being suicidal, if the Mother Ship had landed next to me, scooped me up and flown me off to other parts of the Galaxy I’d have gladly left everything behind and gone.  I meditated on gaining more Balance in my life which had been out of control for many years.  Pretty much all my life had been a roller-coaster and I’d had enough.

Spirit sent the answer almost immediately.  I finished my meditation turned around to climb the sea wall back home and slipped on the first step breaking my ankle.  Well – not just breaking it, but doing about as thorough a job of smashing it up as you can possibly do without breaking the skin.  Long story short – I was rescued by the Fire Service, was hospitalised twice, surgery had me become the proud owner of a huge pile of titanium, two months of injecting myself in my belly every day and a total of 9 weeks with my leg stuck in the air.

Oh!  I forgot to mention that I was living with my husband and my dog (who weighed 63kg) in two small rooms at the back of the work office.  No proper kitchen, no view to outside, nowhere to move – pretty miserable.  Enforced bedrest gives you a choice.  You can wallow in self-pity or you can seek the Joy where you can.  I’d had a lifetime of self-pity, I had asked for Balance and although balancing on crutches wasn’t my plan, I realised that this was the start of my learning what I needed to learn in order for that balance to come into my life.

The year moved forward from that point – the bank threatened to foreclose on our mortgages (a whole back story there); the new owner of the business moved in and started running things, and so we needed to get out.  The minute I was relatively mobile we all piled in the car and drove the 17 hours to where my husband’s son lives.

We had absolutely no income and only had whatever belongings we had been able to fit on the back of a ute and we had to sell whatever we had in order to pay the rent.  I applied for unemployment benefit but in the meantime we sold everything including beds, table, chairs, washing machine….  You certainly discover who are true friends in such situation.

This is only the tip of the iceberg of the woes in my family, but you get the picture.  But when I was laid on the beach with that smashed ankle, moving into and out of consciousness, I felt very strongly that this was needed.  That something had to break in order to heal – and I am not talking about the various bones in my ankle!

This was one of those pivot points that everyone experiences at some time.  A time of choice.  Do I wallow, do I bewail my bad luck, do I fight or do I accept that Spirit has a plan?

I don’t see myself as a fighter.  Anything that has a feel of violence – even certain words – ties me up in knots.  I had been fighting for many years, through many traumas and with this injury I realised I had no fight left.  The Law of Attraction was in place – the more I fought, the more stuff appeared that needed to be fought for.  So instead, I Accepted.

I accepted the weeks confined to bed.  I accepted the loss of my home and that wonderful people who are barely more than strangers, went into my house and packed up my belongings.  I accepted that it will take 2 years to get fully mobile.  I accepted that we had fought through floods, bank errors, vicious attacks from neighbours and ex-friends. I accepted the loss of our business.  I accepted the most amazing people who came into my life, sometimes just for a few minutes, sometimes for longer. Spirit-sent for sure.  I accepted more home moves; battles with Government agencies; no income and the need to cancel plans to visit family and friends.  I have accepted that some family members are not willing to help (man that one hurt, but I have accepted) and that other family members will give their all to help.  I have accepted that my Spiritual Sisters are my strongest family.

And in all this acceptance I have learned.  I have learned to see the threads that bind us together.  Stretching throughout my lifetime and the lifetimes of every single being I have come into contact with.  Stretching through all dimensions and ages, I have learned to see the tapestry that is woven that brings me to this point.  This place where I am now.

I see Balance.  My husband met someone who had work available that is exactly what I needed and gives me time still for my Spiritual work.  I am teaching people in my new town the things that are dearest to my heart such as meditation and belly dancing and greeting the Full Moon.  And the people of this new town are the most amazing, friendly, open-hearted folk.  I knew as soon as I first stepped out of the car onto the foreshore of this place that I had Work to do here.  Spiritual Work.  Within days a local lady stopped and spoke with me.  She told me that she knows I have Spiritual Work to do here and that she had been waiting for me.  We have worked together for many, many lifetimes and we both recognise this.  It is a beautiful thing.  Most of all I see the Energy of Spirit behind everything that has happened in my life – and that all things were needed for me to become who I am right now.  Today.

Slowly, the ties to the traumas of the past years are being resolved.  Some are painful, some are amazingly smooth, but one by one they are being dealt with.

And so I greet 2019 with Joy.  I am at Peace.  I survived and came out whole.  I am stronger mentally and emotionally than I have ever been.  Physically?  Lots of work to do there LOL.  12 months being physically inactive, especially when you are no spring-chicken, plays havoc with the waistline and the fitness!!!

Through the entire year, the back-bone of being willing to carry on, are those who helped: my husband’s son and his family and my Spiritual Sisters.  These are true Family.

