Truth – Who’s Right?

Truth is relative. It depends on where you are looking from and in today’s society it’s almost impossible to understand what is truth and what has been manipulated. It’s made even harder by so much that is fabrication, containing just enough truth to make it plausible, to even suck people in and send them chasing down into a rabbit-hole of addictive illusion.

I recently hosted an open mic discussion at one of the world’s top 10 UFO Festivals and one of the things we explored was Truth. We discussed how people on the right side of the room would have a different perspective/view/truth to those on the left, – not only because of the physical perspective of where they are in the room, but because what was being said was being filtered through their human Self – those beliefs and experiences that they each held. It was an interesting conversation, especially as the main topic was people’s experiences with UFOs and we all know that this topic brings a whole gamut of thoughts, emotions and beliefs.

Today, I was looking through a book of short stories I am slowly writing (very slowly, been at it for a few years on and off!) and found this tale. I hope you enjoy it – a light-hearted look at the perspective of truth.

Once upon  time there was a beautiful princess (Maddy) who met her prince (Fred) in the way that fairy tales often portray – she was captured by a wicked witch and held to ransom but was eventually rescued by her prince and woken with a kiss.  You all know the story.  If you were anything like me you probably grew up on such tales. But fairy tales usually stop there – with the princess and prince falling in love, marrying and living happily ever after.

Or so these tales would have us believe.  And just what is “happily ever after” in the grand scheme of things, anyway?

The reality is that the princess and the prince are human.  They live human lives – although one can imagine them being quite comfortably off and not having to deal too much with how to pay the electricity bill, they will still get annoyed with each other, have arguments about how many hours the prince is spending riding around the countryside imbibing at all the hostelries and then saying the wrong thing when the princess asks if she’s getting fat. 

Anyway, our two were having a ding-dong and both of them believed they were right.  It was the fight of a life-time and was starting to affect how the kingdom was being run, so they decided to call in the court counsellor to sort out who was telling the Truth.

Basically Maddy was complaining that Fred never listened to her and Fred was complaining that she never shut up.

Fred obviously wasn’t deaf because he knew that Maddy was always going-on at him.  Maddy felt she had to keep on repeating the same-old, same-old stuff because Fred never answered her.  I’m sure that 98% of married people in our current reality can relate to this. 

The counsellor listened to both sides of the story.  First with Fred and then with Maddy.  Then she listened to both of them together, and a week later the whole Court gathered in the ballroom to hear who was telling the truth.  Of course, it’s really obvious to everyone who isn’t personally involved – they are both telling the truth.  As they see it.

Truth is tricky like that.  The opposite of truth is a lie and neither Maddy nor Fred were lying.  Fred really didn’t hear what Maddy was saying because he’d close down his hearing as soon as he heard a certain frequency to Maddy’s voice.  And Maddy really did keep going on and on and on because she wanted reassurance that she was still important to Fred.  There really isn’t two sides to this story, rather, there’s two different versions of the truth – except both Fred and Maddy were too involved to realise they were actually both on the same side!!!

Some truths simply ARE.  You just have to step back and take a more open look at the situation.

Back in the ballroom, the fairy counsellor (because, of course, this is a fairy tale so it has to have a fairy in it and both Fred and Maddy feel too old to have fairy godmothers anymore) lay down her decision.

Both Maddy and Fred are telling the truth but obviously there is conflict.  Therefore, she decreed, for 23 hours a day Maddy would be unable to say anything to Fred more than once.  And Fred would not be able to close off his hearing until after that one thing was spoken.  Maddy could know that she has passed the information to Fred and that he heard it.  If he failed to act upon that information and ended up missing an important function or wore the wrong clothes – that would be his fault and his alone and he’d have to deal with any fall-out like a grown up human being.  And just to keep things in balance, if either of them ignored the other for no good reason they would both grow donkey ears!

And for that one hour every day that this spell didn’t apply, the only words they could say to each other were “I Love You”. 

And once a week Maddy and Fred were to meet with the fairy counsellor to discuss who had the truth of the matter.  Once they had worked out the answer (that it’s possible to both be right whilst both being very wrong); when Maddy no longer felt the need to nag because Fred didn’t listen to her; when Fred actually listened to what Maddy said and understood the value of someone caring so much that they wanted him to have the best information he could to get through his day without embarrassment and when Maddy understood that Fred didn’t need micro-managing as if he were one of their many children, the ‘punishment’ would cease.

Of course, it took a while until Maddy and Fred worked things out and during that time the court had a whale of a time watching the pair walking around with donkey ears!

Dark Night of the Soul

Humanity is struggling.  You don’t need to be psychic or intuitive to understand this, you only have to look around you.  Even in the very small town that I live in, a place that has not been touched by COVID-19, you can still see this is inexorable slide.  The microcosm representing the macrocosm.  As above, so below.  It’s happening folks, the Collective Consciousness of Humanity is entering it’s Dark Night of the Soul (DNOTS).

For those of you who are unaware, the Collective Consciousness of Humanity (CCoH) is the gathered Energy and thought processes of all humans on this Earth.  Not all BEINGS, just all Humans every one of the individuals forming the CCoH – close to 8 billion humans – have the potential to be so overwhelmed or so in need of the deeper work that they too could be affected.

