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More about Ego

When we wonder what it is like to fly like a bird, and we have that weird thought of base jumping off a cliff or free-falling out of an airplane in order to find out what it feels like, what is it in our mind or soul that tells us that that action might just be not in our best interest? 

My way of understanding this is that the idea of ego and spirit-self are a bit like the cartoon angel and devil that stand on your shoulders, each offering different perspectives of whatever you are considering.

Ego, to me, is the equivalent of the cartoon devil-aspect although not evil at all.  In fact, ego is rather essential.  Ego is the aspect of Self that stops us doing things that can cause us harm.  That’s actually what its job is.  It is that aspect of Self that reminds us that we really do need to have a shower, get dressed and maybe eat breakfast if we are going to get through the day.  It’s the aspect of Self that reminds us that however late we are for work, running across the road in the middle of peak traffic is a totally crazy idea. The reason that I equate ego with the devil-aspect is because ego can get too big for its own boots! 

We are here, on this planet to experience what it is to be human, and ego is the very part of us that warns us that some experiences are really not worth the risk.  It’s an important job, and sometimes our ego can get too puffed up with the responsibility and then it has a tendency to overstep the mark!

The problem is, ego works with limited knowledge.  Its knowledge base is all about keeping your human body safe.  It’s a job that’s often not very exciting, and relying on common sense, really doesn’t use a whole lot of brain power.

The other aspect, the cartoon angel sitting on our other shoulder, represents our Spirit self, which is able to access a higher level of our mind’s abilities, and it does so at such a rapid pace, that the result is what we term ‘instinctual’.  In other words, we can instinctually Know something without obviously understanding how we know.  Information is accessed and processed too fast and too accurately for ego to understand and, not understanding of the processes, can lead to distrust and even fear.  Distrust and fear trigger the survival response and keeping our human body alive and in good working order is exactly what ego is about.

We are trained, right from our earliest years, to depend upon this limiting function.  We are taught to trust the things we can easily see or explain, but to distrust that which is different, unknown or unusual.  That training, in some situations, can be lifesaving.  In others, it can be the anchor that holds you back from achieving your potential.

As I dig into this, I am on the edge of seeing through the protective sphere of my ego and into the deeper self.  The deeper self, the Spirit Self and its intuitive leaps and Knowing, is what allows us to understand and grasp, that we are all – every single Being, every blade of grass, droplet of water or particle of dust – from the same source. 

And that thought can be too big for ego to comfortably comprehend.   

That is why we have to take conscious control.  It’s ego’s job to protect us from our more idiotic ideas, from what is fearful – and something that is too big to be able to explain is often something to be fearful of.  We have to take control of ego if we want to delve into that deeper understanding – if we want to strive for Enlightenment.

Ego tries to be all things; to stretch itself beyond what it is designed to do:  which is to protect the human self from exceeding what ego understands – and it tries to protect those around us that we perceive may also need help and protection, or knowledge.  It is ego that tells us that we are the one to be able to help: that we hold the knowledge and the skills – but do we?  Could our over-zealous ego be convincing us that we are the Master when really we are the student?

Is this the ‘devil’ or the ‘angel’ standing on your shoulder?  

“No, don’t jump off that cliff to see if you can fly.  You know you can’t so don’t be an idiot.” 

And is this the ‘angel’ or the ‘devil’ standing on your shoulder? 

“Of course you can fix that other person’s problem – it’s not going to cause you physical harm by trying and you do believe you have all the skills…..”    

And what about this? Could this be ego?

I read a great book, it changed my life and now I want to use that knowledge to help other people.

This is why an out of control ego can be dangerous, and this is how ego gets too big for its boots.   Interesting – hmm? 

It’s very muddied I know, but it seems at this point that balancing ego, acting consciously and understanding its role and its essential limitations, is the place we must be in order to deeply explore the spirit self and our connection to all there is. 