I am starting to understand the reason I landed in this town, and the lessons I am here to understand and grow with.  I have no doubt that the year to come is likely to have its own set of problems, but I have learned deeply, the adage that everything happens for a reason.  This lesson has cropped up many times in this life, but now I am able to see the threads and the weaving that brings together a Tapestry of Life that continues to grow into it’s beautiful whole with each day that passes and each person I meet.  The difficulties of life offer you the opportunity to tie a tight knot to strengthen that tapestry; an opportunity to change the colour of the thread you have been weaving.  They enrich your life – if that is what you choose.

Which Way Forward?

I wrote the following a few weeks ago when we first started to hear of children being separated from their parents as they tried to head towards a better life in the US.  It triggered a worldwide shock wave – and I am not about to get embroiled in the why’s and the finger-pointing, nor will I respond to any negative discussions that may result from this sharing of my thoughts.  These words are just my verbal meanderings as I try to sort it all out in my mind – what is the way forward?

Here in Australia, at the same time, there was outrage against the men who perpetrate crimes against women and the fears of women generally as the focus was once again turned, not towards educating men that this is not acceptable, but in educating women in the need to be more vigilant and more restricted in their actions.  Women were standing up and asking why they need to be careful, why they need to stay indoors, why should they not be free to venture outside without a male escort?

I do my best in such situation to remain outside the energy, to be the Detatched Compassionate Observer, but in the face of all this emotion it was hard to remain separate – and certainly it was hard to remain silent.  So I did what I naturally do – I wrote.

Regardless of your stance in these or similar topics I hope you will read beyond these initial thoughts of mine and to the voice I now hold in my heart that I would share with those who would like to hear.  I’m not saying I am right, heck I’m as confused as anyone else as to how this human race got themselves to this point, but I do have a few thoughts that may give you a pause for thought, an idea how you want to travel forward from this point.

This is what I wrote:

If every woman curls up and says “This is just how it is. Nothing has changed in the past and nothing will change in the future,” we, as a Collective Consciousness will choose that reality. We will be agreeing that it is ok to disempower women, that it’s OK to make women into perpetual victims. Yes, women are also taking that party line – they have been led to believe that they do not have the right to expect to be able to walk through a park at night without considering personal safety as a priority. They have been sold the concept that it is up to women to protect themselves from attack, and by default they have agreed that men hold power over them. Most who follow this path do not even see it. They do not understand that by following the ethos of “Nothing Changes” nothing WILL change.

Each individual, whether male or female, who cannot stand up and be counted in whatever way they are able to do so, is supporting the view that women (and children) don’t count.

I’m not an activist. I don’t follow world events. I am not the person who will go on marches or protests. I am the silent sister who simply adds her voice to the many other individual voices around the world saying ENOUGH. I am the sister of those who are afraid, but I am past my fear. I do not live by fear. It is no longer a part of my world. I am one individual who is part of the whole who says that the dominance over the weak, the hurting and the innocents is over.

Fear is the means that has been used for thousands of years to keep the balance in favour of those who perpetuate the fear. Those who would be rulers. This Energy we are discussing here, and that in the USA with the separation and imprisonment of children, and in almost all other parts of the planet is this Fear.

Now it is time for choice. Do we stay with fear or do we work now, raise each individual voice in whatever manner the person is drawn to do for the beneft of innocents. Do you want your daughters, and their daughters’ daughters to be able to be able to go for a run in the park, without fear? Or is your fear so great that you cannot even add your prayers to the growing movement of those who say NO MORE.

Even now, reading this it doesn’t seem unreasonable, but what if I were to tell you that even that reasonable-sounding voice is also adding to the disharmonious energy of Fear?  As too is that last sentence, because some of you will have become annoyed, angry even, at my words – “What?  That’s BS!  Everyone can fight in any way they want/feel called.”  And whilst that’s not wrong either, we have to dig deep and discover the base emotions behind our thoughts.   It is usually righteous indignation – which has the base of Fear, and without Fear, there is nothing to fight. It’s that simple.  And the sad part is that most who call out in this way don’t even realise that it is within the Energy of Fear that they are walking.

It is so very, very hard to live in this Reality and avoid Fear.  It is everywhere.  We all live in perpetual Fight or Flight Response and for some, the slightest thing can trigger anger, annoyance, even chest-puffing bluffing.  Today I saw a conversation on Face book between two people who consider themselves as “Lightworkers” – they were talking about the number of guns they have and that they were ready for whatever they thought was coming.  I also heard of other Spiritual people who talk about Love and Light – and gear up for marches against something that angers them.  And so much more in a similar vein.

It saddens me that the folk who genuinely want to do the right thing, who feel they are defending those who cannot defend themselves; who genuinely feel they can make a difference still feel the need to follow the same aggressive model that hasn’t worked but has been the norm for the last few thousand years.  They cannot see that they are not, after all, following the Goddess, the Divine Feminine, they are still feeding the world of anger, aggression and the “I am going to fight for my cause through my physicality.”