  • How will it affect you? 
  • What might you expect to experience? 
  • How will you deal with it? 
  • How do you know you are in your DNOTS?
  • How long can it last? 
  • How do you get out of it? 
  • Will you even be the same person once you do emerge?

I’ve been through this process twice and have been instructed by my Guides to offer my experience to you.  These are some of the questions I’ll attempt to answer so that if you are drawn into this, you can recognise it and know how to work through it.

I can’t speak for everyone of course, all I can do is let you know that you won’t be alone. 

DNOTS truly is an awful place to be but it also presents you with the possibility – the opportunity – to take what you learn and aim for the most glorious future in full knowledge of who you are and why you are here, IF you do the work that is required of you whilst you are in that dark place. 

I want to tell you the story of my recent visit within the DNOTS because this is the one that I understand the most,  and for those of you who have known me over the last almost 6 years, you are likely to be surprise by the information that I have only recently stepped fully out of that place.  My story really started suddenly, unexpectedly and intensely in September 2014.

I had been going through a tough time and was already fighting a certain level of depression and anxiety when on this particular day in September 2014, my world fell apart after a very traumatic phone call.  I was accused of something I had not done, within a business I was not even involved with, and threatened with jail time.  The shock was so great, I spent days curled in a ball in my garden unable to stop crying.  From a mainstream perspective,  I had had a break down and although I didn’t know it at the time, from a Spiritual perspective I had dropped into my Dark Night of the Soul.

There is a lot of mis-information on social media about the Dark Night of the Soul.  I see talks and memes suggesting that this is what is happening when you are feeling overwhelmed, stressed, anxious.  Yes, these are very definite aspects of DNOTS, but as someone who works with people dealing with these emotions, I can tell you that even the strongest of these are not of the level of a DNOTS.

It’s not something that lasts a few days or a few weeks, or even a few months.  It’s not about feeling depressed and worried about stuff, it’s about being at the bottom of the deepest, darkest well of despair and knowing that there is absolutely no light at the top.  It’s deeper and darker than clinical depression, it’s beyond feeling suicidal and it takes YEARS to recover. 

I’m going to try to explain this from an individual perspective, how it happens, why it happens and what you have to do to emerge from a DNOTS.  I can talk about this individual perspective because I’ve been there.  I’ve travelled this path.  And I can tell you that DNOTS is not only about the deep dark well of despair – it’s about the absence of EVERYTHING which forces you to look into yourself at a level that you never thought possible.  It’s a stripping-away of everything that you thought made you who you are and it can happen not only on an emotional and spiritual level, but also within the physical realms.  And right now the Collective Consciousness of Humanity is falling into a DNOTS. 

A fall into DNOTS often coincides with a Saturn Natal Return – when this happens, it feels as if you’ve got a double whammy, and this can be a situation that some people never return from.  I personally know people in this situation.

I’m not going to focus on what it feels like to fall into a DNOTS because, honestly, that’s just not something it’s possible to describe except, to those who have been there – and everybody’s journey is different.  I understand deep depression, I’ve watched family members struggle with clinical depression and suicidal feelings – I’ve experienced this myself.  And I can tell you that DNOTS is infinitely beyond that.  My personal visualisation was of living in a deep muddy hole that sunk down into the deepest parts of the earth.  A hole with quicksand in the bottom sucking me further down and with absolutely no way to climb out.  No ladder, no rope, no light at the top.  That absence of everything except fear and despair.

For me, personally, I also lost pretty much everything in my physical life.  From running three successful businesses I ended up losing them all – home, family, friends, pets, even furniture and personal treasures and as I took my final steps away from my DNOTS, I realised that I had nothing – just me.  My Self.  And that Self took itself into a cocoon and thus began the journey of metamorphosis.

In the bottom of that well of despair you discover who you are. You discover who you are not.  And if you are a person who has bucket loads of determination, courage and strength you eventually discover that these are three of the tools you need to emerge.  I’d already discovered, through widowhood and 15 years of chronic illness, that I did have these things. 

I mentioned that DNOTS is about absence.  It’s not just about the loss of stuff in the physical, it’s also a time to go deep inside yourself and review everything you believe about yourself – who you think you are, how you believe you are viewed by the world, your worth to Self and to society. To start this work you first have to recognise that you are in your DNOTS. 

DNOTS forces you to dig deep.  Everything needs to drop away.  And it is hard work.  All your beliefs – in yourself and the world you live in have to be reviewed.  For me, that happened by dramas cycling around and around in my life until I worked it out, until I learned to overcome the fear and the despair, to recognise and acknowledge the anger and to really learn that lesson of forgiveness.

Although it’s unlikely to be recognised whilst you are in your DNOTS, this time is also a period of immense growth.  There are huge opportunities to be grasped if only you can be aware enough to see them; to have the strength and courage to go after them.

It was, literally, just one week after I entered my DNOTS in September 2014 that new people started to enter my life; people that would become, for a while, my teachers and guides.  It was just one month after that time, that I had my initial, conscious Spiritual Awakening experience.  3 ½ hours of the most immense pain and confusion – and also the most wonderous single experience of my life – and that even includes giving birth to my daughter which was also amazing.  It’s not uncommon for a DNOTS to trigger an intense Spiritual Awakening process and for me, this totally changed my life forever.

