Posted in 2020

Helping Ego

Today I want to share a personal story with you.  It’s something that happened a few years back – when I was barely started on my Awakening Journey.  It took me a few years to fully understand what had happened in that situation, but it is something that profoundly affected me and I see the same Energy of it happening in current society.  Other people falling into the same trap.  And it is because I understand just how easy it is to fall into this trap – and how very hard it is to get out again – that I am sharing this today. This is about wanting to help and how in some cases, helping is actually inappropriate and it can back-fire.   It’s also a very eye-opening tale about Ego – and just how sneaky it can be.

I’ve always had this strong urge to help people.  I saw myself as a “helper” and quite frequently as a “Rescuer”.  The urge to help people was very strong. 

I had a friend who needed help.  She was a close friend, I considered her a sister and I could see that she was hurting very badly but she wouldn’t tell me what the problem was.  Sometimes she was angry, sometimes very fearful and it broke my heart to watch her.  I felt so ineffective.  I knew, I KNEW I could help if she’d only tell me what the problem was.

Then, in dance class, she was in tears and I went to give her hug.  That was all it took and she became furiously angry, focused all that anger at me and spat out all the fear and venom that she had been holding right at me.  I was devastated.  Devastated that I couldn’t help my friend and I was absolutely desperate to do so. 

Yes, my friend had a problem.  Something that was causing her distress, but she had made it very clear that she didn’t want help.  I dis-respected her choice and in my desperation to help I turned her problems into a story about me.  It became about my need to help.  MY inability to reach her and sort things out.  MY emotional distress at being refused.  After all – all I wanted to do was to help.  It was years later that I realised I had exacerbated the situation because of my Ego.  It was my Ego that drove me to insist on helping even when my help wasn’t sought after or wanted.  I didn’t see that my Ego as involved.  How can it be Egotistical when all you want to do is GIVE?  To Help?  But the reality was, my Ego was jumping up and down, waving flags and holding a party because it had made me so sure that I was the Saviour of my friend’s situation.

So how come this personal story from several years back relates to what is happening to Starseeds right now.  Well, we’ve spoken over the last few chats (IKoK Bi-monthly chats – see below for info) about the addiction energy that is draining Starseeds.  We’ve spoken about how strong it is and chances are you’ve grieved over friends who seem to be lost down the rabbit hole of QAnon and other conspiracy theories, just as we have.  What we haven’t spoken of is how this addiction actually grabs hold of Starseeds.   Well.  It seems to me that it is Ego that opens the door to that addiction.  That need to help, that DRIVE to help can become so very, very strong that it does become like an addiction.  You need that hit of knowing that you helped someone feel better.

Starseeds, almost without exception, want to help people.  So what better way to hook Starseeds than to show them people who need help.  People they feel desperately that they NEED to help, that they are able to help. People who are suffering intense pain.  Abuse.  Torture.  Black Magic. Stuff you can barely imagine.  And when it’s children who are suffering this things?? Well the need goes right up through the roof.  And what does QAnon etc give them.  These very things.  Through Conspiracy Theory, they show Starseeds the stories that tap into that very real desire to help those who cannot help themselves.  Starseeds are being taken down with their own gifts.  Gifts that should be used to help humanity.  They are ‘fighting’ for a made-up cause.  They are giving their Energy to feed those who are trying to take them down.  And they can’t see that they are being driven in the wrong direction by an Ego that is jumping up and down, waving flags.  Having a party.

How do we know that Ego is involved – just read their posts when challenged.  They’ve done what I did.  They’ve turned the story around to be about themselves.  But like me, they can’t see it.  It’s about how they are helping and others aren’t.  It’s about how they protest, carry guns, wear a mask, don’t wear a mask.  It’s about Us and Them.  It’s about division and fear and anger.  It’s not about Love, compassion, peace.  And if very definitely is not about forgiveness.

And the part that is so very hard is that most of these conspiracy theories have some element of truth in them.   All these Starseeds want to do is be the saviour of those who can’t save themselves.  And they haven’t yet worked out that what they think they need so desperately to save is an illusion.

These are just my thoughts. You can agree or not, but I hope that this sharing of my personal story and how I see it applying to what is happening today, has given you some food for thought.

Gy’ Shé em
Auri’An

Note: This is the transcript of a talk I gave on the International Koalition of Krones bi-monthly chat. If you want to watch the You Tube version of this and other chats, readings and messages, please follow this link:
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Posted in 2020

Cause and Effect

Karma.  The word means Deed or Action.  In today’s society we tend to believe that Karma is a kind of balance sheet, basically if someone does something bad to you Karma will ‘get’ them at some point.  We also talk about Karmic Debt – as if we are owed something, or as if we owe something to someone else.  These thoughts are not really wrong – but they are not really correct either.

Karma has a basic law that applies to all realms of Creation, a law of Cause and Effect.  It is common to all major religions – we reap what we sow.  Your destiny is determined by your actions, both current and past and Karma can be carried forward from other existences. Every action leads to some kind of result and every result can be traced to something done in the past.  This applies to pleasurable things as well as painful things.

There is no way you can avoid this, everyone is an integral part of the whole, but what you can do is to work selflessly in this life whilst working to redress past actions.  You must work for the greater good of all and not just for Self. 