Without a doubt the events that cause us to fear, to be angry with the actions of our leaders need to stop.  I don’t think that anyone who calls themselves “Human” can disagree with that.  But do we believe – I mean truly believe – that following the male-dominated model of the last few thousand years is the right way to continue?

These, of course, are just my thoughts, my ramblings, but when I realised that the words I wrote were still feeding that anger and fear, I stopped and took a good long look at what I was hoping to achieve, and I realised that my actions in writing those words, and the way I believe these changes will come into this world are very widely different.  My words shout that we need to change this NOW.  Right Now.  Someone needs to fix this problem now so we no longer have this fear and anger in the world.  We don’t want to live like this, with this fear any more.  The underlying story of these words is like that of a child – lashing out in fear and confusion and trying, in the only way she knows how, to fix things –  but the fixing tool is broken.  It no longer works, in fact it hardly ever did work for most people.  It’s a boy-tool, male energy working through money and technology and power-games.  It no longer works and more and more people are realising that they need to find another way.

The “other way” is ultimately in the balance and harmony of the male and the female – but guys – we are riding pendulum of emotions and if we are not careful we will send the pendulum shooting too far the other way (more on that another day), but for now we need to walk our talk.

Trying to combat Fear with Anger will not work.  Love and Light do not walk hand-in-hand with guns and argument.  Peace and Calm do not blend well with dogma and dominance.  Each time we bring these together we are saying that this is the world we choose.  We are building the future reality with our actions now.  I know that the future world I want to see is not these things.

My truth, as I see it now, is that these things will not be fixed by marches and demonstrations and fear and anger.  These things will not be fixed overnight.  Heck, I don’t think these things will be fixed in my lifetime.  Or the life time of my children’s children.  But maybe, if we get it right now, then their children, my great-great grandkids, may be able to walk in freedom and balance.

We are honoured to be here right now.  This is a time of New Beginnings and New Knowledge – and we need to step up and use that New Knowledge to bring about the New Beginnings of the future of humanity.  WE are the ones to take the first steps in turning away from that old male model of aggression that has failed all but a few, and we need to continue what the Hippy / Flower Power generation started.  Peace through Unity and Love.

Through each Individual Consciousness acting through Love, Compassion, Prayer, Unity and Knowledge we will slowly move towards that time of balance.  We just need to get organised in following that peaceful route together.  And the first step is coming to Unity in how we are going to approach this matter.

For now, I Energetically support the Collective Consciousness of Humanity and when enough people get together in this way, believe me – you can see the changes starting to happen.

Energy Frequency Vibration

IMG_5587 (2)I first wrote about these words as a passionate, excited Neophyte who had finally reached a level of understanding about what they meant and how they would colour my life forever.   I wrote four articles in my Dance In Thunder blog and I’ve shared the link more than a few times in trying to help people who have recognised that they are travelling through the energy of Fear but don’t know how to escape.

I have moved forward on my Journey, have learned a little more about the path I am following, have a pretty good idea of the direction I am traveling and recognise that I probably have many years more learning to do as I head in that direction.  So I am not promising to have all the answers, but maybe my writings will give you food for thought and ideas in how to deal with the low frequency energies that often seem to follow people who are stepping out onto their personal Spiritual Journey.

For a while, these words were probably the thing my Friend and Teacher most spoke about.  We joked about getting them tattooed on my forearm so I’d never forget them, but it wasn’t until a time of strife and stress; a time of being bathed in low-frequency energies that I came to better understand the meaning.  I need to experience things in order to get to the deeper Truth, and this need has lead me into a life-time of disasters and dramas.  I’m sometimes slow on the uptake so the dramas tend to cycle around, but am now getting a whole lot better at recognising my Lessons and understanding those Truths as they appear at that time.  In the context of the disasters and dramas of my life this one was fairly easy to get under my belt, mainly because of a mental picture I was given by my Teacher and friend, Essence Ka tha’ras, and it is this which I want to share with you.

EVERYTHING IS ENERGY

EVERYTHING is energy.  You, your home, the clothes you wear, the food you eat, everything you see, feel touch, hear, smell, say, think.  It is all energy.  We all know that we are made up of trillions and trillions of atoms – all whirling around, looking like miniScreenshot (61) galaxies and producing….yep energy!  And between and within these atoms there is – as far as I know, (I’m no scientist, but I plan on learning more) – nothing!  Apparent emptiness.  These atoms and the emptiness between is the playground of Quantum Physics.  Those studying QP are slowly discovering the science behind the Shaman and the Healer and I find it fascinating that I have the opportunity to be here, in this lifetime, to be able to see this happening.  The first steps leading to a time where science and Spirit blend into one.  The medicine of the future.

