Posted in 2021

Controlling Empathy

All my life, for as long as I can remember, I have been overwhelmed.  For most of my life I believed it was because of my upbringing which was in a time when children could be seen, but most definitely were not to be heard.  It was confusing.  Adults and other children around me, made me feel befuddled. They made me fearful; they over-powered me with their very presence, with the noise that they made.  They were too active – too strong and I didn’t understand that it wasn’t their physical voice, or activity, or muscular strength that overpowered me – it was far stranger than that.  Some people could over-power me simply by looking at me and make me devolve into  tear-filled mess.

The noise that humans make hurts me.  Even now – in certain situations.  Not physically, it’s more of a mental disturbance.   It’s hard to describe, and as a child I had no means of reference to say that this pain which hurt my body and this pain which hurt my soul were any different.  I had no guidance to know that it wasn’t always physical noise that hurt.  Now I know that it is the chaotic, jumbled Energy noise that so many people put out, that can hurt so much.

Like many others, I had no-one to guide me, so I learnt avoidance.  I already knew how to disappear into the walls so that I couldn’t be seen but I also learned how to disappear into story books, how to travel to different realms.  My own way to describe it was to “go visit the Elephants”.  Basically I would leave my body and go where I felt safe.  On the open savannah with the elephants.  I would walk in their footsteps.    I have a guide, Emily, who is a big, blue, matriachal elephant.  I even have a painting of her on my wall.  She makes me feel safe.

I learned how not to be there even when my physical body was.  It was the only way I had at that time to control my environment.  When I got a bit older, I used food to control my environment.  I was anorexic.

That tentative control was violently ripped from me one day when I was caught up in riots. Now I understand that it wasn’t just the physical noise and violence of those riots, but the Energy of anger, fear, death; of dominance, destruction and hatred.  That Energy whirled around in a maelstrom of violence that I couldn’t handle.  For over 20 years after that event, I lived in fear of everything outside my front door.  I had zero control of everything that happened outside my front door.  It took that long for me to be diagnosed with PTSD.

Time moved on, I learned how to deal with the panic attacks that happened every day and especially whenever I went into a place where there were lots of people.  My need to escape the pain I felt was so great that I would become violent.  I’ve been thrown out of more that one McDonalds for going to thump someone who was simply talking loudly!

Time moved on, I learned coping strategies and life continued – and was even fulfilling at times.  Then, totally out of the blue, in the midst of a time when other dramas were playing out, I was accused of something I hadn’t done, something I hadn’t even been involved with and I was threatened with jail time.  My world was already very delicately poised, but with this threat it totally collapsed.  This was in August 2014.

In October 2014, I had what I call my Initial Spiritual Awakening Experience.  And in June the following year Essence Ka tha’ras came into my life.    There have been many times when I have stated that she saved my sanity and I am deadly serious about that.  Finally someone was able to explain to me what was happening. 

At 60 years of age I found out about Empathy.  Of course I knew about empathy as opposed to sympathy, but I didn’t know that empathy could also be an amalgam of our senses; a deeper sense. A response to the energies swirling about in the world around us.  I didn’t know that people are empathic in this way of sensing the energies around them.  I found out that I am Empathic – and that every other human on this planet has that ability to some degree or other.  If they are open to it – it’s a matter of sensitivity.  Most importantly, I learned that it overwhelms when you are not in control.  And I, most definitely, was not in control.  I finally discovered that all this pain and noise and overwhelm is because I am very sensitive to the energy of what is around me. 

Essence taught me that I can learn to take control.

That has probably been the most important part of my journey through this lifetime.  You really can’t learn to control how you perceive and receive the energy around you, until you learn about how Energy works and how to work with Energy.  You can’t just flick a switch – you have to learn about it.

The very first thing I needed to learn was how to stop seeing all this Energetic swirling as something to be feared.  Essence taught me that if I could learn to take control, instead of it controlling me, that this knowledge of the energy of the world around me could become my greatest gift for helping others.  I am driven to help others; and this could be an amazing tool but I had to change my mindset, my beliefs.  I’d had 60 years of fear and hiding from something that could be my greatest asset – but it wasn’t something that was going to be learned overnight. 

