Removing Fear

Photo: Auri An

I’ve had lots of drama and obstacles in my life and a couple of years ago I started working with Lord Ganesha – Remover of Obstacles, patron of intellectuals, bankers, scribes and authors.  I was truly surprised at first at how the problems in my life started to resolve.  Not always in the way that I thought they should, but ultimately in the way that was best for my growth. 

Working with Lord Ganesha has always been a silent thing for me.  You see, I have been told all my life that I have the most horrible singing voice, and that was reinforced many times.  And so my voice is never used for anything other than talking.  And until recently, I didn’t even do a whole lot of that. 

If I tried to sing – even by myself in the car, I would get a constriction in my throat as if someone had tried to shove a soccer ball down there.  Sometimes I would even find myself barely able to breathe.  The training of my youth hit hard.

Over the years we have worked with Mantra and each time has been more impossible than the last.  Always I’d give it a go and always I would end up simply chanting in my head.  The problem with this is that a big part of the work of Mantra is the vibration that occurs when you repeat the chants aloud.  It is the vibration that causes the healing to happen, that allows the physical body to sink into the energy and the spiritual body to expand.

In our current work (as the IKoK) with the 106 Days to Remove Fear, using various Ganesha Mantra with specific mudra and mindfulness, I have been taking the easy way out.  Just listening to the beautiful tracks that we are using as guides for these Mantra.  And yes, there is a lovely sense of calm and peace that comes from having these playing in the background all day, but that vibration – that oh-so-necessary vibration – is missing.

This morning I was speaking with the Founder of the IKoK (International Koalition of Krones), Essence Ka tha’ras and we started delving into these fears and blockages about my voice.  During our chat I had been finishing up a small mat I had been weaving and decided that the perfect place for it was under my favourite Ganesha statue.  As I placed the statue on the mat, I knew that it was time to start to break down these barriers.  It was as if I had given a gift to Lord Ganesha and he was returning a gift, an opportunity, that was needed by me.

My housemate was out, all the doors and windows were closed, so I hopped onto You Tube, started the Mantra “Om Gum Ganapatayei Namaha” by Deva Premal, formed my hands into the Abhaya Hridaya Mudra, took my courage into my heart and started to chant.  My throat started to burn.  I mean REALLY burn.  The familiar pressure built up in my throat – that emotional blockage manifesting into my physical body – but I stuck with it.  It expanded to my sinuses, my ears, to my Third Eye Chakra and even my High Heart Chakra.  And then I started to cry.  It was so painful, emotionally and physically.  I had to stop chanting, I could barely breathe but knew it was time to start to work through this, so when the burning eased a little, I joined in again.

I had to work through several more ‘cycles’ of this, and with each cycle, the blockage and the pain and the tears became less.  Towards the end of the track, the music slows down and just at that point the sun shone through a break in the clouds straight through the window and onto me and my statue of Lord Ganesha.  As the music ended, the sun once again disappeared behind the clouds.  It felt like a benediction.

Does this mean that my obstacles have disappeared and I can chant with everyone else?  Nope.  Not yet anyway.  This was just the first step on that Journey, there’s a long road ahead.  What this is, for me on a personal level, was confirmation of my last blog – the one about Impasse.  I was at a point of impasse with my voice and how I use it, and I had been there for a long time. Most of my life.  I had come up against an obstacle when I was a child and was so strongly discouraged from singing, that I had decided to simply sit down, accept the obstacle in front of me and get comfortable – after all, not being able to sing is hardly a life-and-death thing.  Right?

What I did today was start to break down those barriers.  Now, it is up to me to keep the momentum going.  To chant every day, several times a day if I can.  To allow the blockages to dissipate and the tears to flow as they will.  Those tears represent the release of the trauma of being unable to vocally express myself for the last 66 years.  I’ve been listening to my housemate as he sings.  He wears headphones and sings a lot.  He’s happy and that is how he celebrates that joy.  And believe me – his voice is FAR worse than mine!!!  But, without obstacles like mine, he can express himself and his happiness.  That is what I want.  To be able to vocalise my happiness, to feel the healing vibration of voice.

From the perspective of the Collective Consciousness of Humanity – because we must always remember that we are each a microcosm of the macrocosm, a part of the weaving of the entirety of life on this planet and the planet itself – we are being given the gift of being able to work consciously to release fear.  We are each individual aspects of the Collective and the fears we each hold has an effect on the Collective.  If we can each work to release even a small part of our everyday fears, there will be a major energy shift in the Collective.  If we can make that shift happen, it gives us a breathing space.  The equivalent of stepping back from the obstacle in front of us, so we can look at it with fresh eyes and work out a way to get around, over, or under it and get back onto the timeline that I, for one, would prefer to be on.

If you are not already a part of the International Koalition of Krones 106 Days to Release Fear, I invite you to join us.  Let us build this energy together.  There is a link below for how to check us out and see if you want to be a part of this work. It’s not hard work and it allows you to not only personally feel the energetic vibration, but it allows you to transmit that vibration into the world, because if you, as an integral part of the Collective feels the vibrations, so too does the Collective.

For me this releasing of fears allows another energy the room to grow.  The energy of Hope. Hope is what I felt as I completed the Mantra. Hope that this fear of being heard will finally be done with. Hope is the Energy I want with me as we travel through this current timeline, until the time comes that Hope is no longer needed, because we have chosen the timeline reality that will lead us forward into Joy, Love, Peace, Respect, Equality and more.

Gy’ Shé em
Flip the Fear and Shine your Bling

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The International Koalition of Krones (IKoK) is an international group of Spiritually Awakened Wise Women whose goal is to assist the Collective in it’s continued Spiritual Awakening & Consciousness Expansion Journey during this time on Earth referred to as “The Great Awakening”

The Founder of the IKoK, Essence Ka tha’ras, is, amongst many other things, a Master Metatronic Numerologist. If you wish to explore her work, and the work of the IKoK, there are links below.

There are also You Tube and Soundcloud links to the full IKoK Chats if you wish to know more about the work we do.

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Author: Krone Auri'An

Flip the Fear, Find the Bling

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