Choices

It is said that we are all Creators. Certainly we are the creators of the life we are living. Whether you perceive your life as ‘good’ or ‘bad’ your choices contributed to where you find yourself today. I’ve made some tough choices in the past and, in retrospect, a lot of them have not been the wise choices. In many ways my life has not been balanced, and that has shown up in the situations I have found myself in, and however much I want to blame others, in the end it comes down to the reality that the choices I made affected the life I live.

The same is true for the Collective. We put people into power around our world who are making their own choices with regards to how we all travel through these difficult times. It doesn’t matter whether you are pro-this or anti-that, we all – as in the vast majority of individuals who are each a single thread in the Collective Consciousness of Humanity – have made choices over the past 50 years, 100 years and longer, that have brought us to this point in linear time. We are responsible for the choices we make. Each choice affects the road we travel into our future, and just as the choices our grandparents and parents made affected the life we came into, so to will our choices affect those who follow after us.

I am currently in a personal period of choice – a choice to remain where I am, getting older, fatter, slower, using past injury and current aches as an excuse not to fully getting my health back on track, and not stimulating my curiosity and mental agility, or I can choose to take a different path.

The easiest choice by far is the first option. For that I need do nothing more than I am currently doing. I will be comfortable and I will probably be reasonably happy. I can sit at my computer, as I am now and type my thoughts into this blog or one of the books I am (very slowly) writing; I can spend time scrolling through social media, watching You Tube and Netflix, talking with friends and volunteering in my local community. It would be a good life. It would also be a life that would bring stagnation and, probably fairly quickly, it would bring about the ending of this part of my journey through this lifetime. Yes, it could take years for my physical death to occur, but my emotional and mental bodies would wither and die a long time before my physical body.

The second choice – a different path – is by far the harder. To find out more about where I might want to go, I needed to dig down into the choices I made in the past that have brought me to this place in life. I had to do this honestly and with a mind open sufficiently to see different ways of looking at those choices. Then I needed to choose whether those past choices are still relevant, and whether I still want to carry them with me.

For example. I have always had a strong need to help other people. At times that need has driven me to make poor choices so far as Self is concerned. That need has been something of paramount importance for the last 60+ years and that made it one of the first things to delve into. One of the things I looked into is “Why is it important to help others?” And for each answer that came to the surface, I had to ask myself, “Is that reason, really the most important thing, and what are the alternatives? What if I choose to help ME for a change?”

In facing each of the various major hang-ups of my past, facing each one and choosing whether to put them into the bag of weighty stuff to carry on my back through this last third of my current existence or whether to discard them with gratitude for the experiences and lessons they gave to me – however painful or restrictive they have been, I have been able to make my choice in how I want to create my future. And it is not by sliding comfortably into my older age.

I have chosen the second path. I believe I have chosen the harder path, but also the one that will bring with it far greater rewards. I am challenging myself with something that is pretty alien for me – doing something purely for me. For me only, and with no thought of using the knowledge and skills gained on this Journey to specifically aid anyone other than me. That concept alone is a mountain to climb.

My new path has, in fact, been in my face for over a year and it is just one thing of many that triggered my need to make a choice going forward – do I follow this and see where it leads or do I stay with what is comfortable with very little room for creativity.

Creating your future by the choices you make now is powerful stuff and is not to be undertaken lightly. And I am a Creator.