I have cycled through these dramas, loosing much and gaining much as understanding started to flower.  There have been several times that I thought I had emerged, only to discover that no, the dramas are still there, still not fully resolved, still some remaining anger, fear or an acknowledgement that I really am not ready to forgive.  Emerging from a DNOTS feels like rising waves – you ride a wave believing you have reached the top of your dark well only to find yourself slipping back.  But each time you rise a bit higher, fall a little less. 

Although, for me it felt like waves, a more true description would be to consider the emergence as a spiral.  Samsara – the cycle of death and re-birth.  I was presented with an Energy – some drama would occur in my life which was so horrible and difficult it was like a part of me was dying.  But as I learned to recognise the Energy and understand the lessons; as I learned to dig deep into my beliefs and recognise Truths and Untruths; as I started the work to change those beliefs, I would emerge, changed by the experience only to discover the same Energy appearing a few weeks or months later in a different scenario requiring different exploration of my Self.  I mentioned earlier the tools you need to hold to work through these cycles – Strength.  Determination.  Courage.  You need these by the bucket-load.

It’s now almost 6 years since I fell into my DNOTS and I’m no longer that person I was.  I no longer even recognise that old version of me.   Over the last 12 months or so, as I took my final steps away from my Well of Despair,  I have undergone an immense metamorphosis.  I am, literally, no longer the person I was.  The Physical, Spiritual and Emotional changes are far greater than most people will ever understand.  I took those tools of Strength, Determination and Courage and made them my own.  I am stronger, more confident, more ALIVE than I have ever been.  I have spent a lifetime of struggle and fear and now I recognise ME.  I recognise the Starseed that I truly am within this human camouflage.  It is precisely because of the journey down the path of DNOTS that I am moving into a future beyond that which I couldn’t even envisage when I fell. 

Some people never emerge.  All they see is the drama, the fear, the anger.  They don’t hold the strength and courage to face their Self in the mirror – especially when, in that deep well of despair, there is no light to shine the reflection back to you.  You have to travel within.  You have to hold the courage to face Samsara – the death and re-birth of life.  And you absolutely must be determined to succeed.

Right now, the Collective Conscious of Humanity is falling down that well.

I send out the call for all peoples of this planet to gather their Strength, Determination and Courage, not to face the illusions of our current society, but to face that hardest place of all – You.

Gy’ Shé em


Taken from a talk on the bi-monthly chat with the International Koalition of Krones –

Helping Ego

Today I want to share a personal story with you.  It’s something that happened a few years back – when I was barely started on my Awakening Journey.  It took me a few years to fully understand what had happened in that situation, but it is something that profoundly affected me and I see the same Energy of it happening in current society.  Other people falling into the same trap.  And it is because I understand just how easy it is to fall into this trap – and how very hard it is to get out again – that I am sharing this today. This is about wanting to help and how in some cases, helping is actually inappropriate and it can back-fire.   It’s also a very eye-opening tale about Ego – and just how sneaky it can be.

I’ve always had this strong urge to help people.  I saw myself as a “helper” and quite frequently as a “Rescuer”.  The urge to help people was very strong. 

I had a friend who needed help.  She was a close friend, I considered her a sister and I could see that she was hurting very badly but she wouldn’t tell me what the problem was.  Sometimes she was angry, sometimes very fearful and it broke my heart to watch her.  I felt so ineffective.  I knew, I KNEW I could help if she’d only tell me what the problem was.

Then, in dance class, she was in tears and I went to give her hug.  That was all it took and she became furiously angry, focused all that anger at me and spat out all the fear and venom that she had been holding right at me.  I was devastated.  Devastated that I couldn’t help my friend and I was absolutely desperate to do so. 

Yes, my friend had a problem.  Something that was causing her distress, but she had made it very clear that she didn’t want help.  I dis-respected her choice and in my desperation to help I turned her problems into a story about me.  It became about my need to help.  MY inability to reach her and sort things out.  MY emotional distress at being refused.  After all – all I wanted to do was to help.  It was years later that I realised I had exacerbated the situation because of my Ego.  It was my Ego that drove me to insist on helping even when my help wasn’t sought after or wanted.  I didn’t see that my Ego as involved.  How can it be Egotistical when all you want to do is GIVE?  To Help?  But the reality was, my Ego was jumping up and down, waving flags and holding a party because it had made me so sure that I was the Saviour of my friend’s situation.

So how come this personal story from several years back relates to what is happening to Starseeds right now.  Well, we’ve spoken over the last few chats (IKoK Bi-monthly chats – see below for info) about the addiction energy that is draining Starseeds.  We’ve spoken about how strong it is and chances are you’ve grieved over friends who seem to be lost down the rabbit hole of QAnon and other conspiracy theories, just as we have.  What we haven’t spoken of is how this addiction actually grabs hold of Starseeds.   Well.  It seems to me that it is Ego that opens the door to that addiction.  That need to help, that DRIVE to help can become so very, very strong that it does become like an addiction.  You need that hit of knowing that you helped someone feel better.

Starseeds, almost without exception, want to help people.  So what better way to hook Starseeds than to show them people who need help.  People they feel desperately that they NEED to help, that they are able to help. People who are suffering intense pain.  Abuse.  Torture.  Black Magic. Stuff you can barely imagine.  And when it’s children who are suffering this things?? Well the need goes right up through the roof.  And what does QAnon etc give them.  These very things.  Through Conspiracy Theory, they show Starseeds the stories that tap into that very real desire to help those who cannot help themselves.  Starseeds are being taken down with their own gifts.  Gifts that should be used to help humanity.  They are ‘fighting’ for a made-up cause.  They are giving their Energy to feed those who are trying to take them down.  And they can’t see that they are being driven in the wrong direction by an Ego that is jumping up and down, waving flags.  Having a party.