Essence got the ball rolling, but eventually my guides directed me to attend a weekly meditation circle in the town where I lived.  The people there were lovely.  Committed, helpful, caring – but the Energies they moved in were already too low a frequency for me to feel comfortable in and I wasn’t sufficiently experienced to be able to move through different frequencies without being affected.  I know that sounds like Ego – Hey, my frequency is higher than yours – but that is very definitely not the case.  It was simply that they worked in fields that operated in different frequencies than those I was starting to work in. I went there to learn skills I needed – primarily I needed to learn to trust what I Know.  To trust the Energy I was able to read.  How did I do this, I learned the art of psychometry. 

I was pretty hopeless with reading Energy off personal items such as jewellery, they feel inert to me, but my teacher would put a photograph in an envelope or face-down on the table and I would hover my hand over it, I wouldn’t touch it and I would attempt to ‘read’ the Energy I felt about whatever was in that photo that I couldn’t see.  I had to push myself out of my comfort zone and learn to say what came into my Knowing without doubting and second-guessing it.  Sometimes the things students would come out with when we did these exercises were hilarious or even ridiculous, but no-one ever made anyone else feel stupid.  We were all just having a go and I learned to relax and say whatever popped into my mind.  And surprisingly that information was uncannily accurate.

It was a good class.  Fun.  Great people.  And every single week for about 18 months, I left that class, got home and vomited.  Every single week after attending that class, I would spend hours throwing up. 

Now, to be fair,  I do have a number of food intolerances and vomiting isn’t really unusual for me when I eat certain natural food chemicals and so, week after week I thought it was something I was eating.  Until I was invited to visit the local Spiritual Church. 

I went into that church and immediately felt that really familiar draining of my Energy that I describe as ‘pain’.  This was a place of very low frequency and I was in a position of starting to be able to recognise and understand it.  When I had to rush out of that church in order to vomit, I knew exactly why I had been throwing up for the previous 18 months.  However lovely the people were in the class I had been attending, the Energy they were working in was too low for the frequencies I was learning to move within and when I mentioned this with my psychometry teacher, she confirmed that she too had recognised that I would soon be leaving to follow my own path.  This is a good way of understanding that you really can’t separate the physical from the spiritual.

During most of this time, I had lived in an apartment building with the most horrible, swirling, chaotic energy.  Next door was an even bigger apartment building that held energies that were even more intense.  It came to a point, when I had to move out.  I was the fourth successive manager of that building to have had a mental breakdown.  That’s how bad the Energy was there.  I amicably separated from my husband and moved to a town several hours away, but on the 1st January 2018 I found myself back in that building after getting a call for help in running the resort.  

Despite already having several years of learning to recognise and understand how to read the Energy and, at a basic level, how to work with it, I found myself just 8 days later, on the beach seeking a passive way to leave this life.  That’s how badly I was being affected by that energy of those buildings in just 8 short days.  I went into meditation and beseeched the Universe to either take me or to show me how to bring balance into my life. 

Balance is what I got.  I fell off the sea wall.  I had to be rescued by the fire service; had two stays in hospital and 4 1/2 hours of surgery pinning my leg back together.  When I came out of hospital I had to go back to that place of swirling, painful energy which had only become worse.  I had to spend 9 weeks in bed with my leg stuck in the air.  And I had to recognise that Energy and not allow it to take control of me once again.  I had to learn to choose how I worked with it. 

During those 9 weeks I was severely tested.  I don’t need to go into the details, but it was bad; it was hard.  And it was here that I came to understand that me being in control of the way I perceive and work with the energies around me, or of allowing these energies to control me as they had whilst I was younger was all about choice.  Choice and discernment.  I had the ability to choose how I saw, felt and reacted to the energies around me and in order to make that choice I had to be able to discern what was beneficial and what was not.   And believe me, not only then but in the three years since that accident, I have been severely challenged. 

Does this mean that I am now fully in control of my Empathic abilities.  Nope.  I think I will be learning and growing in this area for a long time yet.  What has happened is that I am learning to use that energy in the way that Essence told me I would be able to do.  I now view this ability as the true gift it is.  I use it to see my world as it is and not so much as it is presented.  I use it when I have a client – either for Reiki or drum healing or as a counsellor.  I use it within meditation for the benefit of the entire collective – and it’s impossible not to work with energy when working with Essence. 