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Love, Light and Other Fluff

I’m sure you’ve worked it out by now that the way in which humans communicate with each other is something that I’m pretty intrigued with.  I wouldn’t go so far as to say that I am passionate about it, and I’m certainly no expert in language use, but I have been writing and talking about the Energy of words and the way that we communicate by using them, for years – specifically about how those who consider themselves to be Spiritual: Lightworkers, Starseeds, or whatever other name you prefer – and about how they communicate and interact with each other. 

I’ve spoken many times about the Energy held within everyday words and how when those words are not spoken in the highest sense, how that Energy can personally affect YOU, how the words that you use can pull you down; how they can limit your potential to excel.  To grow.  And this effect is not just in the spiritual realms – it also affects everyday life. 

I spoke on this topic again in the International Koalition of Krones Zoom Chat on 13th November 2020, but that time it was about how our word choices, and the syntax and cadence that we use, can actually cause Energetic Harm to others – and that harm can even happen unintentionally because we are careless and we speak without consideration of the meaning and the effects of certain words.

Humans are poised to evolve.

It’s not the first time we’ve changed and grown, and it probably won’t be the last time.  But this time?  This time we get the opportunity to consciously choose which direction, which timeline, we will travel.  We get to choose what we want it to look like.  And that choice happens through the Energy held by the majority of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity.

There is so much opportunity right now, at this point in linear time, at this crux-point we are currently in.  So much opportunity to make the right choice.  We know this.  In our physical world it is so obvious.  We are at a place in our reality where humans are able to make a choice about the future of humanity; a choice about which path we are going to choose – and that choice will eventually affect the future of all Beings on this planet, not just humans, but every Being on Earth.  And because we are choosing OUR future, and because humanity WILL go Galactic in that future, our choices now will affect so much that lies way beyond this place we call home.  The choices we are making right now, both individually and collectively, are so important because they will affect everything for the next 13,000 years. 

And the only way that we can work out what those choices should look like is to communicate with each other.  And to be quite honest, I think we are doing a pretty rotten job.  Those who promote the fear and anger that has been sweeping this planet for so many years and which has become extreme in the last few months – they are talking the loudest.  Their words don’t always make sense, but they say it loudly and with conviction.  And humans have a history of listening to those who talk the loudest, regardless of whether what they are saying is Truth or not.

Communication is the first stage of the Conscious Evolution of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity. 

Starseed and Lightworkers are here at this point in linear time to maintain the Energy, to hold space so that humanity can grow and work things out in the way that they most desire as a Collective.  Everyone on this path should be really aware of the words they use and how they use them.  We are responsible for consciously leading the way into clear communication. We hold the Energy and we absolutely must do everything we can to hold it at the highest frequency we can. 

And that leads me into something I want to talk about – about how we, the Spiritual Community, especially in the Western world, have taken Sacred words and Blessings, often from other cultures, and made them into everyday phrases. 

I want to talk about how we, the Spiritual Community, use words of great Power in exactly the same way as we yell “Bye, see ya later.”  I want to discuss how we finish an email, not with ‘Best wishes,” or ‘Yours faithfully,’ but with a Sacred Blessing.  And there is nothing wrong with that, nothing wrong with that at all provided that Blessing is given consciously and with knowledge.

We, especially those of us within a Western society have appropriated Sacred Words from other cultures and we’ve bastardised them.  When we are writing a salutation at the end of a letter or a post, most of us wouldn’t dream of using the words “ By the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ and the love of God…” So why do we use “Namaste”?

I’m guilty.  I’m guilty of using such words without, each time, considering the deeper meaning of the words I’m using.

So let’s think about the meaning of that word – Namaste.  I Bow to You.  On the surface it seems like a pretty good salutation and nowadays, it’s mainly that way, but let’s dig a bit deeper.  I Bow to You.  It means that you hold deep respect for the other person.  That you know them, that you honour them and that you also understand, because we are all One, that in honouring and respecting them you too are being honoured and respected.  How often, when you use that word, do you take time to think of the acknowledgement you are making in understanding one of the deeper Truths of the Universe?