How do we know that Ego is involved – just read their posts when challenged.  They’ve done what I did.  They’ve turned the story around to be about themselves.  But like me, they can’t see it.  It’s about how they are helping and others aren’t.  It’s about how they protest, carry guns, wear a mask, don’t wear a mask.  It’s about Us and Them.  It’s about division and fear and anger.  It’s not about Love, compassion, peace.  And if very definitely is not about forgiveness.

And the part that is so very hard is that most of these conspiracy theories have some element of truth in them.   All these Starseeds want to do is be the saviour of those who can’t save themselves.  And they haven’t yet worked out that what they think they need so desperately to save is an illusion.

These are just my thoughts. You can agree or not, but I hope that this sharing of my personal story and how I see it applying to what is happening today, has given you some food for thought.

Gy’ Shé em

Note: This is the transcript of a talk I gave on the International Koalition of Krones bi-monthly chat. If you want to watch the You Tube version of this and other chats, readings and messages, please follow this link:

Cause and Effect

Karma.  The word means Deed or Action.  In today’s society we tend to believe that Karma is a kind of balance sheet, basically if someone does something bad to you Karma will ‘get’ them at some point.  We also talk about Karmic Debt – as if we are owed something, or as if we owe something to someone else.  These thoughts are not really wrong – but they are not really correct either.

Karma has a basic law that applies to all realms of Creation, a law of Cause and Effect.  It is common to all major religions – we reap what we sow.  Your destiny is determined by your actions, both current and past and Karma can be carried forward from other existences. Every action leads to some kind of result and every result can be traced to something done in the past.  This applies to pleasurable things as well as painful things.

There is no way you can avoid this, everyone is an integral part of the whole, but what you can do is to work selflessly in this life whilst working to redress past actions.  You must work for the greater good of all and not just for Self. 

We can, once aware, work to bring balance to our Karma – but are you aware that Karma doesn’t apply just to individuals?  That Karma can be accrued through selfish – and selfless – means on a Collective basis?

Think about this: 

We have an individual who takes action in either a selfish or a selfless way and that brings in that law of Cause and Effect. 

What about when a group of people come together to take some form of action?  They form a Collective Consciousness – and yes that Collective Consciousness can accrue Karma.  That could be something like the International Koalition of Krones.  We, each of the Krones have our own Karma, but because we work together, we are also building a Group Collective Conscious Mind and that too can accrue Karma.

Now expand that through a city, a country, the entire planet. 

And expand again through linear time…….   MAN – there is some Karma that needs to be re-balanced on this world eh?

Many people don’t realise that there is a potential trap in this Karmic Cause and Effect.  Not all Karma is painful.  Cause and Effect only looks at the fact that an action took place – at the Energy of the action and not what that action actually was.  When we have experienced pleasurable Karma, we have a tendency to want to repeat the pleasure and we can be driven to seek it again and again.  That can trap us by reinforcing our connection to this physical realm, and can even result in us forgetting our Spiritual work – the very reason we are here.  And that is bad news for Starseeds who get trapped in this loop.  That good Karma, which seemed so pleasurable at first, can end up becoming a selfish pleasure – an addiction that is not for the greater good of all, only for the benefit of the individual.  Obviously this is not something we’d consciously do (at least I hope not) and we can get back on track by ensuring that our work is without selfish attachments.

Let’s take this one a little further – let’s paint a picture of how easy it is to get a Starseed off track in today’s society.

Starseed A (“A”) has been working hard to widen her knowledge base, to spiritually grow, to raise her vibration.  She’s seen some Conspiracy Theory stuff on Facebook but didn’t really take a lot of notice.  Over the next couple of years more CT posts appear and at first she thought things like “Really?  People actually believe this?” but gradually some of the things started to make a bit more sense to her.    Especially as there is so much trouble in the world – someone has to take the blame.  Don’t they? 

And then things go bottom-up.  Fear is the major emotion running through the country – through the world – like wildfire.  Media seems to be fanning the flames of this fear and “A” is feeling overwhelmed.  Then she sees a post on Facebook that really catches her attention.  Someone is being hurt.  Some group of defenceless individuals are having to fight to survive, and she is an empathic healer – she can help fix this, she knows she can, so she starts to share these posts – raising awareness.  “A” believes that by ‘raising awareness’ she is helping the cause; that someone will see that many people are protesting this and that this ‘someone’ will do something to fix it.

We’ve all see this.  We may even have been a part of such a thing.  The intention is good and “A” believes she is helping.  She’s experienced pleasurable Karma.  It feels good and she works hard to help some more.


But the problems never seem to get resolved.  At least not without a whole heap of pain, and fear and anger. 

We all know this cycle, but do we know what is happening Energetically?

First, “A” has fallen into the Karma trap.  The one where initial pleasure leads to seeking more pleasure.  She wanted to help, felt like she was helping and so wanted to help more, getting into a cycle that was getting deeper and deeper.  More and more about the physical and less and less about the Spiritual work.  The Energy.