One of the first things she taught me is that Everything is Energy, Frequency, Vibration.  It took me a while to get a really good handle on understanding that – but I think I’m pretty much getting there! 

Thank you.  Thank you for listening.  I hope the sharing of my journey helps you to better understand your journey and not to be overwhelmed by the fears of uncontrolled empathy.

Gy’ Shé em
Flip the heaviness and Shine your Bling

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The International Koalition of Krones (IKoK) is an international group of Spiritually Awakened Wise Women whose goal is to assist the Collective in it’s continued Spiritual Awakening & Consciousness Expansion Journey during this time on Earth referred to as “The Great Awakening”

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Posted in 2021

What’s the Point?

I am one of the Krones of the International Koalition of Krones. This is a Transcript of my talk on the IKoK Chat on June 4th, 2021.

You can find more information on the IKoK at the bottom of this blog.


In the last chat I delved a little deeper into how we deal with our problems, and I talked about the need to take action steps.   Today, I’m going to delve a bit deeper again.  This issue, of needing to take action steps,  is a fundamental  building tool that we are not using correctly and that is, in many ways, holding us back from being able to come together in a way that can highlight the future that we want to see this Collective moving towards.

On the 5th of May, people all around the world started 108 Days of Sacred Meditation, and the aim of that meditation is to create the necessary Metamorphosis for the Collective Consciousness of Humanity and to bring into existence the energy of its Bliss.

Metamorphosis is the changing of one thing into something totally different.  Think of a caterpillar changing into a butterfly.  At the moment we, the Collective, we are the caterpillar and all we are thinking of is satisfying our needs.  What we, as individuals, want.

And what IS our Bliss?  What is it that we, the Collective Consciousness of Humanity are really seeking for the future of our species?  I know I have my ideas, as an individual, of what I want to future to look like, but I am only one tiny little thread of the Collective.  I can easily envisage how I want it to look for the next 10 years or so – after that it gets a bit tricky.  And when we stretch it out, like, 50 years…   Well, I pretty much expect to be pushing up daisies by then, so do I need to worry about that? 

Well.  Yes I do.  For several reasons. 


First:  How I act upon the choices I make today, will affect those who are living when I – in this human body, are not living any more.


Second:  And this is going to upset a lot of Starseed who think they are finished with this human life and are ‘going home’ when they exit this world.  Wrong.  The only thing that we are finished with is the work we first came here to do.  That’s where that strong feeling of finalising comes from.  It’s the Work that’s been completed.  The planet is now at a sufficiently high level that the Energy can support the Great Awakening that is happening.  We’ve done that job BUT we have more work to do.  You know that just by looking around you.  We are not at the end-game yet and we WILL be back.  Think about how you want the world to look when you do come back.  In 50 years.  A hundred years.  A thousand years!  If we make bad choices now, we don’t get to escape the consequences!


Third:  We are all ONE.  We have a habit of just saying those words without feeling right into what they mean; without understanding the depth and the emotion and the Energy.  We ARE all One.  We are fractal parts of each other and of Source.  What we do to each other we do to our Self.  If we don’t make the right choices, we will hurt other people, other beings – and that means we are hurting our own Self.  That’s a tricky one to get your head around, I know.  But it is Truth.

I’m going to take a little sidestep here.  We’ll get back to that lot at another time, but right now I want to stop and have a think about the choices that we ARE making right now.  Choices as individuals.  Choices pertaining to the stuff I’ve been talking about for the last couple of chats.  I’m going to step right into the physical side of our lives. 