Then again, the Oxford English Dictionary simply says that it means “Hello.”

Food for thought.

Another Sacred phrase that we use incorrectly, also stolen from another culture – in this case the Mayan – is “In Lak’ech ala kin”   Now I do know a number of people who do use this phrase in full awareness of the deeper meaning of the words, and I don’t see it over used in the same way as Namaste has been.  And that is a good thing. In Lak’ech literally means “I am another you.” Like Namaste this phrase is talking of the deeper Truths of the Universe – I don’t exist without you and you don’t exist without me.  If you were not here, I wouldn’t be here either – and thinking about that can take you on a very long, and interesting journey seeking that deeper knowledge.

When I was first starting out on my Spiritual journey, when I first heard of that phrase and it’s meaning, I thought it was really cool and I used it all over.  Until I started to delve into that deeper meaning and realised my casual use was both disrespectful to the culture and to the deeper truth of the words.

And that brings me to the final phrase I want to discuss today.  A phrase that is so mis-used and over-used that just to hear it makes my toes curl!  It no longer carries the Energy it should.  That it once did.

But first, before I tell you what this phrase is, I’ll tell you what it means to me.  My interpretation.

I am the Light of Creation. 

I am the light first seen at the beginning of the linear time of our reality. 

I draw that light into my Being so that I can be a beacon to guide and aid those who struggle in darkness.

I humbly bring that Light into the Service of All.  

I am merely a conduit. 

A conduit in Service to the Energy and Knowledge of the Universe. 

I Bless you with the frequencies of Creation and Wisdom and Love. 

When I say this, my interpretation of this phrase, I feel the Energy.  I feel it building in my hands and my heart, in all my Chakras.  I feel the Energy of being in Service, I feel humbled and I feel the commitment I have made to this Journey, to the Collective.  And when all that Energy, all that is bundled, mainly without thought, into  “Love and Light” delivered in an off-hand, throw-away manner, is it any wonder that I cringe?

Now, don’t misunderstand me – I’m not in anyway saying that there is anything wrong in using those phrases.  There is nothing wrong with using Namaste, In Lak’ech, Love and Light, Gy’ Shé em, KaRa Ounz Chez Prana, OM AkArapariNAma Anadaham and more.  But please, feel the power of the words.  Understand the depth of the words.  Feel the Blessing within the words.  And then use them in Honour of the Knowledge and the Wisdom and the Power of these phrases.

We who are Starseed, Lightworkers or whatever other term you prefer, we are the ones who should be leading the way for the Conscious Evolution of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity.  And the first step is to become aware of the power that we hold in the words that we use.  And we should use them wisely.  Yes, we all stumble and make mistakes, we speak through a human filter but we have also become complacent. We are de-sensitised.  We are losing the deeper Truths, the deeper knowledge and wisdom in favour of fluff.

Gy Shé em

Auri’An

International Koalition of Krones

This blog post is an extract from the Zoom Chat held by the International Koalition of Krones on 13th November 2020. You can access the recording here.

Are You Spiritually Cutting Corners?

I’ve been observing people on this Spiritual path for some time now and there a few things that have become obvious as areas that are being missed by the vast majority of people who consider themselves to be Starseed or Lightworker.  These are the things I want to start with and as you read this, I hope you will start to understand how interconnected they all are.

There’s a reason that we use terminology such as “being on a Journey” or “following a Spiritual Path” and that reason is that you start with a single step, which is taken in Faith because you simply have no idea where you are going at that time.  You have no idea whether you are following the Path correctly or not, nor do you understand that even if you are following the right path, it is likely to be the hardest work you will ever do.  So you keep taking steps, sometimes forward, sometimes backwards; hopefully growing in knowledge and understanding. 

