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Releasing the Old….

Those who travel the Spiritual realms say that “We need to release that which no longer serves”, although in our everyday human life we are more likely to say something like “out with the old, make room for the new” but how many of us actually take the time to understand what those words mean and to actually do something about it? 

I’ve often spoken of how we talk-the-talk but don’t understand the energy of the words we use; of how we have fallen into the habit of parroting phrases that sound good to us, but as with many of these so-called “New Age” phrases, we don’t often take the time to dig deep within ourselves to find out what it actually means, on an energetic level, to do those things. 

So, what is it that no longer serves? What does it mean?  I’ve seen and heard it being used by people when they really mean “Shut up about XYZ.  It’s done.  Get over it!”   And although that’s fairly extreme I also find that it can be used as an excuse similar to when you know that you need to clean the fridge but can’t be bothered just yet.  It’s a very wide-ranging term that is open to an almost infinite range of explanations.   

In the physical world for example, it’s likely to mean sorting out your wardrobe and getting rid of stuff that doesn’t fit any more or it could be the dancing Elvis doll you bought on a whim and is now cluttering up your bookshelf – or, yes, cleaning the fridge!  In your emotional world, it could mean leaving an abusive relationship or walking away from a virulent argument.  It could be leaving behind beliefs and memories that replay in your mind causing you to fall back into self-destructive energy.  And it is this last example that is most important to those of us who are working within the Spiritual realms, because these beliefs and memories have a tendency to cycle around and around simply because we haven’t dealt with them.  They are the very things that pull us down and cause it to be hard to maintain the highest energy frequency we can. 

I, like most other people, have things that have adversely affected me my whole life.  Those who have been following me for a while are probably aware that for most of my life I have stumbled from one drama to another and that over the past few years I have been actively working to deal with the energies of these dramas.  As I have worked through various things, I have come to realise that these are the very things that have gifted me with knowledge and wisdom, caring and the desire to be of assistance to the Collective.  I have been discovering that the dramas of my life are the very things that make me into the person I am becoming. 

Here’s an example.  I used to work in the corporate world.  A large company where I held a National Management position.  I left that world over 15 years ago, yet I still feel the anger, frustration and powerlessness of every Board meeting I attended – where the old-school-mates would leave a box of tissues at my place at the table because they knew that it was so very easy to wind me up until I burst into tears.  That they were tears of anger and frustration at being misunderstood in a predominantly male world, compounded by deep disappointment in self that I reacted that way, was no matter – the game was to make me cry.   

Even though I am no longer that person, and the anger and frustration is long gone, the memory remains.  The belief that I react this way to bullies was so ingrained that I didn’t actually think of it as a belief.  It was just me.  I didn’t even realise that the other people were being bullies.   I actually carried the energy of that memory with me over the years without even realising it, because it was such a part of ME that it had become something I rarely thought of – until I released that energy just the other day within a meditation session.  I had carried one perspective of that situation for all these years – that of the emotions I felt during those horribly embarrassing meetings.  In that meditation, I came to see another perspective where I could understand that although the actual hands-on work as that National Manager was right up my street, as a PTSD sufferer, I was ill-equipped for the aspects that involved confrontation.  The “what no longer served me” that I released was not only the memory pain of being bullied, embarrassed and emotional when pushed, but with it came the realisation that at that time in my life I was in a situation that was beyond me.  I forgave my overwhelming work colleagues and, most importantly, I forgave myself. 

A few weeks ago I, and the other Krones, logged off social media for a break from the energies – for “Spiritual Maintenance.” It was a much-needed time to reset beliefs – to release that which no longer serves and to confirm commitments to the work that we do.  I had a lot of difficulty in getting back to my groups and pages – the energies seemed stagnant.  It was time for a good close look at why.  My page, The Path to Ein Teri Y’h was about a long-held dream that seemed about to move from a dream into reality when covid reared its head and so many dreams fell into dust.  I had given that group a new name, tried to stir the energies back into some form of enthusiasm but it became so very obvious that this was one of those things that no longer served.  And so I released that Facebook group and it is being archived on 31st August, and by doing that I have given myself time.  Time to work on my blog, my podcast, the work of the International Koalition of Krones, my Helping You course and more.