A month or so ago my guides gave me a nudge to go check a French Philosopher called Rene Descartes.  I’m sure a lot of you have heard of him.  I’d heard the name, but knew nothing of him.  The thing that my guides were sending me to look at was that he is the chappie who is responsible for our current medical point of view.  He decided that he was going to prove the existence of God and along the way he worked out – erroneously in my mind – that the physical and the spiritual aspects of a human can actually survive independent of each other.  Hmmm… 

The upshot is that medicine started to view the human body as a mechanical system.  The soul / spirit / mind had nothing to do with the mechanics of the human body.  And over time we were taught that we cannot heal our own bodies, we need the equivalent of a car mechanic;  that we need the aid of doctors and drugs.  And you know what?  There are lots of instances where that is totally correct,  we do need our modern medical knowledge and expertise, but the problem is that we have come to a situation where when we are unwell, we visit a doctor and we ‘hand over’ our symptoms. We give the doctor a list – verbally, written, however – of all the things we are experiencing – our symptoms – and we look to the doctor to fix it.  We abdicate responsibility for our ill health.  We don’t recognise and acknowledge that the dis-ease could be something of OUR making – maybe our food choices or lack of exercise or allowing stress to get out of control. Whatever it is, we go to the doctors to get it all sorted out.

We get a diagnosis and usually a script for medication.  Again, nothing wrong with that when needed, but the problem is that we have generally abdicated responsibility for our Self.  And when we include our Spiritual Self – because we now know that the physical body and the spiritual body are not separate, we find again so many people who are unwell, who ask for Energy Healing, for prayers, and are expecting the results to be just like a doctor visit.  They ask for help and lots of people do send healing energy and prayers, and that is lovely – but what are the people receiving this energy doing on their end?  Are they taking action steps to fix the situation that has come about; or are they waiting for that energy to flow over and through them and fix all the problems without them having to do the hard yakka.

In the last chat I spoke of how I used the Energy that was shared with me when I was seriously ill.  I outlined the Action Steps I took.  I talked of how I took strength from the care of those people around me and I mentioned that none of that Energy was given in a way that is considered as Spiritual Healing Energy.  But Energy is simply energy, whatever it’s source.  It was the practical care of doctors, physios, chiropractors; the people I worked with; family; friends and strangers that I received.

I mentioned how I had a choice:  I could use that Energy to accept my illness, to accept that wheelchair.  I could have ignored and negated all the energy and assistance given to me and slumped into despondency and depression – and still ended up in that wheelchair.  I could have taken that energy and done nothing with it; expected it to fix my illness in the manner of a miracle – and then perhaps got angry, and despondent and depressed because it didn’t work.  But I chose differently and it was that choice that has lead me, directly, to being here talking with you.

I’m going to tell you another story.  When my first husband died, a lot of people helped me.  On the day of his funeral we heard of a group of thieves who were breaking in to the homes of the bereaved whilst they were at the funeral.  One of my sister in laws got on the phone to a friend and asked her to house sit whilst we were all out.  No problems – let me just get someone to collect my son from school.  I later heard that the person collecting the boy had to also change some appointments in order to help and that, of course, affected the people the appointments were with.  There was a domino effect of people helping people.  And those people two or three times removed, had no idea that they were, ultimately, helping with my safety and the protection of my home.  They didn’t know me at all.  People Helping People

I want you to now widen your horizon and think about the people who are sending that energy to those who request it.  They are everyday people with everyday problems just like you and I.  People Helping People.  People who are struggling themselves, and still helping other people.  Wouldn’t it be nice if that could circle around and that those people giving help, could also be helped.  Well they can.  And this is where you come in.

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Action Steps.  I’m talking, of course, about action steps.  We have to take them.  Energy is just Energy.  Think about electricity  and your coffee maker.  The electricity is just sitting there until you take the action step and turn the machine on.  And that’s when magic happens.  And what we are going to do.  I want you to be the switch that allow the energy to flow.  Take the action steps right where you are in YOUR community.  Give some of your energy – not a spiritually energetic way but rather in a physical way – go volunteer your time and energy somewhere where it is needed.  Be someone who helps someone.  There are always organisations who cry out for volunteers.  My own town – there is a very dedicated and small group of people who are seen everywhere – because there is need for volunteers and not enough people who are willing to share their energy. 

And it’s not just helping people that needs to happen.  Animals need that help.  And so does our countryside.  Yesterday, I was cycling home along the path that runs next to the ocean.  Wedged in a low branch on one of the trees was two plastic bottles.  A human had placed them there.  A human that obviously couldn’t take the rubbish home them or put it in the rubbish bin that was about 20 paces away.  What they thought would happen is beyond me.  It blows my mind to think that humans are so lazy and dirty and uncaring.  Don’t be a human that causes damage or inflicts pain.  Be a human that looks after the place we live. 