And because she is not focusing on the Energy, she doesn’t feel the heaviness of what she is doing.  She doesn’t recognise that the initial pleasure that she felt at doing something that may help others has stopped being pleasurable.  She doesn’t understand that she no longer feels Joy in what she is doing.  Instead she’s angry, and she feels justified in her anger, because she still feels she is working on the side of right.

“A” doesn’t realise that she is actually giving Energy – low frequency energy – to the very people who set up the situation in the first place. She is feeding Energy into the situation, believing she is doing good, but in reality hers is just another tiny little whisper, one of many that fan the flames of Karma and the addictive Energy of the Shadow Side Forces of Light.  And this is OLD Karma.  It’s been building for millennia. 

Starseeds are being sucked dry.  They are being made ineffective in the very work they are here to do.  And the hardest thing for those who are not in this addictive cycle is to watch them and know that there is very little we can do to help other than be there for them.

There is another player in this scenario.  It’s a big player, one that can be tricky to recognise, especially when you are affected, and it can be very painful to overcome.  When “A” feels like she is constantly giving; that she is fighting a battle to fix everything for those she sees needing her help; when she tries to convince others to join her cause, this is because her initial selfless act has now become selfish.  Ego has joined the party.

All beings work for their own pleasure and gain and in this situation they have lost touch with the initial selfless act and become so tied up in what they are doing and what they are determined to fix, that the selfless has become selfish. 

In the journey of Karmic Imbalance and addiction to the Energies produced by the Shadow Side Forces of Light, the Energies of Anger and Selfish Desire are our greatest enemies.  These are powerful Energies that move us to act in such a way that even when we want to do the right thing, we end up doing the wrong thing.  It is a destructive power that can drive us away from our purpose and into self-delusion and despair.

We need to detach from Anger and Selfish Desire.  We need to understand that our true nature is not to be caught up in these emotions.  If we can’t return to our true nature we will always be caught in the emotional storms of passion (anger, fear) and inertia.

Starseeds, we are here to aid humanity.  We are here to guide, to hold space, to shine light.  How easy it has been to make so many of us forget that. 

Throat Re-balancing Meditation

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I know many people who have thyroid problems, usually hypothyroidism – including me.  I also have cysts on my thyroid that I am working to reduce.  As an Holistic Counsellor and Meditation Therapist, and with my life experience, I have an absolute belief in the power of the mind.  In meditation, in mind-over-matter, in vibration.

Today I have a gift for you.  Working with the beautiful Kiera Lea, we have built this relaxation meditation aimed specifically at those who have problems in the throat area.  This can be physically or emotionally or Spiritually.  Often those who have difficulty expressing themselves, who are afraid of public speaking or similar have a blockage in their Throat Chakra.  Running almost subliminally in the background of this track is the Solfeggio frequency of 741 Hz which is the frequency best used to aid this area.

Even if you don’t have a throat issues – it’s a lovely relaxing meditation. 

And it seems to be especially good at sending folk to sleep!


Keira’s details are attached to the link if you want to talk with her about crafting audio for you.

Are You Spiritually Cutting Corners?

I’ve been observing people on this Spiritual path for some time now and there a few things that have become obvious as areas that are being missed by the vast majority of people who consider themselves to be Starseed or Lightworker.  These are the things I want to start with and as you read this, I hope you will start to understand how interconnected they all are.

There’s a reason that we use terminology such as “being on a Journey” or “following a Spiritual Path” and that reason is that you start with a single step, which is taken in Faith because you simply have no idea where you are going at that time.  You have no idea whether you are following the Path correctly or not, nor do you understand that even if you are following the right path, it is likely to be the hardest work you will ever do.  So you keep taking steps, sometimes forward, sometimes backwards; hopefully growing in knowledge and understanding. 

In the past you would have been taught by a Master who understands the Neophyte and where he or she is on that Path. This Master would be able to gently guide the student until he or she is able see where the path is leading, and to have the knowledge and wisdom to be able to step out by themselves.  This is a system that has worked for millennia.  Master guiding Neophyte and making sure that the Neophyte doesn’t get to see the next part of the journey until the current path is completed and fully understood.

Right now there are very few Masters and there are many, many Neophytes.  There are many Neophytes who think they are Teachers or even Masters.  Many of them.  For the Neophytes – and especially for Newbies on the Path – it is utterly confusing.  Who do you trust?  Who do you believe has the correct information?  Inevitably, because the Newbie and the Neophyte lack knowledge, there is a tendency to follow those who are charismatic – but not necessarily a Master.  And there lies Danger.

Nowadays we have social media  It seems to have taken the place of the Master, and the problem with social media and a Spiritual Path is firstly, that very few people get to be taught by a true Master and secondly, you get to see the terrain ahead.  You get to see other people who are on a similar journey. You get to swap ideas and knowledge with people who are, most likely, as untrained as yourself.  You get addicted to some topics – and they may not be the ones you came here to work with.   You take them on board and then you take a running jump to where you think the path is going to go.  Then, because you don’t have a Master to guide you, you cut corners in your spiritual education.  That means you don’t possess the tools to be discerning about certain information.  You can get caught in traps because something feels right but when you dig deep you may find that it is actually set up to ensnare the unwary.  This is happening a lot right now and you don’t have a Master to guide you to understanding where the traps are.

