There are times when I can be so dense.
I work with the Law of Attraction. I teach my clients how their thoughts create their reality. I even paint a verbal picture of how Spirit/Universe/God/whoever looks at Mrs X and says how very much she must enjoy arguing with her neighbour because she’s always talking about their arguments with everyone who stands still long enough to listen, and how Spirit/Universe/God/whoever thinks that it will make sure that Mrs X gets lots of that argumentative Energy sent to her because she obviously enjoys it. It’s sort-of funny. What you focus on is what you get is the bottom line of working with the Law of Attraction.
Except, when it came to me, I totally managed to misplace how Belief also plays a part. How the deep-down beliefs that we hold – those that are such a part of us that we don’t even consider them to be a ‘belief’ – are also in the game.
Money is a good example. Being an older person, but not old enough to retire, I have, for the last year or so, been living on unemployment benefit. This is roughly 50% of what is considered the bread-line in Australia. So money, or rather the lack of it, is a constant in my life.
I work really hard to maintain a high-vibrational frequency: I volunteer, I do what I can to help others da-da-da… I also have this almost-constant refrain rolling through my head about money. Or the lack of. How I can’t afford to get my hair cut or a colour put through it. How I ride a tricycle because a car is way out of budget; how it’s eggs for dinner again because they are cheap. Anyone on a tight budget understands this – it colours just about every thought. You have to weigh-up every pair of socks you need to buy against what else you could use that money for. It’s almost impossible to stop thinking about the lack.
What I also do is ‘flip’ those thoughts: my hair is beautiful in it’s natural state and the grey is so shiny; the tricycle is fun, I decorate it and put Christmas lights all over it so people don’t miss seeing me; how eggs are no longer the dietary villain but are actually a food that gives me almost everything I need. I am, actually, a heap better off than many people on this planet. I meditate, chant affirmations, I work in the physical world to promote my counselling and healing business and keep telling myself that it WILL get off the ground and that I WILL become self-sufficient again and so much more.
But there’s that deep down belief, the one that is always at the back of my mind however much I flip thoughts and actions – that I’ll never have enough money; that money really IS the actual root of all evil, after all it was a major player in all the dramas that have happened in my life…. And on it goes.
Today, I was reading “Act of Faith – Conversations with P’taah” when I had a ‘light-bulb’ moment and mentally slapped myself upside the head! How many times on a daily basis do I say that “Everything is Energy?” How often do I bemoan that many spiritual people mouth words but don’t really understand what they are saying? I actually love these moments when my ‘humanness’- my fallibility is pushed up front so I can’t help but fall over it. And there it was – the reason my manifestation of a flow of money to me and through me wasn’t happening. I’d thought I’d been working so hard on not focusing on my lack of money, yet all the while I was still holding a deep-down belief that money was something bad. I had totally forgotten that money is simply Energy. No bigger, no smaller in importance than a light bulb or a flower bulb or absolutely anything else in this reality. Simply an Energy form, made manifest into physical reality in order to exchange it for other energy. Money itself isn’t evil, money itself isn’t what stops me getting my hair cut and coloured. Money just is.
It’ll be interesting, as I work to dispel this belief structure of mine, to observe how it all works. How changing my beliefs about money from something that has always been a major player in my life dramas into simply Energy, works with the Law of Attraction. How those pieces of paper are actually unimportant. It’s the possibilities that they energetically hold that is important. Everything – including money – is simply Energy.
Thank you BB – I know you have been trying to explain this to me for a while. I THINK I’ve got it – at least, I am aware and working on the concept!