People helping people.

People helping animals.
People helping our environment.
People helping…….

Physically, Practically, Purposefully.


This is the first step to healing our reality.

This is the 1/66 Dual Frequency I AM Keyword Phrase in action.  Let me refresh your memory:

I AM Physical Form Perfected.

I AM Somatic and Psychic Dis-ease, Experienced and Acknowledged.

I AM Healed.

Now, have a think about that, not as “me,” the individual, but as Me: One with our species, our planet.  Me: Gaia.

If we, as a Collective, as people, as a species, can’t undergo that metamorphoses, and take the action steps we need in order to change from a caterpillar to a butterfly, if we can’t make the leap into doing the physical work we need to do to make the change, well, what’s the point?  Why carry on?  We might as well just pack up our bags right now. 

OM AkarapariNAma Anandaham


The International Koalition of Krones (IKoK) is an international group of Spiritually Awakened Wise Women whose goal is to assist the Collective in it’s continued Spiritual Awakening & Consciousness Expansion Journey during this time on Earth referred to as “The Great Awakening”

The Founder of the IKoK, Essence Ka tha’ras, is, amongst many other things, a Master Metatronic Numerologist. If you wish to explore her work, and the work of the IKoK, there are links below.

There are also You Tube and Soundcloud links to the full IKoK Chat if you wish to know more about the work we do.

Please feel free to share this blog. I only ask that you share it in it’s entirety and not just snippets. You can also share the memes on the following page: Memes and Other Stuff

Posted in 2021

The Value of Community Action

I am one of the Krones of the International Koalition of Krones. This is a Transcript of my talk on the IKoK Chat on May, 21st, 2021.

You can find more information on the IKoK at the bottom of this blog.


Photo by Mike Erskine on Unsplash

In the last chat I spoke about the 1/66 Dual Frequency I AM Keyword phrase and its impact on me, personally.  I spoke of how I had to dig deep into the Energy and the Meaning of that Keyword phrase in order to fully understand how It could aid me.  I spoke of how I understood that this was work that I had to do.  How I knew it was work for me not only on a personal level, but for me as an individual aspect of the Collective and the work I do on behalf of the entire Collective Consciousness of Humanity and beyond. 

Last week I focused mainly on the work I needed to do for me as an individual.  Today, I am going to talk again about that work, but I’m also going to be speaking of how we can use this to aid, not just an individual, but the entire Collective.  I’m not talking just Humans, I’m talking about ALL Beings; I’m talking about how we can utilise the Energy of Healing, and how we can do this work of healing for all on this planet. 

In this life time, I’ve only been on my conscious spiritual journey for a little under 7 years – not long in the grand scheme of things so I don’t know how the Physical and the Spiritual came together – worked together – in those earlier times, but if I look back to that hippy era, there seems to have been a ‘togetherness’ that appears to be lacking right now.  What I do know and am very aware of is that in these recent years we have been highly focussed on the Spiritual aspect of our current growth and that’s fine, things cycle around.  Now it’s time to bring things back into balance and regain that knowledge that you really can’t separate the physical from the spiritual.

In the last chat I mentioned one of the health issues I have had to deal with for many years – chronic pain.  I spoke of my doctor’s recommendation that I use a wheelchair and my decision not to accept that future for myself.  I spoke of the choice I made, but I didn’t go into any depth regarding how I actioned that choice and I didn’t talk about the steps I took to ensure better physical health. 

“Actioned” the choice.   “Steps” I took.

I, like you, am an individual part of the Collective.  I’m one of the threads in the Tapestry of Life, just like you are.  What I do affects the Collective.  What YOU do also affects the Collective.  If, at that point in my life, when the doctors told me I needed to accept that wheelchair, if at that time, I had simply asked people to pray for me, to send energy – as so many people do when life is difficult –   if that was all I had relied on, I probably wouldn’t be alive today.  I personally know people who have died because they relied purely on that energy healing. 

I’m not saying it doesn’t help – one of my main skills is distance healing.  Science has proven through Quantum Entanglement that energy really does move in that way – from one point on the globe to another point on the globe, and that some people are proficient in actioning that. But you, as Starseed, Lightworker or whatever you want to call yourself, you can send all the Loving, Healing Energy you want, but it won’t help in the recipient’s physical world unless the action steps are also undertaken.  And if that doesn’t happen, if Action Steps are never taken…  Well, what’s the point?  We might as well pack up and give up on the human race.