There are a lot of people out there in social media world who believe they are Teachers, Spiritual Leaders, Masters even – when, because of those cut-corners, they are really still at Neophyte level.  They simply do not have the solid knowledge, but their passion and their enthusiasm to share what they do know – which is not necessarily complete or even correct – is very strong.  Ego often steps in here.  I know.   I went through it.

When you cut those corners in your spiritual education, you can get tied-up with something that another Neophyte has told you and which you believe is true.  But that Neophyte may have also been mis-informed or mislead by their teacher who most likely also wasn’t a Master.  You can get side-tracked, mislead, go down rabbit-holes and all because you haven’t got the basic building blocks. 

So – I want to look at some of those building blocks.  Now, when I said that did your eyes roll?  Did you think Oh No – not again.  I know all the basic stuff.  I’m past that.  If you did – even for a moment, however advanced you think you are – then you REALLY need to listen to this because even if you’ve heard it before – you need to re-learn it.  You need to learn to LIVE it. 

First.  We’ve been talking a fair bit about the power of words.  Especially words such as ‘God’ and the Energy that is carried in this word.  This is very important information but it’s highly likely that learning about the Energy of the everyday words you unconsciously use is one of those leaps down the path I spoke of earlier. 

We know that words such as God carry powerful Energy – and not always for the good, but have you looked at the words you use everyday.  Do you consider them on a conscious level from a spiritual perspective?  We Krones tell you that you can’t separate the physical from the spiritual and your everyday word usage is a prime example of that statement and something you should work on from a conscious level from time to time. 

How often do you swear?  How often do you say Shit or OMG or fuck or worse? Yes – we all swear – we are human after all – but do you know how often you say ‘fuck’?  I know lots of people who say it roughly every 3rd or 4th word!!  It’s not uncommon.

And what about the H word?  Hate.  Think about that one. 

  • I hate my wrinkles
  • I hate cauliflower
  • I hate that kid down the street

Can you feel it?  The Energy?  Hardly uplifting is it?  And what about when you add in the F-bomb?

  • I fucking hate my fucking job
  • I hate the fucking rain
  • I hate never having any fucking money

Hmmm….  We all talk about keeping your Energy high; raising your vibration.  But – how does that happen when you keep introducing low frequency energy simply by talking?

What about how we have a habit of personal depreciation.

This one is something I have a habit of.  Yes, I swear occasionally, but self-depreciation?    This was taught to me at my mother’s knee and has been reinforced almost my entire life.  I would have a Master’s Degree in this if I hadn’t recognised it and set to work on it.  Yes.  I fall over.  I’m human.  The difference is that I recognise it.  Some things are so ingrained that it is actually traumatic when I’m faced with it.  And I aim to overcome it because the energy is very destructive. 

  • I’ve got a rotten voice (my main area of self-depreciation)
  • I’m not going to get that job.  What’s the point of even trying?

Think about what terms you use – and how you blend them together. 

  • I look fucking fat in that dress – I really hate it. 
  • Jeez – I’m so thick!

It’s really hard to maintain your vibration when phrases such as this are being said.

You get the idea.  We all do it.  We’ve actually been trained to do things like this – to believe we are less than perfect, that we are inept.  Not worthy.  How have we been trained?  Through advertising.  Since the end of the 2nd World War, there has been a conscious campaign to make us demean ourselves.  To feel that unless we have that so called perfect body, white teeth, a certain brand of shoes that we somehow fail.

The gate has been opened for us to produce low-frequency energy at a constant rate and without our ever being conscious of it.  Once the gate is opened it’s just a matter of feeding more misleading information, false news, conspiracy theories….. the flu.   All the stuff that is being seen in society right now and is causing such fear and anger and confusion – it’s an amazing source of low-frequency Energy.   Those emotions ramp up the energy that can be harvested by those who feed that way.  The Energy Vampires.  The Shadow Side Forces of Light.   I don’t need to tell who they are.

I mentioned that this fear energy was started after the 2nd World War – well, all this fear that our collective is currently swimming in was started even before that.  Now we have Starseed, who are here to help humanity, getting sucked in because there are forces out there, organisations who have built, over many years, very complex structures where you have no idea what is truth and even the most extraordinary lies are believed.  These are the energy vampires I am talking about.  And Starseeds are their energy source of choice. 

ENERGY VAMPIRES…  Now, I’m not going into big details on Energy Vampires right now, but we all know how you deal with them – you cut off their food source.  And Man are we giving them a good food source right now.  So first, have a think about the things you do in your everyday life.  Become conscious of the Energy that you are generating, perhaps without even realising it.  You are Starseed.  You are Lightworker.  Are you providing Energy for those darker forces?

I’ve been fortunate.  In many ways my spiritual journey has been at a full-on sprint.  I’ve run into walls, fallen down rabbit holes, stumbled and scraped my knees, had hissy fits, and more drama than Shakespeare could write about….. but my teacher has lead me through the journey in such a way that I didn’t cut corners, that I didn’t miss those important building blocks.  There have been a few things she has told me – key phrases that I live by and I’ll probably share a post sometime in the next week or so that may help you.  For now though, I’d like each of you to become aware of the Energy you are using in everyday life.