In the past you would have been taught by a Master who understands the Neophyte and where he or she is on that Path. This Master would be able to gently guide the student until he or she is able see where the path is leading, and to have the knowledge and wisdom to be able to step out by themselves.  This is a system that has worked for millennia.  Master guiding Neophyte and making sure that the Neophyte doesn’t get to see the next part of the journey until the current path is completed and fully understood.

Right now there are very few Masters and there are many, many Neophytes.  There are many Neophytes who think they are Teachers or even Masters.  Many of them.  For the Neophytes – and especially for Newbies on the Path – it is utterly confusing.  Who do you trust?  Who do you believe has the correct information?  Inevitably, because the Newbie and the Neophyte lack knowledge, there is a tendency to follow those who are charismatic – but not necessarily a Master.  And there lies Danger.

Nowadays we have social media  It seems to have taken the place of the Master, and the problem with social media and a Spiritual Path is firstly, that very few people get to be taught by a true Master and secondly, you get to see the terrain ahead.  You get to see other people who are on a similar journey. You get to swap ideas and knowledge with people who are, most likely, as untrained as yourself.  You get addicted to some topics – and they may not be the ones you came here to work with.   You take them on board and then you take a running jump to where you think the path is going to go.  Then, because you don’t have a Master to guide you, you cut corners in your spiritual education.  That means you don’t possess the tools to be discerning about certain information.  You can get caught in traps because something feels right but when you dig deep you may find that it is actually set up to ensnare the unwary.  This is happening a lot right now and you don’t have a Master to guide you to understanding where the traps are.

There are a lot of people out there in social media world who believe they are Teachers, Spiritual Leaders, Masters even – when, because of those cut-corners, they are really still at Neophyte level.  They simply do not have the solid knowledge, but their passion and their enthusiasm to share what they do know – which is not necessarily complete or even correct – is very strong.  Ego often steps in here.  I know.   I went through it.

When you cut those corners in your spiritual education, you can get tied-up with something that another Neophyte has told you and which you believe is true.  But that Neophyte may have also been mis-informed or mislead by their teacher who most likely also wasn’t a Master.  You can get side-tracked, mislead, go down rabbit-holes and all because you haven’t got the basic building blocks. 

So – I want to look at some of those building blocks.  Now, when I said that did your eyes roll?  Did you think Oh No – not again.  I know all the basic stuff.  I’m past that.  If you did – even for a moment, however advanced you think you are – then you REALLY need to listen to this because even if you’ve heard it before – you need to re-learn it.  You need to learn to LIVE it. 

First.  We’ve been talking a fair bit about the power of words.  Especially words such as ‘God’ and the Energy that is carried in this word.  This is very important information but it’s highly likely that learning about the Energy of the everyday words you unconsciously use is one of those leaps down the path I spoke of earlier. 

We know that words such as God carry powerful Energy – and not always for the good, but have you looked at the words you use everyday.  Do you consider them on a conscious level from a spiritual perspective?  We Krones tell you that you can’t separate the physical from the spiritual and your everyday word usage is a prime example of that statement and something you should work on from a conscious level from time to time. 

How often do you swear?  How often do you say Shit or OMG or fuck or worse? Yes – we all swear – we are human after all – but do you know how often you say ‘fuck’?  I know lots of people who say it roughly every 3rd or 4th word!!  It’s not uncommon.

And what about the H word?  Hate.  Think about that one. 

  • I hate my wrinkles
  • I hate cauliflower
  • I hate that kid down the street

Can you feel it?  The Energy?  Hardly uplifting is it?  And what about when you add in the F-bomb?

  • I fucking hate my fucking job
  • I hate the fucking rain
  • I hate never having any fucking money

Hmmm….  We all talk about keeping your Energy high; raising your vibration.  But – how does that happen when you keep introducing low frequency energy simply by talking?

What about how we have a habit of personal depreciation.