So let’s delve a bit deeper about Action Steps, and we can use my experience as an example.  I was supported by many people – doctors, physios, chiropractors, family, friends….  And all that supportive energy could just as easily have been channelled into supporting me into accepting my limitations, accepting that wheelchair and the inevitable worsening of my condition.  That energy was being caringly given, and it was being gratefully received, but if I had sat there and waited for that Energy to do the work for me, nothing would have been achieved.

How I did use that supportive energy was to quit my job; to move to a place that is more energetically suited to me – next to the ocean.  And I started to learn to move again.   It was hard.  It was very hard.  It pushed me out of my comfort zone, every day – many times a day.  I started with getting out of my chair and walking across the room.  It took me four months to be able to walk to the lift, across the lobby, out of the door, across the road and onto the beach.  About 500 meters.  1/4 of a mile.  Then I would rest on the sand for a couple of hours and then start the long journey back.  It took me over two years to wean myself off all the drugs.  And all the time I was receiving caring, supportive Energy. 

If I hadn’t had people around me supporting me energetically, could I have found the strength I needed to take those action steps? If I was doing it on my own? Probably not.  That Energy, that wasn’t given in a Spiritual way, through meditation or distance healing or Reiki, it was simply people caring and helping.  And it was essential, but it would have been useless if I hadn’t used that support to take the action steps that I did. 

There’s a synergy at play.  It’s a synergy that we seem to be losing touch with.  Especially during this last year or so where we have been so isolated from each other.  That synergy is brought into play by the community supporting the action steps needed to bring about the desired result.  And that synergy is what we need to start to focus on in order to bring about Collective Healing. 

There are many Starseeds who ask why they are here.  What their role is.  What work are they here to do.  Here is the answer.

The Collective.  Individuals form the Collective.  Individuals form the Community you live and work within.  You are a member of your community; you are an aspect of the Collective.   Yes, these are just words and it doesn’t matter which word you prefer.  What it means is that you are a part of the energy source for your community and you are a part of the needed action steps  to bring that healing energy into the physical world.  How do we do that?  We do what we are here to do as Starseed – we help our community and not just Energetically.  We give service to our community. Physical service.  Our work is Community Service.

There are many ways that you can be involved in community service, but I tell you now – this is work that involves the very survival of your community and many of the individuals within it.  And I tell you this too – when the survival of a community is at risk, so too is the survival of the species.  This is grass-roots work.  Let me give you some examples.

I know a lady who has given her life to Community Service.  She’s an awesome person and one of the things she does is to organise the Meals on Wheels service within my community.  Without this work that she does, many elderly people would have no outside contact with the world, wouldn’t get a proper meal.  No-one would know if they fell over and broke their hip.  Her work provides a lifeline for these people.  She could sit under a tree and Spiritually send healing energy to the elderly of our town, and that would be good but that wouldn’t feed them or make sure that they are actually still alive, and well.  That synergy of the Energy given and the action steps taken is essential.

And it works both ways.  I work within Community Service.  All my work is voluntary.  Some of it I actually get paid for in a round-about way.  I’m technically unemployed, but at almost 66 years old, I’m not going to be able to get a paid job, so I do community service instead of competing with the younger ones for work.  Our Government supports this for our older community who are not yet old enough to retire, but are unlikely to be offered, or physically able to undertake full time work.  But, and it’s a big but, If I didn’t do this volunteer work, I wouldn’t get unemployment benefits.  Without that, I’d be without a home.  Or food.  I’d be destitute.  My giving of energy spiritually and physically – and my taking action steps within my community, is what ensures my personal survival. 

Again it’s about choice.  I can choose to sit under a tree, go into meditation and concentrate on sending Energy to help someone. And I do do that.  Then I can go home, make a coffee and feel good about myself.  But have I really helped that person?  Does sending all the love and healing energy in the world help the physical reality of that person?  I’d really like you to think about that question.  And then think about what you can do to change it.  What action steps do you need to take to bring about that synergy in your community.