I’d like you to have a good look at the words you use, the posts you read on social media, the books you read, the movies you watch.  Look at those whom you consider to be your teacher.  Look energetically.  Feel for Truth.  Are they Masters and how did they grow to that level?  Ask them.   Could they too be Neophytes?  Many have come to mistaken beliefs because they too have been taught by those who have been mislead or who have cut corners.  I was told that it often takes about 20 years of study and experience to move between being an Neophyte and Teacher.  And then you have many more years of study, years gaining knowledge and wisdom before you could consider yourself a Master. It’s not like a university degree!! 


Don’t stress it too much, don’t get tied up in it – just become more conscious, more discerning about where you focus your Energy.  If you are following a path, you must feel that there is a ring of truth in it – or you wouldn’t be following it.  Just ask,  “Does this path feel heavy?” – and I don’t mean heavy as in a hard lesson being learnt or tough times being lived through.  Feel the Energy.   If it does feel energetically heavy,  you should consider having a good look at what is being taught.

Gy’ Shé em


The above text is a rough transcript of the recording made by the International Koalition of Krones on 22nd June, 2020.
You can watch the full recording by following this link:

Powerful Words

Do you understand just how Powerful words are?

Think about it – words cut, they warm, they raise your spirits and they dash you to the depths.  They let you know you are loved and they are thrown at you in anger. 

There are some words that carry the Energy of millennia in them….   For example:  God is one of those words.  This is an obvious one to start with – think about it, what mental pictures does that word provide to you?  What emotions?  In the great picture of such things it should evoke Love, Compassion, Peace.  However you think of that term it is almost impossible to think of it without some kind of reaction.  Now expand it out and think about what has been done, by humans, under the umbrella of that name in the last couple of thousand years.  War, torture, fear, pain, suppression.  Now have another think about what Energy the word “God” holds when you think of all these things that have been done under this name.  Interesting eh?

What about the F-bomb?  Does that make you feel all warm and cosy, protected, cherished?  I doubt it.  So why is it used so much?  The shock value is well gone – to the point where I hear 5 year-olds saying it. 

I first really became aware of the power of words when, as a small child, I used the word “bugger”.  I had no idea what it meant, I was just repeating.  I got a good hiding, mouth washed with soap and a lecture on what exactly that word means.  Nowadays it has so little impact that it’s even been used in an extremely funny TV ad series a few years ago to sell cars here in Australia. 

Words are very interesting to me.  My brain tends to think better when I type things (I type at 90 words per minute, so I can get things down a lot faster than hand-writing).  It’s how I consolidate information, how I work out problems – I type them.  So I have been finding it really interesting to read some of the stuff that is circulating through social media.  Because there is a fair bit that contains words that say one thing and Energy that says the opposite.  Even for me, who loves the power of words and is also pretty skilled at Energy reading, there is a period of confusion.  I have to dig a bit deeper, go research the speaker, learn more of the meaning that he or she is putting into the words – and so often I am seeing a surface meaning that belies the deeper Energy.  Just as I said earlier – some words should say one thing, but dig a bit deeper and you find the history tells you a totally different story.

Words have power.  That is a given.  We are in a time of almost instantaneous manifestation and that means we cannot use words unwisely.  We give power to our thoughts through our use of words.  If you constantly talk of your woes then your woes will grow bigger.  Constantly minimise your personal power with the F-bomb and similar, and your personal power is diminished.  If you talk about how you have “XYZ” health issues – then the issue is very unlikely to heal.  Each time you utter such things you add Energy to them. 

It gets even trickier – and this is one area that Starseeds fall over, it’s an incredibly difficult concept for many people to understand:  you talk about being opposed to “this” or “that” or “the other” and you are still giving Energy to that thing.  You are drawing attention to it.  Feeding it.   A good example is “I fight against the darkness”  or “I work to support the Light”  Are these saying the same thing?  On the surface, yes they are.  Dig into the Energy and no they most definitely are not.  One sentence is heavy the other isn’t. 

For some, it’s a really hard concept.

All I am saying is to be discerning in the words you use.  Look for the Energy of the words you use and read – dig deeper than the surface.  There is often a totally different picture.  Words carry the power of the sword – don’t have your future cut from under you.

Today is World Smudge Day

In a time of mass upheaval, pain, fear and anger it makes sense to smudge our planet just as we would smudge our home. After all, Gaia is our home.

I live in Australia and a couple of months ago I asked the Tea Trees that I cycle past almost every day if I could take some leaves for smudge. They were happy to give some. They spent several weeks drying naturally in the sun and wind and were then bound into smudge sticks – wrapped not only in cotton thread, but also imbued with Love and Peace. With Harmony.

Get out there and smudge our world. You don’t have to wait for World Smudge Day – treat every day as a day to be living in the best Energies you can – Go Smudge Gaia

Of Pain and Opportunity

In 1980 I was caught up in racial riots in the UK.  I was afraid for my life in the same way that many people today are afraid.  I lay on that shopping mall floor, on top of my 16 month old baby to protect her, and thought I was going to die.
It took over 20 years for the resulting PTSD to be diagnosed.  For most of those 20 years I thought my life, and that of my child, was destroyed and in many respects it was.
My husband was an avid watcher of BBC World News – news filled with all the hatred and fear that one human, or one group of humans, can point towards another. 
In 1982 my mind had had as much as it could cope with and I had a mental breakdown.