Most of us say those words “Everything is Energy” or “I’m working on raising my Vibration” or similar, but they are just words really if you are still working consistently within lower-frequency energies and feeling the pull of Fear.  When you get a good solid handle on this you find that Fear really isn’t an issue any more.  Unless you are jumping out of a plane or on a roller-coaster or facing a tiger.  Then, your body has its own protective system and overcoming that is a whole different ball-game we can talk about another time.  It would be hard to avoid that kind of fear, but for now, I’m talking more about Spiritual fear.

Everything is energy, but all energy isn’t the same.  Energy vibrates.  It vibrates at different frequencies.  You can see this by looking at sine waves.  They measure the frequency of the vibrations.  Here is the bit that fascinates me – all the horrible stuff, the emotions such as anger, bigotry, fear, are energies that vibrate at a low speed.  I haven’t yet researched if I am right, but it seems to me that every low frequency energy devolves down to Fear.  If you are angry, and you look at your anger, you will find fear lurking behind it.  If you are racist – you fear those who are different so you react.  If you are a bully you fear that someone may be better than you, or different to you and because you don’t understand that, you lash out at that difference so that you can feel in charge again.  Worry and stress – Fear of what is to come or is currently happening.  We all hit that one at some point!

When you understand that anger and fear are low frequency energy, its very easy to work out what is high frequency – Love, Peace, Joy are right up there at the top.  When we talk about raising our vibration – this is what we are aiming for – the ability to consistently live in those high frequency energies.

And so I come to the mental picture I was given, and that has been so very helpful in maintaining a high frequency vibration within my energy.  Its very simple.  No complicated ceremonies, no magic, no smudging, no protection-raising.  All I am asking is that you imagine a ladder.

Screenshot (54)Yes.  A simple ladder.  Build it in your mind.  You can design your Energy Ladder however you want it to look.  A simple, traditional wooden ladder; a fancy one with ornate trellis up the sides; a golden staircase; whatever works for you.  No rules on your ladder design!!  But it needs lots of rungs, or steps.  Once you have your Energy Ladder firmly in your mind, we need to expand it out a bit.  Develop the top and the bottom – for any ladder this is important.  It needs to stand on something and lean against something.

This is the bit you need to get very firmly in your mind.  Each rung vibrates at a different frequency.  Low frequency at the bottom, high frequency at the top.  Its obvious really.  You don’t need to think too deeply about this but have a sort-of picture about the bottom, where the ladder is standing.  Mine, I describe simply as “Murk.”  It’s not an area I want to be in so I don’t spend a lot of time thinking about it, but I understand it’s there.  The top of my ladder is in pure bright light.  Again, it’s there, but its still a fair way above me and there is a lot about those energies that my human mind can’t comprehend, so I don’t try to understand.  It just is.  Someday, in some future lifetime or alternate dimension I may get there and although it’s unlikely to be this one, the thought is comforting.

Right at the bottom, in the murk is the lowest frequency rung.  In my mind this is Fear.  You may think a different emotion is the lowest – that’s fine.  It’s your ladder.  Above that, the next rung up may be Anger.  Whatever.  I’m sure you get the picture.  You are standing somewhere on the ladder.  You need to work this out for yourself.  I think of the Dalai Lama as somewhere near the top and I am nowhere near his level, so that gives me a guideline for where I am.

We have a picture of our Energy Ladder and where we stand on it. I am, in future articles, going to be referring again and again to your Energy Ladder as we explore the practical aspects of maintaining your higher frequency.  This mental picture is going to become something that will flash into your mind each time you come across something that worries you and each time that something happens to make you feel you can climb to a higher rung.

And here is the Golden Truth about your Energy Ladder

LOW FREQUENCY ENERGIES CANNOT CLIMB THE LADDER.

Think about it.  If you are, let’s say, 7 steps up your ladder and something happens that triggers anger in you, you have a choice.  You can become angry – in which case you will find yourself standing on the rung with that frequency.  On my ladder that would be the 2nd rung up.  In the murk!  I would have slipped down 5 rungs.  Alternatively I could look at that happening and tell myself, yep I could get myself good and angry, but what will that achieve?  Will making myself angry help?  Certainly in some cases, being good and angry can motivate you to achieve higher things, but only you know if that’s likely to be the case here, or if you are just getting angry for anger’s sake.  But guess what?  Anger cannot move up the ladder to you.  If that emotion tries to come to you, on your 7th step, it has to raise its frequency….. and in doing that, it means it is no longer Anger.

Have a think about how that works for Fear.

In future articles, I plan to explore things that crop up and look at how you can apply this Energy Ladder picture – and how you may be shooting yourself in the foot without even realising it!!  There are no promises about how frequent these articles may be – I have a complicated life – but to be honest, now you have your Energy Ladder – you have most of the tools you need!

In Lak’ech Ala K’in

Sue Thomson

Ki’An Healing

 

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