This one is something I have a habit of.  Yes, I swear occasionally, but self-depreciation?    This was taught to me at my mother’s knee and has been reinforced almost my entire life.  I would have a Master’s Degree in this if I hadn’t recognised it and set to work on it.  Yes.  I fall over.  I’m human.  The difference is that I recognise it.  Some things are so ingrained that it is actually traumatic when I’m faced with it.  And I aim to overcome it because the energy is very destructive. 

  • I’ve got a rotten voice (my main area of self-depreciation)
  • I’m not going to get that job.  What’s the point of even trying?

Think about what terms you use – and how you blend them together. 

  • I look fucking fat in that dress – I really hate it. 
  • Jeez – I’m so thick!

It’s really hard to maintain your vibration when phrases such as this are being said.

You get the idea.  We all do it.  We’ve actually been trained to do things like this – to believe we are less than perfect, that we are inept.  Not worthy.  How have we been trained?  Through advertising.  Since the end of the 2nd World War, there has been a conscious campaign to make us demean ourselves.  To feel that unless we have that so called perfect body, white teeth, a certain brand of shoes that we somehow fail.

The gate has been opened for us to produce low-frequency energy at a constant rate and without our ever being conscious of it.  Once the gate is opened it’s just a matter of feeding more misleading information, false news, conspiracy theories….. the flu.   All the stuff that is being seen in society right now and is causing such fear and anger and confusion – it’s an amazing source of low-frequency Energy.   Those emotions ramp up the energy that can be harvested by those who feed that way.  The Energy Vampires.  The Shadow Side Forces of Light.   I don’t need to tell who they are.

I mentioned that this fear energy was started after the 2nd World War – well, all this fear that our collective is currently swimming in was started even before that.  Now we have Starseed, who are here to help humanity, getting sucked in because there are forces out there, organisations who have built, over many years, very complex structures where you have no idea what is truth and even the most extraordinary lies are believed.  These are the energy vampires I am talking about.  And Starseeds are their energy source of choice. 

ENERGY VAMPIRES…  Now, I’m not going into big details on Energy Vampires right now, but we all know how you deal with them – you cut off their food source.  And Man are we giving them a good food source right now.  So first, have a think about the things you do in your everyday life.  Become conscious of the Energy that you are generating, perhaps without even realising it.  You are Starseed.  You are Lightworker.  Are you providing Energy for those darker forces?

I’ve been fortunate.  In many ways my spiritual journey has been at a full-on sprint.  I’ve run into walls, fallen down rabbit holes, stumbled and scraped my knees, had hissy fits, and more drama than Shakespeare could write about….. but my teacher has lead me through the journey in such a way that I didn’t cut corners, that I didn’t miss those important building blocks.  There have been a few things she has told me – key phrases that I live by and I’ll probably share a post sometime in the next week or so that may help you.  For now though, I’d like each of you to become aware of the Energy you are using in everyday life.

I’d like you to have a good look at the words you use, the posts you read on social media, the books you read, the movies you watch.  Look at those whom you consider to be your teacher.  Look energetically.  Feel for Truth.  Are they Masters and how did they grow to that level?  Ask them.   Could they too be Neophytes?  Many have come to mistaken beliefs because they too have been taught by those who have been mislead or who have cut corners.  I was told that it often takes about 20 years of study and experience to move between being an Neophyte and Teacher.  And then you have many more years of study, years gaining knowledge and wisdom before you could consider yourself a Master. It’s not like a university degree!! 

BUT…

Don’t stress it too much, don’t get tied up in it – just become more conscious, more discerning about where you focus your Energy.  If you are following a path, you must feel that there is a ring of truth in it – or you wouldn’t be following it.  Just ask,  “Does this path feel heavy?” – and I don’t mean heavy as in a hard lesson being learnt or tough times being lived through.  Feel the Energy.   If it does feel energetically heavy,  you should consider having a good look at what is being taught.

Gy’ Shé em

Auri’An

The above text is a rough transcript of the recording made by the International Koalition of Krones on 22nd June, 2020.
You can watch the full recording by following this link:

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