My doctor taught me to not watch news.  Not to read of world events.  He told me that just 150 years before, people didn’t have much idea what was happening in the next town, and certainly the majority were unaware of what was happening in other countries.  He asked me if I planned to work in an active role to stop all these happenings.  Was I prepared to lay down my life to help resolve the situations that caused me such distress?   I was mother of a young child, wife, PTSD sufferer with violent panic attacks almost every day.   I was not in a position to give such aid and so my doctor taught me how to live without the daily news, to live in that same manner as the person 150 years prior would have done.  Unaware of distressing events outside my own personal sphere.  It was this advice that helped me keep my sanity.  I could do nothing about the big picture, so I helped those close to me instead.  Those individuals that I could guide and advise because of my personal experiences. 

A month ago Spirit gave me a message.  I was told it was time to stop messing about with the individuals, most of whom were quite comfortable in their pain and misery, and start to work towards the bigger picture.  To move towards working to aid the entire Collective Consciousness of Humanity in their decision regarding which way forward we will go.

I started to close down my business.  My one-on-one healing and counselling sessions, the meditation groups and within a few days an opportunity opened for me to start to step into that bigger picture.  The International Koalition of Krones was formed.  A Krone is a Wise Woman.  She is the Keeper of Ancient Knowledge and Wisdom.  She has earned her place in society – it is not just a name, or title, that you can simply use.  Krones have survived and taken that pain and fear and terror and turned it around into something good and wise for those who are prepared to listen.

A week ago I started to become more aware of world events.  Mainly in the USA.  I had to do this consciously because I have not watched TV or listened to news or read a newspaper in almost 40 years.  I had wrapped myself in cottonwool to protect myself from the hurt, pain and fear. 

Three days ago I watched in disbelief the murder of George Floyd and the subsequent upheavals.  I understood that George Floyd is a catalyst for change.  I strongly believe that we choose our path in this reality before we come here; that we have a Sacred Contract with every person we meet to assist us in creating that chosen path – and that includes those who hurt us.  I honour George Floyd and the journey he had here.  And in a way that so many people will never understand, I also honour the person who murdered him and triggered this opportunity for change.  It’s an unfortunate fact that without such triggers, without such pain, humans have a tendency to just plod forward through their lives.  Pain doesn’t have to be a trigger for growth, but it so often is the very thing that opens opportunity for change.

And it IS an opportunity.  It is the opportunity to oust the 10-year old in an old man’s body who has way too much power and way too big an Ego.  And yes, I also believe that he chose this path before he came to this life.

Yesterday I watched and read of the horrendous show of disregard of humanity outside St Johns.  I read of the statement of the Bishop of that diocese; and this morning I read of the treatment of the people who were there to provide aid and support – the religious people of St. Johns who were forced away from their place of worship and the aid they were giving in order for that 10-year-old in an old man’s body to have a photo opportunity.  A picture that is horrifyingly reminiscent of a similar photo of Hitler.

Today, after almost 40 years of hiding.  I step out of my cocoon.  I cannot hide any longer. 

And neither can anyone else.

We have an opportunity. BUT WE MUST DO IT WITHOUT RESORTING TO THE SAME TACTICS OF THAT TEMPER TANTRUM CALLED T-RUMP.  Those elements that stir up violence and anger and fear – we need these to stop or we will never succeed.  I know I come from a position of very little knowledge of the driving forces, but it seems to me that they are a part of the picture – deliberately inserted to keep the more peaceful resolution from happening.  It seems to me that these violent ones are placed to cause as much disruption as they can so that the 10-year-old can play at sending in his toy soldiers so that, in his mind, he can appear the beneficial protector.  I’m sorry – that picture went right out the window as you destroyed lives in order to stand, without prayer, humility, love – or permission – in front of that church holding and demeaning that Sacred Book.

For those who say they follow a Spiritual Path – you know you came here for a reason.  Many of you know that you have worked for many lifetimes to be here right now.  It doesn’t matter if you call yourself Awakened, Lightworkers, Indigo etc.  YOU ARE STARSEED and this, this time, is the reason we are here in so many numbers.  Right here.  Right NOW.

So many Starseeds have lost their way.  Forgotten what they came here to remember.  Fallen down the rabbit-hole of mis-information; distracted by superfluous things such as Twin-Flames and  energy-wave symptoms……  these are little things.  In the big picture they are irrelevant at this time.  Maybe they are your Truth, but right now you don’t need to worry about them.  You need to turn towards the bigger picture.  THIS is the time we need to help humans.  We need to show the power of peaceful Energy.  Of Love.  And that isn’t the sloppy heart-and-roses, so-called twin-flames or even the I-love-coffee /trees/the ocean.  This is the deep, strong, abiding Love that surpasses all boundaries.  The Love of one Human for another.  We say the words that “we are all One” but we don’t live with that Truth.

Now it’s time to do that.  To live that Truth.  When you hurt another.  You hurt me.  And You. 

We ARE all One.  How come you can hurt yourself so much.

Gy’ Shé em

Krone Auri’An

Relaxing with the 5 Elements

A gentle relaxation / meditation for you connecting you to the beauty and strengths of each of the five elements – Water, Fire, Earth, Air, Spirit

It doesn’t matter if you are not into meditation – this will simply help you to unwind and relax. Just get yourself comfy, where you won’t be disturbed for about half and hour, headphones on – or off, it doesn’t matter, close your eyes and listen………

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