When you release those old, long-held beliefs not only does it give you a feeling of dropping a heavy weight, it gives you room to move, to become creative.  To grow.  It gives you space, physically, emotionally and spiritually, to spread your wings, to learn how to fly in a new world.    

Gy’ Shé em
Flip the heaviness and Shine your Bling

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Growing-up

As a child and as a young adult you learn to make your way in the world.  You learn to see and to be seen.  You learn how to make your presence felt.  You learn how to argue and, very importantly, you learn how to forgive.

As I grew up I did not learn these things.  I learned that I was the pretty little ballet dancer, gifted by many things – reading and writing at just 2 years of age, playing the piano at 3.  I did not learn how to use my voice.  I learned to fade into the background.  I learned that my opinions and thoughts were not important.  I learned to be a shadow on the fringe.  Growing up, I knew I was loved but that made me even more confused – how could I be loved when I was on the outside looking in?  Even now my family still think I am the weird one.  The hippy.  Many of my generation understand what I am saying – at least those who are First Wave Blue Ray Indigo.  I could be writing their story.

See?  I’ve just underscored my weirdness in the eyes of many.

The thing is, the vast majority of people do learn these early life lessons.  It’s usually pretty intense during those teenage years as you start to spread your wings and grow towards the adult you are going to be.  But when you don’t get to grow in this way you either stultify and become the person you were trained to be or you find your own way to grow.  And that growth can be even more painful, especially as it generally last many, many more years and you don’t have the protective wings of family to support you as you grow.

And making even harder – I had absolutely no idea what it means to be empathic.  Very empathic.  For the first almost-60 years of my life I lived in a state of overwhelm.  I lived in a constant state of emotion, mainly fear, and had absolutely no way to express it.  I now suspect that a lot of the emotions that overwhelmed me were not even mine.

In life, everything seemed normal.  I fell in love, married, had a child, ran a successful business, emigrated and then lost my husband to cancer.  Then I remarried and subsequently moved through all sorts of drama.  I also suffered from undiagnosed PTSD, had a mental breakdown and had absolutely no idea how to deal with the wash of emotions that I couldn’t escape from. 

I have moved a long way from that younger Sue, and that too has brought about its own sets of drama.  I am not the person I was.  I am not the Sue that my family and friends of years gone by would recognise and as a result, most of the people I loved best have moved away.  They do not understand this new, stronger, Sue.  I had another mental breakdown in 2014 and the journey back from that has been difficult but it has also been such an amazing journey.  This is where my growth really took off.

Today I discovered just how far behind I have left that childhood Sue.  The one who watched from the outside, who couldn’t express herself, who burst into tears at the slightest emotional intensity.  Today, my husband visited me and told me he had found someone else.  It’s really strange, the very things that had driven a wedge between us – mainly my spiritual beliefs – are one of the things he admires in this new lady. 

Our separation is fairly new – at least it is from a legal standpoint – and recently we had a major blow-up.  The sort of thing that just a year ago would have had me bawling my eyes out and feeling totally distressed.  Instead I stood up and said what I thought.  I argued in a clear and concise way without a heap of emotion getting in the way.  Probably a first in my life!!!   Then I got down to doing the Energy work.  I meditated, lovingly removed cords, re-wrote our Sacred Contract, practised Ho’oponopono and it was obvious, even the day after the argument, that there was an improvement.  And today, just a couple of weeks after that event, when my husband told me he had met another person – I was genuinely happy for them both and deeply wish them well.  I felt the love and forgiveness wash through me and I knew that I had finally grown into the adult I was meant to be.

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