We can, once aware, work to bring balance to our Karma – but are you aware that Karma doesn’t apply just to individuals?  That Karma can be accrued through selfish – and selfless – means on a Collective basis?

Think about this: 

We have an individual who takes action in either a selfish or a selfless way and that brings in that law of Cause and Effect. 

What about when a group of people come together to take some form of action?  They form a Collective Consciousness – and yes that Collective Consciousness can accrue Karma.  That could be something like the International Koalition of Krones.  We, each of the Krones have our own Karma, but because we work together, we are also building a Group Collective Conscious Mind and that too can accrue Karma.

Now expand that through a city, a country, the entire planet. 

And expand again through linear time…….   MAN – there is some Karma that needs to be re-balanced on this world eh?

Many people don’t realise that there is a potential trap in this Karmic Cause and Effect.  Not all Karma is painful.  Cause and Effect only looks at the fact that an action took place – at the Energy of the action and not what that action actually was.  When we have experienced pleasurable Karma, we have a tendency to want to repeat the pleasure and we can be driven to seek it again and again.  That can trap us by reinforcing our connection to this physical realm, and can even result in us forgetting our Spiritual work – the very reason we are here.  And that is bad news for Starseeds who get trapped in this loop.  That good Karma, which seemed so pleasurable at first, can end up becoming a selfish pleasure – an addiction that is not for the greater good of all, only for the benefit of the individual.  Obviously this is not something we’d consciously do (at least I hope not) and we can get back on track by ensuring that our work is without selfish attachments.

Let’s take this one a little further – let’s paint a picture of how easy it is to get a Starseed off track in today’s society.

Starseed A (“A”) has been working hard to widen her knowledge base, to spiritually grow, to raise her vibration.  She’s seen some Conspiracy Theory stuff on Facebook but didn’t really take a lot of notice.  Over the next couple of years more CT posts appear and at first she thought things like “Really?  People actually believe this?” but gradually some of the things started to make a bit more sense to her.    Especially as there is so much trouble in the world – someone has to take the blame.  Don’t they? 

And then things go bottom-up.  Fear is the major emotion running through the country – through the world – like wildfire.  Media seems to be fanning the flames of this fear and “A” is feeling overwhelmed.  Then she sees a post on Facebook that really catches her attention.  Someone is being hurt.  Some group of defenceless individuals are having to fight to survive, and she is an empathic healer – she can help fix this, she knows she can, so she starts to share these posts – raising awareness.  “A” believes that by ‘raising awareness’ she is helping the cause; that someone will see that many people are protesting this and that this ‘someone’ will do something to fix it.

We’ve all see this.  We may even have been a part of such a thing.  The intention is good and “A” believes she is helping.  She’s experienced pleasurable Karma.  It feels good and she works hard to help some more.

BUT

But the problems never seem to get resolved.  At least not without a whole heap of pain, and fear and anger. 

We all know this cycle, but do we know what is happening Energetically?

First, “A” has fallen into the Karma trap.  The one where initial pleasure leads to seeking more pleasure.  She wanted to help, felt like she was helping and so wanted to help more, getting into a cycle that was getting deeper and deeper.  More and more about the physical and less and less about the Spiritual work.  The Energy.

And because she is not focusing on the Energy, she doesn’t feel the heaviness of what she is doing.  She doesn’t recognise that the initial pleasure that she felt at doing something that may help others has stopped being pleasurable.  She doesn’t understand that she no longer feels Joy in what she is doing.  Instead she’s angry, and she feels justified in her anger, because she still feels she is working on the side of right.

“A” doesn’t realise that she is actually giving Energy – low frequency energy – to the very people who set up the situation in the first place. She is feeding Energy into the situation, believing she is doing good, but in reality hers is just another tiny little whisper, one of many that fan the flames of Karma and the addictive Energy of the Shadow Side Forces of Light.  And this is OLD Karma.  It’s been building for millennia. 

Starseeds are being sucked dry.  They are being made ineffective in the very work they are here to do.  And the hardest thing for those who are not in this addictive cycle is to watch them and know that there is very little we can do to help other than be there for them.

There is another player in this scenario.  It’s a big player, one that can be tricky to recognise, especially when you are affected, and it can be very painful to overcome.  When “A” feels like she is constantly giving; that she is fighting a battle to fix everything for those she sees needing her help; when she tries to convince others to join her cause, this is because her initial selfless act has now become selfish.  Ego has joined the party.

All beings work for their own pleasure and gain and in this situation they have lost touch with the initial selfless act and become so tied up in what they are doing and what they are determined to fix, that the selfless has become selfish. 

In the journey of Karmic Imbalance and addiction to the Energies produced by the Shadow Side Forces of Light, the Energies of Anger and Selfish Desire are our greatest enemies.  These are powerful Energies that move us to act in such a way that even when we want to do the right thing, we end up doing the wrong thing.  It is a destructive power that can drive us away from our purpose and into self-delusion and despair.

We need to detach from Anger and Selfish Desire.  We need to understand that our true nature is not to be caught up in these emotions.  If we can’t return to our true nature we will always be caught in the emotional storms of passion (anger, fear) and inertia.

Starseeds, we are here to aid humanity.  We are here to guide, to hold space, to shine light.  How easy it has been to make so many of us forget that.