So where do you start to bring that change into the world?  That change that we all desire so much.  You start right where you are. You take action steps within YOUR community.  A bit like ‘paying it forward.’  I’ll talk more on this in the next chat.   By you taking action steps within your community you are anchoring the 5 frequency not only into your community but also into the planet.  The 5 Frequency is a neutral charge – a grounding frequency.  It is about having the courage to step out beyond our comfort zone.  And that is what our work is all about – pushing the boundaries that say we have to do things in a certain way; it looks for positive change, looks for what else out there might be true, and teaches the right use of free will.

You cannot separate the physical from the spiritual. You need to tattoo that on your arm so you can’t forget it.  We are human.  And although our Spirit isn’t confined within our physical body, it is tied to it for this lifetime reality.  We cannot separate them and remain alive in this reality. 

Energy and Action – that is the synergy we need to make the changes and the choices we, as a Collective, need to make in order to heal and to move into a better future.

OM AkarapariNAma Anandaham


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Posted in 2019

Growing-up

As a child and as a young adult you learn to make your way in the world.  You learn to see and to be seen.  You learn how to make your presence felt.  You learn how to argue and, very importantly, you learn how to forgive.

As I grew up I did not learn these things.  I learned that I was the pretty little ballet dancer, gifted by many things – reading and writing at just 2 years of age, playing the piano at 3.  I did not learn how to use my voice.  I learned to fade into the background.  I learned that my opinions and thoughts were not important.  I learned to be a shadow on the fringe.  Growing up, I knew I was loved but that made me even more confused – how could I be loved when I was on the outside looking in?  Even now my family still think I am the weird one.  The hippy.  Many of my generation understand what I am saying – at least those who are First Wave Blue Ray Indigo.  I could be writing their story.

See?  I’ve just underscored my weirdness in the eyes of many.

The thing is, the vast majority of people do learn these early life lessons.  It’s usually pretty intense during those teenage years as you start to spread your wings and grow towards the adult you are going to be.  But when you don’t get to grow in this way you either stultify and become the person you were trained to be or you find your own way to grow.  And that growth can be even more painful, especially as it generally last many, many more years and you don’t have the protective wings of family to support you as you grow.

And making even harder – I had absolutely no idea what it means to be empathic.  Very empathic.  For the first almost-60 years of my life I lived in a state of overwhelm.  I lived in a constant state of emotion, mainly fear, and had absolutely no way to express it.  I now suspect that a lot of the emotions that overwhelmed me were not even mine.

In life, everything seemed normal.  I fell in love, married, had a child, ran a successful business, emigrated and then lost my husband to cancer.  Then I remarried and subsequently moved through all sorts of drama.  I also suffered from undiagnosed PTSD, had a mental breakdown and had absolutely no idea how to deal with the wash of emotions that I couldn’t escape from. 

I have moved a long way from that younger Sue, and that too has brought about its own sets of drama.  I am not the person I was.  I am not the Sue that my family and friends of years gone by would recognise and as a result, most of the people I loved best have moved away.  They do not understand this new, stronger, Sue.  I had another mental breakdown in 2014 and the journey back from that has been difficult but it has also been such an amazing journey.  This is where my growth really took off.

Today I discovered just how far behind I have left that childhood Sue.  The one who watched from the outside, who couldn’t express herself, who burst into tears at the slightest emotional intensity.  Today, my husband visited me and told me he had found someone else.  It’s really strange, the very things that had driven a wedge between us – mainly my spiritual beliefs – are one of the things he admires in this new lady. 

Our separation is fairly new – at least it is from a legal standpoint – and recently we had a major blow-up.  The sort of thing that just a year ago would have had me bawling my eyes out and feeling totally distressed.  Instead I stood up and said what I thought.  I argued in a clear and concise way without a heap of emotion getting in the way.  Probably a first in my life!!!   Then I got down to doing the Energy work.  I meditated, lovingly removed cords, re-wrote our Sacred Contract, practised Ho’oponopono and it was obvious, even the day after the argument, that there was an improvement.  And today, just a couple of weeks after that event, when my husband told me he had met another person – I was genuinely happy for them both and deeply wish them well.  I felt the love and forgiveness wash through me and I knew that I had finally grown into the adult I was meant to be.